It’s been such a long time that I have blogged. I feel that there are cobwebs all over my blog... What have been doing? Hmmm... Well, I quit my job at the end of Jan. it just didn't work out. Trying to clean y old place as I’m moving in with B-G. I transfer all my mail to his place. Getting the house clean, washing buying sofas, a bed & dishes. Baby sitting my godchild, while her mom goes out. my birthday was the 14th, my godchild's b-day is the 19th (tomorrow). My brother's b-day is coming up the 22nd... Then Christina’s is the 1st of April & my niece’s b-day is the 30th of April, which I will be there to celebrate her 2nd b-day! I can’t wait! I wonder if the clothes I bought her will fit her. I’m sorta anxious to see them all… I haven’t seen them in a while so it’s going to be great! Plus, my mom has a doggy due to my brother leaving so she didn’t want to be alone. That is nice. He has the weirdest name that I can’t ever remember it cuz it’s so hard to pronounce for me anyways.
Done for now... I have been pretty lazy and have learned that I have carpal tunnel syndrome (bilateral, on top of it all) which makes my hands ache and numb in the morning I guess due to the years of computer junkie! When I go in the computer for long periods of time I pay for it at night. So its been taking me for ever to do my page... it sucks to be me... I have found a few dreams from December 2003:
Dream sequence not known!
I wonder what it means when you have a dream about giving birth to a boy who is a bit tan and with beautiful round eyes. Which reminded me of my brother when he was little I was trying to see how to raise him but at the same time finding food to give him. I asked two teenage boys for help one said maybe with a teasing manner towards the other and me said maybe but followed his friend/brother. They were at one point trying to kill me or hurt me. It was in a room that each side of the wall had bunk beds. That belongs to them. In the middle a rug I pleaded with them, but with no budging from either. I left but one gave me some food. Then they disappear, I went into another room, where an old lady was beating up another old lady and two people were just looking on. I tried to help but she came after me with the end of a brown 1/2 broken belt. She looked familiar then it became sort of like a home/street or hallway, even then I screamed at the top of my lungs. I was trying to cover my baby and out of no where Kelly Clarkson came to rescue me... she started to beat her up, karate style. Then the old bat came at her, me watching on the sidelines. Then I tried to call 911 on my cell but the old bat kicked it out my hands and went once again after Kelly but then she just jumped off the window. As the place was on the ground floor and near the staircase of the entrance. Reminded me of Armando's old apt on Marlow St. near Vendome metro...
12/17/03
Do you need me? The place where I’m working, the people are not nice to work with. I hate being here I’m depressed. Yeah, yeah. I listen to Ana, but then attitudes as happy as I am there needs to be some sort of feedback from others too. I don't know maybe I’m to sensitive, that maybe. But this is not working for me. I use to like to come to work, now I hate it! Don’t get me wrong there are those few who are ok, but I dot like my dept. everyone is always, it's so... and soo... fault. Blaming everyone else but then the blame-game starts neither side apologizing! Anyways, that doesn't count for what the atmosphere is like. I have been getting sick. I think it maybe caused by the ambiance I’m in. I hope the company gets good and profits but I’m sorry to say I cannot be part of it! I needed to write it or it would have come out when I talked.
When errors are done:
I never get told of the error. It’s like I don't exist. For crying out loud I’m just a few feet away, I can hear them whispering! freaked'
On top of it all if I have made a mistake it's either:
- R gets pissed at me and gives me attitude all day!
- Or she tries to fix it, and talks on a 3rd party way, which I am fad up!
Due to the above is a major reason that I left the company. It couldn't have been helped! Oh well, next!
What else has happened, let me think, hmmm... my mom bought a business which I am truly happy and I will go see her on the 21st of April, which is good that I will see my brother as he is not going to boot camp until the 25th. He was suppose to leave on his b-day the 22nd of March but he is not yet ready so they extended his PT for the 25th of April. He will serve 4years, which I guess is good. My mother gave him an ultimatum either he joins or he leaves home. Well, this was good the decision he made due to his crazy shit he was doing before, doing all sorts of drugs which led him to quit his jobs. Which my mom was pissed as hell! But now everything is back to normal and he’s once again on a good path. Due to the fact he is the only boy in our family he’s not put in dangerous situations, which I’m happy for that!!!
