Still in the same shitty mood as always... Trying to live life and its trying to suck me clean of my desire to live... I hate the holidays... This one will be one to fuckin' forget...

So, tomorrow is my first day! That is the only thing that will save me for now! I look forward to the daily grind. This one will be worth it. Japan seems so far away! What have I been doing with my life just dreaming and being stupid. i have to wakeup and smell the coffee before the train leaves me behind or decides to throw me into oblivion.

Seems funny now, of how things were just a few months ago. Now, it's total hatret of happythings aaahhh! Get me out of this hell hole...

My apt is still being invaded by the J-guy... He's better half comes on the 22nd... until 2nd... well good for them!!! Helped with payment and he paid back... I still need to give him a bill for the phone, he wanted... Due March!! He has 2 more months and I get my apt. Which I don't want... I need to do a clean sweep of that place!!! There is shit there I hate and don't want. Too many memories... I hate it there! If I go back it will literally scar me for life!!!

BTW:


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So, life is great I guess... I'm still in the garden of hell trying to make my way out is really hard. When a door closes a window opens that is me at the moment. I feel like I hope my life changes in a few months. I want so much to forget and not feel anything for now. I want to scream, cry and just vent!! To who, know one! Why, cuz who wants a freaken' annoying woman venting about stupid shit!!!

Been playing with my baby DS... He's sweet and doesn't hurt me... BabyNano is doing great. He got new clothing from zCovers.

I need to find a new car plug for my pods... The other sorta is dying! What's good out there?

tube-blogging she is totally funny and keeps me amused!!

Been doing some penpal emailing lately. Its sort of fun and keeps me busy! I met one of them she was great. She seems to be nice and will be leaving in Feb to LA then back to Japan. Hope she can help me and well I can do the same thing.

Have also been chatting a few times with mr.nosthegametoo. He really makes me laugh and I guess I do the same for him. Aaah, the cancer sticks are still in my life but for him it's been 15mths and so very proud of him!!!

My internet connection is kind of loony, I sometimes can't go to peeps blogs the freaken thing is trying to drive me batty!!! I need to check stuff on the web about firefox. Do I need to upgrade or something on that line.

Need to upload my pictures of my tree and the cats loving it... heee...

So, finally got OLDCATMAN's new it onto my list. Finally, sorry about that... Need to really go and read and read. Been such a long time that I have ignore all my reads. But still using a someone else's PC. And I cannot always use it! AAAAAHHHH! I need my own... Where's the money insurance man!!! Where's the money!!!!

Since Sept. 16, the insurance report has been done with all the details of all the things stolen. We picked up the stuff that was recover from the robbery. An alarm has been installed. I have developed some narcissistic issues due to the break in.

October was a blur...

My Japanese tutor left for Japan Nov. 3rd for ever. He will not be returning. Goodbye to him!

On the 12th of Nov. I ended in the US. I was suppose to stay there for 4 months but it was not meant to be. I spend time with my mother which we had a fight and she kicked me out and went to stay with my sister. She was really nice. We went shopping and my niece is so damn cute. Now 4yrs old she is not so shy. I babysat her twice. She goes to private preschool. Thanksgiving was OK decided to stay home and cook at my sisters.

While there went shopping for flavor creamers as there are none here. I bought 10 and was charged $50USD at the airport as the bag was 69Kilos. But it was worth it!!

I got 2 pair of boots I love them so! Got some shirts and a couple of gloves which are great!

I been quite emotional these past few weeks! I was such a looser on the plane I started to cry for no apparent reason.

Oh need to mentioned that last week, which I was surprised, I got a job offer from a headhunter for IBM. And a few days ago I got another 2 offers for jobs which I am some what confidence that I'm qualified for.

Right now I have no Apt. as I sort of sublet it to a Japanese guy. I cannot live there until March. Back where I came from, am I!

Was planning on heading to Japan in Dec. but it will not happen. The thoughts of going are still there but maybe later on next year when I have some money.

