with blog explosion!

had a great breakfast! yum... kitty sleeping and b-g has his boxers up in a bunch!
aaarrrggghhh...
b-g has to testify on a drunk-driver that came in a few weeks ago... he was the doc who was on duty and now they need his testimony of how drunk he was... apparently he hit someone and the paper work needed to get him was not given to b-g. the police did not follow protocol. b-g has called the prosecutor to get answers and but they have yet to call him. so, now b-g is up and arms... he's so cheeezzeeeeddd!!!

found at rieke's - neo counter... may use it? still thinking!

the letter and check!

so the evening started pretty nice... saw the OC season finale and ate gyro's... yum... then b-g went to get the mail and got me 3 pieces this time... so, i get an envelop 'the adminstrative offices of RPR/OFV: RECORDS DIVISION' in florida, it said... got me curious that i left the other 2 envelops at the corner of the bed... opened it up and was sorta dumbassed by the fact i didn't know why the 'RAMADA PLAZA RESORT' was sending me a boarding voucher? i asked b-g to look at it... he right aways says it's a scam... heee... i'm thinking i wonder just maybe... that freaken maybe gets me all the fuckin' time!! so i called and b-g is like 'and what planet do u live on? free only in ur wildest dreams!!' what it never hurts to call... so, i bla with the lady for about, yes, 10 minutes, and i let b-g talk to her as the hand phone died and i was really curious what the website the woman had given us was about... so, i went and read a bit but got bored after a few secs. i started thinking about those fake sites that scam you and decided to google the ramada and then call customer service which they they said they had no affiliations with the 'ramada plaza resorts.' now that got me curious even more and googled 'Ramada Plaza Resorts' and came upon: bling bling.... 1,570,000 searches! all bad... ok so i didnt check them all out but the few i did dang!! and btw b-g was still on the phone with the chick! i wrote on a piece of napkin 'ask her to call back' as she had our #... and i went back to the pc... b-g was not hanging up so i yelled his name to come here... i heard the phone and showed him my goods i had found on the net!
he loves the net at times... he finds it, its a source of so much information... he's a bit bombared by them at times, i think...
he spend about 2hr looking at which was the best car wax and found tons and tons and tons of sites... related to his important fascination of car-waxing stratagies... heee... that was like about 2weeks got this episode happened...
getting back to the freaken scam... i am so happy we didn't go that route!! thanks to the awful experience of others we didn't get scam! we got out of it just in time! thanks to: ripoff, consumer affairs, Fraudulent / Deceptive Vacation Packages, u rate it... the list goes on but these are a few that helped us...

been a while since the last time... i haven't felt an itch to write at all... i have change all my stuff becasue some stupid asshole!! was such a... you know what i have dealt with it and well i don't give a rats ass! that was my rant! i'm over it!

so things been ok... had a few fights with b-g but we are finally getting over them... i got my pc back yesterday! it was taken on Saturday... but before that i had no feelings to write down... i had been reading everyone else... some were good others, there is no updates. all good.

funny bloopy was in my dreams with tony... so funny, which i don't even know, i'm a total wierdo!!! so it went like this:
i was wearing a long white dress with tiny flowers all over it, it was a garden party... people kept picking them out, like i was a freaken' bush! tony and bloopy were sitting outside on the balcony/backyard talking. they were sitting on my new table & chair set that b-g and i bought 1 month ago.. there was this dark green moss growing on the wall where they were seated (why i remember that no idea)... i came closer to them and they stared at my dress like it was a freak show. i thought it was pretty i told them, they agree that it was not! started to argue about it and they pissed me off so much that i just walked away crying... but as i walked away, i heard tony's words 'i like my women without baggage!' and bloopy's laugh ringing in my ear woke me up... i was sobbing! it struck a core...

that was about 2 weeks ago...

by Ozzy

Voices, a thousand, thousand voices
Whispering, the time has passed for choices
Golden days are passing over, yeah

I can’t seem to see you baby
Although my eyes are open wide
But I know I’ll see you once more
When I see you, I’ll see you on the other side
Yes, I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side

Leaving, I hate to see you cry
Grieving, I hate to say goodbye
Dust and ash forever, yeah

Though I know we mus be parted
As sure as stars are in the sky
I’m gonna see when it comes to glory
And I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side
Yes I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side

Never thought I’d feel like this
Strange to be alone, yeah
But we’ll be together
Carved in stone, carved in stone, carved in stone

Hold me, hold me thight, I’m falling
Far away. distant voices calling
I’m so cold. I need you darling, yeah

