so tomorrow i leave for 19 days to visit my mom... dang. this morning my mom calls me to tell me that my bother iwll be going to boot camp this afternoon at 2pm.. he leaves. that really sucks... i will not see him for about 3 months... he's like i can write.. aint that sweet... so that is it for my borther he is finally on his way and will serve in the MARINES for 4 yrs in total... he's happy somewhat his friends tell him his nutzzz... but hey its what he wants to do... more like my mom pushed him to do it... to get straighten up!! as he was into drug-experimenting.. and my mom was fed up so she gave him a ultimatum... that was go into the MARINES and straighten up!!! so that was it! he joined! and now he's gone for 3 months... he told me that he has a six pack and short hair, i told him i dont care how you look, for goodness sake your my bro... tell that to some hotty chick that you want to pick up, but still remembering to practice safe sex thats when he said lets change the subject... i dont need my sister tellimg me what to do in those intimate circumstances... well i told him why then did you bring it up in the first place.. with the looking thing... haaa... i got a rise out of him... which as always, he says what ever, kids... i do love the boy!! we talked for like 1hr 1/2... he wont be with us for our neice's (VALERIE) birthday... its her 2nd but he was there for her 1st so was i which was just the family and a friend of my sister...



i feel much better today, a bit nervous over the flying thing. as i hate it... i feel sick for like 3-4 days after the flight... it takes my body along time to get back to normal... ooh... been playing LITERATI at yahoo... which is fun... its like scrabble... which is freaken addictive... heee...



that is alll.... well need to go pack and take a shower and eat and sleep... i'll try to update during my leave... k... have a good one....laterzzz....

But Feeling DOWN...

went to visit my reads and felt like blabBing so much (which at that time i was on an up beat) that i had to check out a new blog which led me to a place which i been having fun for the past 2hrs... it's called photofriday... which is so nice... they have like challenges of different things on a friday... last friday's was 'self portrait' which was suggested by playapixie... she herself has a really cool pic that she entered... she's at #276! check her out!!



well before that i went to see tasberry she's doing good... one of her co-workers went into surgery and came out pretty badly but she has found out she is doing ok except she has no leg. it's sad.. mr. rob is still out since Dec/ 03... darksyde is still kinda there but needs a little of encouragement to post.. heee... as for rieke, i hope she's doing good.. her sons came to visit her so she was happy on that note... miss demi is kinda on her 'P' so it is hard on her... too much i know the feeling excatly... OLDCATMAN has his channel posting going on... the comedy channel is playing pretty good programs at his place... heeee... gale (anonymous gurl) is still out... soon she'll be up and going, i hope...

ike OLDCATMAN was saying to put a sample of our voices up on our blogs that would be great... to hear how we all sound! that's fun... he has one on his page... and it's pretty cool!! he has the nicest voice ever... heeee.... ***blush*** miss ginger & miss candy... are doing pretty well, except for the case of teasing and the repairman incident... heee... jen jen hasnt posted since the 11th but she has made her presence noticed... hope she's ok probably pretty busy! tangerine... is still in the outs since feb... hope she comes... she has the cutest pic of the "BRB"... heee... lynn has no comments so i cant really say hi to him... but i still go see him.. he's into the one phrase blog right now... hey he hasn't even responded to my email... still on the waits... heee...



these are my thoughts of my regular reads at times i dont post what im thinking or what i feel... i dont know really what to say and explaining is like i feel like i go on a circle... here... its freaken blowing all sorts and i think its going to freaken rain like crazy, i know it... but the sky is so dark, like how i feel inside... what an ugly day it is today... i'm listenning to "WHERE IS THE LOVE" by BLACK EYED PEAS... it makes me so sad and to think we humans are such uncaring people... makes me feel i shouldn't be in this harsh world... i feel hurt inside... OLDCATMAN knows the reality that exists in this hard/uncaring world. we destroyed and we kill each other... something wrong with that picture... don't you think...POWER is what is all about... DOMINATION is the name of the game... i hate that .... what to do BUT to bitch about it... CAN ONE PERSON CHANGE THIS HORRIBLE WORLD... im not saying that there are no good things or good people in this world, there are but some times THAT IS NOT ENOUGH... well for me anyways!!



this is my feeling of the day.... I'M GOING TO HAVE A GOOD CRY NOW, TOO MUCH SADNESS HAS CREPT INTO MY HEART AND SOUL!!! laterzzz....