Been spending money I don't have! Got the iPod Nano Red 4GB which was suppose to be for someone but the plans fell through and now I have ended up with it. The cost $229CAD [$199Us].

I still don't have a PC been wishing that the insurance gives me enough for my crap to buy an apple laptop that is my wish.

Wed. 29th, was when the beautiful crystal white DS, that I finally wanted, was purchased with 2 games [animal crossings & brain age], a kit [which includes 18 things] that cost 19.99 for the DS and a 2yr warranty in case it breaks. You never know! Now all the games that I had bought in eBay are being use all 8 of them. I am a happy camper. But still have to purchase a few more to keep me more amused.

Now I have my eyes on the Wii but I will wait until the DVD feature is activated on the consoles next year. And maybe just maybe it will be a little less... Plus, I been reading on the net and got told by the Japanese guy staying at my place that the Wii remotes can break easily and 2 people have reported that the console stopped working for no apparent reason. Nintendo was nice enough to replace the consoles for free. NICE!

I been listening to Ozrosaurus. Japanese rapper from Yokohama, not bad!

So the Advance GB Advance and NGC are gone with GenkiBlocks and Animal Crossings. They were in the consoles and also 2 NGC memory cards!!! Bye Bye games. Damn!! Let's not think of that now...

Japan CM on you tube are pretty interesting!

Tuesday started out just fine. When I got a call and then all hell broke loose. Well suffixed to say my PC is gone for ever and some other possessions that I'll never get back. Got some stuff back... An alarm was installed and thank god for insurance.

Wednesday was a horrible tragedy... The college I went to Dawson, was stalked by a mad man. I think he was a really troubled man. Was stuck watching TV to see what was going on. I watched some vids on youtube about it, too. Poor girl, who got killed. And then there are the 20 others that got shot and eight of them critically. 3 days after 9/11 that is some crazy stuff...

I hate when people leave stupid things that they don' t know what the hell they are talking about. Looser...

Changed my comment acceptance to only bloggers! I accept any comment atleast make yourself known for crying out loud. How pathetic can you be. Having an opinion and not leaving your name. That just pisses me off. Weak and retarded, that's my understanding of people when they do that.

What a rant... but I am still having a wonderful day...

It's gloomy and rainy. I wanted to go out an do some stuff but the weather is so darn icky that I just want to stay home cleaning and cooking and surfing.

Called cell company as I got a msg from them saying my unlimited local calling will end on the 27th of this month. But apparently it will end on the 18th of Aug which is sweet, plus all 3 phones have it. SUGOI!!!!

Going to go study Japanese now... Matane...

My messy new place... On July 1st!!!

Been on the hunt for a job. Finally got net last week. Been lazy on updating my blog.

I really been mostly watching youtube stuff. Nothing interesting has happened to really talk about besides just living my life and finding it a bit hard not to find a job that I really like.

I am happy for now, the is the truth. What with the new apt on the way. I am still looking for a job and well things been quite good, but my heart is still spinning. Why is it that every time I am happy I feel guilty? I think of the worst and hardest things in life. I want to scream and I want to laugh all in one. My thinking has gone on a sleeping mode and when it wakes it's total happiness... I feeling that is so awkward to my senses... How can I say things that cannot be put into words. My life has changed and well things are not quite easy but they are quite happy. Some might say its a temporary thing but I hope is not!

In other matters my bro is back from Japan. Yep, he is doing his thing now. I talked to him finally and he's fine. I guess the experience was quite good but he's now out and happy. The only thing is now he has other set backs in his life for his future I mean. As he dropped out of the Marines and now he is a washout sort of,but I am happy that he is not risking his life and he can have a normal one of that. On the 14th he's of to Chicago for an interview for a job. Which is great! I wish him all the luck in the world.

Been smoking like a chimney, need to quit but hey it keeps be off much much much food... I am quite ok with it for now. I know cancer lurks in the background but that's ok!

That's about it for now....

Dime por qué lloras
De felicidad
Y por qué te ahogas
Por la soledad
Di por qué me tomas, fuerte así,
mis manos, y tus pensamientos te van llevando

Yo te quiero tanto
Y por qué será
Loco testarudo, no lo dudes más,
aunque en el futuro haya un muro enorme,
yo no tengo miedo, quiero enamorarme.

