
I cannot believe he send me so much stuff... I thought he would send me something small... I thanked
Tony from the bottom of my heart. He send me a really nice note from him and he signed all 4 books but 2 of them where personalized, I just love it! I got my packaged late afternoon of Nov. 18th. I had been sort of sad and depressed and just left it on the table... B-G asked who was this
Tony guy? What is going on? He got a bit jealous but soon I told him the story of how I sort of know
Tony and I ended up with the package...
I swear this man, judges if I am seeing someone else behind his back. I told him to please trust me and if I will cheat trust me I will break up with him before that happens... I did the two guy thing a while ago and it was just too stressful to keep it quiet. In the end I admitted to one what had happened and I crushed his heart completely... Anyways, that's another story...

Getting back to my story about my beautiful blooks... I finally opened my box, after mind you,
Tony send me an email... I was just such a tart... I send him an email thanking him so very much... I have no idea but one of my favorite things to like have is gum, I don't leave home with out it. I have tried many but the Zapp one I have not! I didn't even try it when i was in LA last year... As I brought a box Canadian gum... No kidding... What ever so I am wierd, like I care...
I been using my 'Nothing in here is true' notepad like crazy. It's my Japanese phrase book, my calorie count book and my x-mas list book! It's great...
I also joined the Gym which was great! I finally, will loose these 30 punds that have been on my shoulders since I quit smoking 2yrs ago! I been obsessing over things that I shouldn't and now I will try to make myself feel better...

I hate the fact that I am so out of shape. Í want to change my habits and get healthier... I also need to finish of my school... I have left it out for so long, I need a new brain. I been thinking stupid and idiotic things which no more... I have turned a new leaf and will be more happy in the end with it...
My dream sequence before wakin this morning was pretty normal compare to my other dreams. This one was about getting married and finding out that B-G's mom wanted to have 748 guests. I felt like crying.
As I was in the bathroom about to take shower, I decided to wash my hands as I turned the knob and a big burst of water from an exposed pipe to my left shot water all over the place. The wall started to crack and the only thing I could do was scream 'Help!' Who showes up but the Japanese guy... I looked at him and asked why he was here, how did he find me? I was so confussed and when we came out of the bathroom there was like 20 people just staring at us. We both were wet and on top of it all I was half dressed.

B-G and his parents just burst out with 'What's going on, here?' I tried to explain... B-g kept walking away from me. I tried to follow him but he kept walking so fast, the Japanese guy kept following me. And I felt so confussed... As I approached B-G and was about to say something the Japanese grabs my hand and turns me to him, I looked at him and turned my head for a sec and saw B-G looking at us with a puzzled face. As the Japanese guy embraced me towards him and was about to kiss me... The doorbell rang... I woke and answer the door it was a Jehova witness... I sort of took the panphlet from her and excused myself, as I had just woken up. She said sorry and left...
I could not go back to my dream and lay there trying to understand that dream... What the hell... What was that all about? But to my dismay I could not even go back to sleep... So I am here updating my blog...