Still in the same shitty mood as always... Trying to live life and its trying to suck me clean of my desire to live... I hate the holidays... This one will be one to fuckin' forget...

So, tomorrow is my first day! That is the only thing that will save me for now! I look forward to the daily grind. This one will be worth it. Japan seems so far away! What have I been doing with my life just dreaming and being stupid. i have to wakeup and smell the coffee before the train leaves me behind or decides to throw me into oblivion.

Seems funny now, of how things were just a few months ago. Now, it's total hatret of happythings aaahhh! Get me out of this hell hole...

My apt is still being invaded by the J-guy... He's better half comes on the 22nd... until 2nd... well good for them!!! Helped with payment and he paid back... I still need to give him a bill for the phone, he wanted... Due March!! He has 2 more months and I get my apt. Which I don't want... I need to do a clean sweep of that place!!! There is shit there I hate and don't want. Too many memories... I hate it there! If I go back it will literally scar me for life!!!

BTW:


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So, life is great I guess... I'm still in the garden of hell trying to make my way out is really hard. When a door closes a window opens that is me at the moment. I feel like I hope my life changes in a few months. I want so much to forget and not feel anything for now. I want to scream, cry and just vent!! To who, know one! Why, cuz who wants a freaken' annoying woman venting about stupid shit!!!

Been playing with my baby DS... He's sweet and doesn't hurt me... BabyNano is doing great. He got new clothing from zCovers.

I need to find a new car plug for my pods... The other sorta is dying! What's good out there?

tube-blogging she is totally funny and keeps me amused!!

Been doing some penpal emailing lately. Its sort of fun and keeps me busy! I met one of them she was great. She seems to be nice and will be leaving in Feb to LA then back to Japan. Hope she can help me and well I can do the same thing.

Have also been chatting a few times with mr.nosthegametoo. He really makes me laugh and I guess I do the same for him. Aaah, the cancer sticks are still in my life but for him it's been 15mths and so very proud of him!!!

My internet connection is kind of loony, I sometimes can't go to peeps blogs the freaken thing is trying to drive me batty!!! I need to check stuff on the web about firefox. Do I need to upgrade or something on that line.

Need to upload my pictures of my tree and the cats loving it... heee...

So, finally got OLDCATMAN's new it onto my list. Finally, sorry about that... Need to really go and read and read. Been such a long time that I have ignore all my reads. But still using a someone else's PC. And I cannot always use it! AAAAAHHHH! I need my own... Where's the money insurance man!!! Where's the money!!!!

Since Sept. 16, the insurance report has been done with all the details of all the things stolen. We picked up the stuff that was recover from the robbery. An alarm has been installed. I have developed some narcissistic issues due to the break in.

October was a blur...

My Japanese tutor left for Japan Nov. 3rd for ever. He will not be returning. Goodbye to him!

On the 12th of Nov. I ended in the US. I was suppose to stay there for 4 months but it was not meant to be. I spend time with my mother which we had a fight and she kicked me out and went to stay with my sister. She was really nice. We went shopping and my niece is so damn cute. Now 4yrs old she is not so shy. I babysat her twice. She goes to private preschool. Thanksgiving was OK decided to stay home and cook at my sisters.

While there went shopping for flavor creamers as there are none here. I bought 10 and was charged $50USD at the airport as the bag was 69Kilos. But it was worth it!!

I got 2 pair of boots I love them so! Got some shirts and a couple of gloves which are great!

I been quite emotional these past few weeks! I was such a looser on the plane I started to cry for no apparent reason.

Oh need to mentioned that last week, which I was surprised, I got a job offer from a headhunter for IBM. And a few days ago I got another 2 offers for jobs which I am some what confidence that I'm qualified for.

Right now I have no Apt. as I sort of sublet it to a Japanese guy. I cannot live there until March. Back where I came from, am I!

Was planning on heading to Japan in Dec. but it will not happen. The thoughts of going are still there but maybe later on next year when I have some money.

Been spending money I don't have! Got the iPod Nano Red 4GB which was suppose to be for someone but the plans fell through and now I have ended up with it. The cost $229CAD [$199Us].

I still don't have a PC been wishing that the insurance gives me enough for my crap to buy an apple laptop that is my wish.

Wed. 29th, was when the beautiful crystal white DS, that I finally wanted, was purchased with 2 games [animal crossings & brain age], a kit [which includes 18 things] that cost 19.99 for the DS and a 2yr warranty in case it breaks. You never know! Now all the games that I had bought in eBay are being use all 8 of them. I am a happy camper. But still have to purchase a few more to keep me more amused.

Now I have my eyes on the Wii but I will wait until the DVD feature is activated on the consoles next year. And maybe just maybe it will be a little less... Plus, I been reading on the net and got told by the Japanese guy staying at my place that the Wii remotes can break easily and 2 people have reported that the console stopped working for no apparent reason. Nintendo was nice enough to replace the consoles for free. NICE!

I been listening to Ozrosaurus. Japanese rapper from Yokohama, not bad!

So the Advance GB Advance and NGC are gone with GenkiBlocks and Animal Crossings. They were in the consoles and also 2 NGC memory cards!!! Bye Bye games. Damn!! Let's not think of that now...

Japan CM on you tube are pretty interesting!