No me ames, porque pienses que
parezco diferente
Tú no piensas que es lo justo,
ver pasar el tiempo juntos
No me ames, que comprendo,
la mentira que sería.
Si tu amor no merezco, no me ames,
mas quédate otro día

No me ames, porque estoy perdido,
porque cambié el mundo, porque es el
destino, porque no se puede, somos un espejo,
Y tú así serías lo que yo
de mí reflejo
No me ames, para estar muriendo,
dentro de una guerra llena de
arrepentimientos, no me ames para estar
en tierra, quiero alzar el
vuelo, con
tu gran amor por el azul del cielo
No sé qué decirte, esa es la verdad,
si la gente quiere, sabe lastimar
Tú y yo partiremos, ellos no se mueven,
pero en este cielo sola no me dejes

No me dejes, no me dejes, no me escuches,
si te digo "no me ames".
No me dejes, no desarmes,
mi corazón con ese "no me ames"
No me ames, te lo ruego, mi amargura, dèjame
Sabes bien, que no puedo, que es inútil,
que siempre te amaré

No me ames, pues te haré sufrir con este
corazòn que se llenó de mil inviernos
No me ames, para así olvidarte de tus días grises, quiero que me ames
sólo por amarme
No me ames, tú y yo volaremos,
uno con el otro y seguiremos siempre juntos
Este amor es como el sol que sale tras de la tormenta
Como dos cometas en la misma estela

so the last few days been sort of an eye opening. I send bum an email but no reply... I got some things I need to work on. I thank all the people who send their best wishes. been out of the net for a while. my grandmother is dying and I been so sad. I did the most stupid thing and now I'm paying for it. I have turn my life upside down and crap! I needt to fix it. I also, have quit my job and I'm in the process of getting a new one. I knew it was too good to be true. I now need to really think and not take the first job that is offered to me. They were just wanting too much out of me. I felt that I was being used. I got was being trained in like 3 different dept because I heard that they didnt want to hire more then one and alot of the work was being dumped on me. I was so stressed, even stayed late a few time just to help out. The apt is not ready to move in yet. maybe by the end of next week it will happened. The lease is signed and sealed so that I am not worried about. The search for a job continues.......

So the good news is got the job! It was my first interview in like 2yrs. Went to 2 and the first wanted me... Funny! Started today! pretty fun and all... And got an apt yesterday, signed the lease and all! It's really near my work, which I guess is great! 10-15 min away...
Been really thinkings tuff and wll life takes you in such a different direction that you expected. I thought my life was set and then something happened and all turned upside down, I guess for the good but still do miss my old life... Miss the comfort of it... Yeah, lazy me trying to analyse what shitty life I had for like 2 yrs. Well, it wasn't that bad, could have made it work, right Mondo? Heee... I really had it good! Everything in my life was taken care of but then I gave up alot to have it that way, and I guess I am better off. I am truly scared but maybe this one will be good and happy. Shit what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so freaken lame...
Nothing else has been happening... I've been lazy at reading peeps blogs... Need to catch up and all... Haven't really checked emails or nothing... Freak, been totally out of the loop of the net... Although, I miss it, I tend to go in and out of that world... I want so much to be able to do alot but crap it's all coming in slow now. Specially now with work and a new place, freak will be waiting for like 2-3 wks on that. My pad is totally sweet! I love it! Eventually, will now feel more like home then were I was before. Finally my OWN PLACE!!!!!!!!!!! About fuckin' time right!!!

Crap I've sworn so much on this. Sorry about it!

So back from the world wind that I call my life... I think that my life is changing as time goes by. I will be going to a job interview on Monday @ 10am. Wish me luck! :) A bit nervous but all will be ok. If this works then I can get and my own place, next! Crossing my fingers so badly this works...

I have also thought so much these past few days about me, my life and what I want it to be. I think that all that is around needs to change but I want it fast and now! Not a very patient person sometimes specially when I want change NOW!