I was down, but now I’m flying
Straight across the great divide
I know you’re crying, but I’ll stop you crying
When I see you, I see you on the other side
Yes. I’ll see you. see you on the othe side
I’m gonna see you. see you on the other side
God knows I’ll see you, see you on the other side, yeah

insanity would be the best policy or more like pure bliss... so i have been in a spiral to nothingness and somethingness... the picture gets smaller and smaller as it gets to the end... things keep coming up that will eventually faid into oblivion...

i decided to click on the next blog link and ended up at a couple's blog which seem so cute, i wish my man and i could do the same but regretfully it will never happen, he's to lost in his practice... i don't mind, it did however struct a cord with me when i was reading about them her name Debra she like HGTV and a nurse... she automatically reminded me of b-g he a loves HGTV and is a doc... ok so my analigy is dumb... but i found it to be a similarity. heee... his name Eric a producer and politically savy... they have 2 kitties and we have ms. Carly... I can't seem to see their aol site... they impacted me and change my depressive state... thx...

then i went around and landed on the following today:
* canadaka... a site to promote Canadian patriotism, nationalism, Canadian sovereignty and democracy.
* does the future belong to China? - article

April 28th:
* Laas - zulieka's man aka Freddy...
* christopher griffin a click that i did a few days ago but found movie site which i found to be pretty interesting!
* coffee cold... left a message there...
* cute asian chick from Singapore her name Sandee
* a young guy's life living on his own in Singapore, i like the simpleness of the site... 'simple perspective'
* another Singapore girl name Natalie...
* Gina left me a message on Jan 13 05 - 04:25:31, she has a very cute site..
* i cannot remember how i came upon this site... but found it cute... her name Kanu from India, she has a LJ i got kiss my pixels.
* blog patrol - free site statistics, reports, and graphs on Visitor Activity and Technology in real time for your blog

on April 25th:
* what can i say... Ron...
* beer guy... another Ron!
* reminded me of OCM... his name Don Singleton except that he supports Bush... heee...
* a little bit of insurance...
* in-motion... of the ocean, i just had to say that cuz it rhymed... no but really it was a site which has stuff about Montreal... it caught my eye... like Weight of the World Schools Challenge
* i liked her... 'overworked and underfucked' she will be going on my reads... that's for sure in a few days though...
* a Chinese radio station...
* Diva but she hasn't posted since April 25?
* Nickle Annie... this site was fun... i love her pic... from her i got the Which cocktail are you quiz...
* Claire Belle's site is very nice... done by flirt and anna of blogtogs...

the days... and the savers... what the fuck does that mean... beeatched out...

the days pass... and all i look forward is nothing. i hate that i cannot look foward to the future, at times. i like all that is pretty and cute and some that is bad and naughty. i have been in this loosing weight battle thing. why? because i need to go back to me. i have strayed from myself for long awhile. i take full responsibility for all my deeds. i need to take my life back from the gutter that i dropped it from, i have neglected all of me and none of me has been happy for a long time.

as i bitch about my life. i am making sushi rice and sweet red bean soup for tonight. i love that, cooking for him and feeling like a house-wify. probably, get a dessert from Nonya, b-g likes it. i want a commitment and i want to be not so stupid and dumb about/with men. the beans are still freaken hard as little rocks. i want a change, i don't really know what i want but i know 100% that i want a change in my life. for now i concentrate on my body image that is so distorted, that needs my full attention.

so, i printed 3 copies of the 'order forms' for the stamps, thanks to bloopy for the site... he is such a sweety. reminds me of my best friend mondo [his site is down]. too bad he's so far away... if my life would have turned out different i would still be living in a LA, but no my mother had to, like, jump ship and run to the north... freak... that is a story within a story... never mind. let's not talk about the past is too but too sad and painful!

b-g is... tired had a 12 hr shift at the children's and now he's out at a meeting. he's so devoted to his practice i am very happy for him. he works hard and loves what he does. but things are not progressing to something that i want and wished for a long time. i have to really think and get my brain around this, but i want to make my future and i somewhat believe that we make our own path so i come to a fork on the road and i have been there for a long, long time... i need to re-access my life and see where it takes me. i have no children, nothing to keep me here and still i remain... why? is it that inside i feel so inferior and i have no chance to survive in the real world, so i remain in this bubble safe and warm, away from the hardships and pain. i know it so well and i really keep myself from going there ever... it scares me to death!

aaahhhh.... dang, i wish we had photo.stamp {link from bloopy which he found at j-walk} available at the Canadian Post Office... I went even crazy to write to them about it... what is wrong with me? I found it to be so cool and such a great idea that I had to mention it to them and see if they would even take it into consideration but I think they will just blow me off and that will be the end of that... I may get some for my mom and sis though heee... that sounds great! that will be my next thing... I have to get registered though... These are great gifts for to give at christmas time!