YES I AM SO VERY HAPPY... I CAN READ MY COMMENTS....THEY ARE BACK AND YES.... THANSK OLDCATMAN!!! YOU SO SWEET... HEEE....



will go see about the audio blog... thingy... thanks to eric for coming to say hi... heee.. through demi's favorites!!



did i mention that i can now read my comments... im so happy... ^_^... YEAH!!!

i guess the night went ok... i watched tru calling & CSI:vegas... it was ok... tv was the night thing... i fell asleep around 1:30am... couldn't wait for my boo... but i sorta woke up a bit when he was looking for his jogging pants to change... then like always went to the dining room to work on his paperwork... dang, he works so much and always is stressed out of his mind...



had a wicked as dream yesterday afternoon when boo and i took a nap... which we got up 30 min before he was going to work... cuz i didnt put an alarm to wake us up!! made him a sandwhich, coffee, and put some grapes for him to take to work...



as the dream went... i was in the bathroom and then i started to have gramps which ended up with me having twin girls... then the scene changed.. boo was coming into the house by the slide door from the back as i was walking out of the bathroom with the babies on each arm... he was saying to me to take the groceries and he also said that he had found an old lady and a child which didn't know where they lived. the people didnt know english... boo asked me to take care of them... ignoring the fact that i had just had the twins... then he went into the bedroom and went to bed with our 3 yr old little boy, in the middle of the bed and on the other the old lady was sleeping... i got stucked taking care of the babies, putting away the groceries and taking care of the kid who didnt speak english.. all of a sudden the kid had put the twins into a basin and had taken apart the back of a bookshelf and put it on top of the basin where the twins were... that was so creepy... that i started yellling for boo to wake up... as i screamed i woke up of my dream by boo's voice saying.. wholly shit, i have to get to work....



bla..... dream/nightmare... i dont know... hee... that is all for now....

tru calling, CSI: vegas are on tonight... gonna see these... my favs... i cannot seem to read my comments... dang... i dont know what to do... i have loooked and looked over my code... dang... oh well.. i went and checked out a new blog... she (matty) has what OLDCATMAN has on his page... the audio blog.... heee... dang, dryer beeper, scare the willies out of me... washing & drying clothes at the moment!! so i been watching on and off american idol... i hope that jasmin (17yr old) wins!! she is safe tonight!! found a new cartoon to read on the net!! yeah, name miss dynamite... a bit hentai like... oh well... but is funny... alot of crude jokes but heee, they are funny... heee...



OLDCATMAN has been inspired by tv... he has he letters as if they were tv channels... heee.. they are funny... imagining playing that on tv... or on the net... that would be great!! made me laugh... heee....



ok... time to go... will put up my fav shops and some more tv programs i like.. hee. i watch too much... ok... i know...heee... laterzzz...

finished... practically... i will see if i change it once again... but for now... it will remain... heee....

OLDCATMAN, has a radio voice... he should work in that field... heee.. i am so happy he sent a shout-out to me... i feel so special... thank you so very much... that was a nice surprise this morning! Thank you once again...



laterzz...

annika has an easter quiz that she posted in her site!!



been joining fanlists & cliques that i like an feel that i am part of and been putting them up on my site... which takes awhile as i need to join then i need to add the code to my page then save the pic then uploaded to my site... sheesh takes time.... the next thing is moving my blog to my site... but i think i need to get a program to do that.. which may take some time... for now it will have to stay here... i think its time to change the layout of my blog... that is my next crazy thing to do... but if i do i think i will do the move all in that time.. another few mhts i think... heeee... that has been my day sitting infront of the computer uploaded and looking for cliques/fanlists.. reading all the stuff that has to be done... RULES... dang, it's easter an as i look back to my left i see that my godchild's easter present is sitting there, need to give that to her... soon... heee... but we are going away for the weekend.. i don't know how all that will be working out... as i am truly upset at B-G, he needs to do his billing but he procrastinates too much... which dirves me nuts... sheesh... then i hear all about it: im stress, i need to do my work, im tired, i cannot believe i have to do this... and i goes on and on... the tv is on and it's 4am the same show has been playing for about 2hrs... about some sex show... why women and men feel that they cannot have sex while the woman is pregnant... i dont know... but just as i write this another show that was running previously around 10pm is back making its come back... it's about boobs... bla bla... i have some so i really dont know what the biggy on it... i think is time for me to go sleep.. im truly tired... nighty.. night...

i been around the net surfing through my regular reads... demi & gale are doing their own thing... heee... hope they come back soon... lynn, has his new placed cleaned... miss candy & miss ginger have been on the bling ** bling *** thing... heee.. went to see taz for a lookie look... she's into the cell phone selling thing, her hubby has sold an antique radio for over 1,000$, yeah, SHOPPING!!! that is my first thought... OLDCATMAN has a following i can remember when he was starting out. such a sweetheart... miss rieke i cannot use your tag board... dang... jen jen, has passed by and has complimented on my home page which i find so sweet... hope that she has enjoyed the tapes her parents brought her of American Idol!! heeee... Rob is still out of the picture i hope all is good with him... darksyde, is coming back soon heee, hopefully... he thinks his life is boring if his is boring what is mine then...



as for me i haven't done much i just been tv watching and anxiously awaiting my trip to VA to see my mom... G is not to happy... oh well, spend yesterday watching william hung webpage... thx to jen jen... heee... found a fuse.tv too... through wil's page.. heee... that kept me amuzed... which i send to mondo... heee... it was all good... send emails and deleted some... it was a quiet day.. that reminds me i need to go and pay my bills. damn, bills... they seem never to go away. maybe some day... when im dead they will be gone, not! laterzzz....