Spoken to my mom and she's at the present moment on vacation in Atlanta, GA. Lucky!!!

I have found 2 songs that I wish and will download soon, hopefully, by UVERworld: D-technolife (lyrics) and Colors of the Heart. TAKUYA∞, the vocalist, looks really cute on the first video I watched on youtube but on Chance and Just Melody he looks totally different. Not so cute... hee... But still...

I change my comments as Bloopy mentioned it to me on his comments. THX :) He has the coolest way of giving a Vodka gift to someone. Pretty special... A man with a alot of imagination! Heee... Also, showed me the cutest site ever cuteoverload.com. KAWAII!!!!

The days have passed pretty fast for me these few weeks. I got an email on the 24th about a job offer hopefully I get it. I put my cv on monster and I had just updated and then that happened! I am still looking fir a job and an apt. I will be moving out of my boyfriends house, its time to become independent. I been too selfish and wanting to just be bum! I have not been wanting to be with him any more. It's going to hurt him but I need to do this. I am no longer happy! I need more and with out him will be better.

so the day has been totale yucky! I been thinking that even though my nails look nice they are already driving me crazy. I can't seem to type properly! It takes me like for ever!

Nosthegame and me have been like sending mail back and forth is so great that we have some stuff in common... It's been great!

The confussion has started what todo?The heart is so foolish. I am playing a game that will end so wrong. What is wrong with my heart why is it that it likes pain like a drug! I try to stop and then the freaken thing doesn't give a damn if the cause is so freaken wrong! I have stepped into a bitty little world that will make me happy for like a millisecond and then plunge me into despair for a long time! AAAhhhh what a tangled web I have started to weave!

Been exercising like a mad woman and have ended up with 9.7lbs out of my frame. 45lbs to go and I will be totally happy. Bought my bike for the summer. I love my new bike is so cute, its yummy green and silver.

Eating like a bird and like often. Have left most but not all sweets behind.

Went to get my nails down today. Theylook amazing. The girl was totally sweet! We had a pleasant conversation. Talked about men and why they sometimes are such asses... Heee... Walked from there home. Stopped at the store for cigs and the guy was like: 'Mademoiselle, you know that you have to be 18 to buy cigarrettes.' I was like I'm 33!!! He looked at me and said 'Is in't so lucky to look so young!' I just laughed and thanked him. Totally FUNNY!

That happens from time to time. Why can't men see I look/am 33! CRAP! Yes, most women want to look younger I on the other hand never liked that! I guess that's crazy on my part.

What ever!?

I wanted to go today to go see the powerbook but there was no time. Probably will go Thursday. As tomorrow I will go and see someone.

Also, called my cell carrier to get another phone connected. The Razr v3i for my friend. It cost me like nothing cuz of my account $$.... It's really nice. But I just finished calling again because I wanted to change it to black it looks like totally nicer! And the phone I ordered was the wrong one [Razr v3] that the sales guy put on my invoice. The one I want is w/ mp3s which is the V3i. He had the one without it on my account order... Now the order was cancelled and now I'm waiting for his call. Great!!!! The waiting game has started....

He’s soft to the touch
But afraid at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh when I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

It's hard for you
When your heart has opened up to feelings that you never knew
Never thinking that you'd doubt our love you don't know what to do
I'd give anything, my heart, my soul if i could pull you through

And will your arms still hold me
And your eyes console me?

I’m sitting here alone up in my room
And thinking about the times that we’ve been through (oh my love)
I’m looking at a picture in my hand
Trying my best to understand
I really wanna know what we did wrong
With the love that felt so strong
If only you were here tonight
I know that we could make it right

How was I to know I’d miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead,
Emptiness behind
Where do I go?

Although love is a kind of duty, in giving it, give it completely
Sometimes love's beauty has no way of lasting forever
Love can enrapture you just as much as it can hurt you
If you've bravely loved, then you should bravely leave

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

some times things bring you full circle. I have been really thinking all sorts things don't make sense.