Wed, 31st March...

stayed home all day... cleaned up and called for my confirmation to go to visit my mom on the 21st of April... made breakfast for G. we spent the day lazily doing nothing much! just cuddling and talking about our lives where we are at... how far and what we expect from each other... trying to see if and when we should move out of MTL. and go to the english side of Canada. i like it here but don’t get me wrong i want to live where the 1st language is English! yes... i still i’m at that... G doesn’t feel 100% comfortable with French so i tell him to do something about it. we can go anywhere cuz we still are not settled somewhere with kids and all the mambo-jumbo of a couple... oh we'll se as its all talk at the present moment ... more to come on that...



Thurs, 1st April...

breakfast was made and called chris to wish her a happy b-day. which took me a few hrs to find her as her phone was not working and then finally got her... heee.. .

i called the a charity place to come and pick up some stuff that we want to give away... they will come on the 11th of May... such a long time from now, dang!!! they will call a few days before they come...

G went to his meetings and then in the afternoon we went shopping of chris's b-day gift... headed to Future Shop and found the nicest microwave which, i wanted to get but G wanted to look around more... i got her a $50 gift-certificate from La Senza, a pink g-string with the slogan "BARBIE IS A SLUT", small back pack from La Senza, a strawberry candle and flowers...

we got ourselves from "fruit & passion" home fragrant mists 'bamboo & hibiscus' and 'bourbon & vanilla' with a small candle of bamboo & hibiscus. at "la rouet" we bought such cute candles shape like a strawberry, pineapple and watermelon.

in the evening i met her with melissa, steph and alex. we went to eat at "3 Amigos." it was ok food... i didn’t like my shrimp-burrito platter, as the shrimp was not de-veined which i do not even touched stuff like that... so everyone else had a little of mine as i couldn’t eat mine... got me a virgin-strawberry/banana daiquiri... it was really good... but poor chris 's mango/strawberry daiquiri was non-alcoholic which i asked for some more to be added and a shot was brought by the waiter which i think was on the slight gay side... he was really nice and sweet. when he found out about chris's b-day the waiters came and gave her a dessert with a candle in it and a mariachi hat! which she kept, they give them out to b-people... that is nice... cool... i went home with chris and G came to pick me up... it was nice... i was so tired... that when we came home i just drifted to sleep!...



Fri, 2nd April...

woke to freaken coldness... and as always-made breakfast. spoke to chris to tell me that she was coming over for diner with kyanna..

G & i went to Wal-Mart on jean-talon but no luck we did buy (intuition replacement shavers, strawberry shortcake bubble bath, and some stuff for kyanna's Easter-gift) some stuff heee... went to future shop at l'acadie... to get the microwave...

chris came over and i showed her the new microwave 'sunbeam' it was all metal/black. very nice she loved it!

i made chinese style spare-ribs, green beans with beef / ginger / garlic and broccoli & cauliflower... i cooked, if i say so myself it was really good and the presentation was great... as a few weeks ago we had gone to IKEA to get the rest of the dishes to complete our set of 12... yes 12 i don’t know i guess in the future we expect alto of people to come over or may be just in case we break some... hee... anyway, so the dishes were piled like mad and G washed them all... we had cheese cake for dessert chris brought it from her work... it was really good... coffee hit the spot with that... G was on call and he went to the hospital, which took a few hrs that ended chris & kyanna sleeping at our home. G came home at 1am... everyone was fast asleep by then except me i try always to wait for him... so i did he was so tired. he fell asleep on me... i stayed a bit up to watch the end of the 'taxicab - confessions' in the document channel.



Sat, 3rd April...

i woke up pretty early 7 am... started to make breakfast... pancakes, potatoes, sausage, eggs and smoothies... it was a great breakfast... G washed the dishes once again... by the time all was cleaned up and we had all changed... we had to go leave chris to her house... G and i drove her with her new microwave and we set it up for her... we left and came home to just be together we usually don’t have people over so we needed 'we' time... hee....

we went to chinatown got the bento boxes i wanted they are really nice they go with my set of regular Japanese dishes.. it's a good contrast with the nice Japanese dishes that i got in B.C, TO, and Boston... heee...

i wanted to go to my home but he was a bit tired to go so we just stayed home in the evening and listen to music and read a bit... diner was good ate lasagna and watched TV... it was a good night....



Sun, 4th April....

woke up and made breakfast... simple and easy... leftovers from Sat morning... lunch was good it was leftovers from the evening before... it was ok... we found out that the time had been moved back when we came into the room and found that the Illico machine was an hr ahead... and the computer was also an hr ahead... we had lost an hour... yikes!! G was like a tornado... he had to go to the hospital before his shift that started at 5pm, he left but not before i made him an excellent diner to take with him to work... he came home at 1 am stayed up ‘til 1.50am and went to bed.



Mon, 5th April...

woke up at 10am... made French toast, eggs and hash browns for breakfast... it was delish if i say so myself... G has gone to a meeting and is working in the afternoon... watching TV... soaps...i will keep on working on finishing the recipe-pages on my site...