Friday was a night that we had a fight. I ended up leaving and coming back Sunday night. The weekend went well... I forgot to call Mondo back, hope he forgives me. But I know he will. I am terribly tired but had a wonderful time. Met the roommates, Japanese girl [the same age as me] and the French guy [a travel agent, who's gone alot to the East]. We talked and had fun!

Didn't eat much as my appetite was cut by the fight and all the surrounding problems that we keep having. I walked for about 2hrs on Fri., Nori was a great companion. Very understanding which was great!

The only thing was I couldn't take a shower in someone else's house which made my hair so dirty. So, ended up taking one when I came back.

Went for a walk to the post office to check for mail. Got my PS2 game iNinja! Will be playing it this evening. The walk was good, we had a good time B-G and me. Went to Tim Horton's to get an Butter Caramel Ice Cappuccino! It was great. I have blisters from Friday. One started to act up near home. Which was good a 1hr 15min walk!

Checked my emails and got updated all my stuff... Listening to music!

Scars (SL - madarin)
The night is deep already; who is it that has
Let you awake like this to count the scars?
Why do you want to leave a light on just before you go to sleep?
If you're not willing to say, then I won't ask

Only now, you have no choice but to admit
Love is sometimes a kind of degradation
Disappointing people, although that is love itself
But don't do that just because you are a woman!

If you love deeply, then it won't be able to balance
For the trouble of sentiment, you've harassed your soul
Love the ones you should love, hate the ones you should hate
You should leave some love for yourself

A woman's only naivety and talent of gentleness
Should be saved for the one who truly loves you
It doesn't matter how bitter or difficult the future is
You'll have him by your side the whole time

Although love is a kind of duty, in giving it, give it completely
Sometimes love's beauty has no way of lasting forever
Love can enrapture you just as much as it can hurt you
If you've bravely loved, then you should bravely leave

Music makes me happy or sad... But it's great either way! I love it! I just need to master Japanese to understand the meaning of the songs I love... I can get the translation but I want to personally get it! Right!

I been in a thinking mode for the past few days... I want to so much to do something that is so very wrong but I am totally confused and fucked if I do... I don't want to loose everything I have worked so hard to get... I am really in a desperate situation, what to do, aaarrrgghhh. I cannot talk about this to anyone, I just can't! I have tried to analyse it myself but I am stupid and think that I am the worst person to make the decision, right... Crap!

Like the song says...

I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

Let's see what happens right!

Itsumo no shisen ni kimi ga ite kokyuu ga dekiru
Boku ni totte nara Sore dake de
Mou Juubun na hazu na no ni

Chippoke na boku wa kurikaesu ayamachi bakari
Dorehodo tsuyosa wo te ni shitara
Nani mo kizutsukezu sumu no?

Mayowazu ni Kono ai wo shinji ikiteyuku
Fusagaranu kizuguchi mo gyu'tto dakishimete

Futari wa aruki-tsuzukeru Ato ni wa modorenai kara
Ima demo kono mune no oku Kesenai tsumi wa itamu kedo
DARLING

Ano hi ushinatta aijou ni setsunasa wo oboe
Boku wa senmei na kono sora no aosa ni sukoshi tomadotte

Tatoe moshi nani ga gisei demo Tada hitotsu shinjita
Kimi no massugu na me ni utsuru setsuna ni saita hana no iro

Muryoku demo kono sadame Tsuyoku ikiteyuku
Te wo musubu taion wa zutto tokeatte
Dattara issou no koto seotta batsu nara tsurakute mo

Moshi tatoe kimi to kono mama
Sekai no nami ni sakarau dake da to shite mo...

Mayowazu ni Kono ai wo shinji ikiteyuku
Fusagaranu kizuguchi mo gyu'tto dakishimete

Mayowazu ni kono sadame Ikiru ikiteyuku
Kimi to nara eien mo kitto tsunagatte
Futari de tada mae wo mite dou ni mo naranakutatte
Soredemo kanarazu kimi wo kono te de mamori-tsuzukeru

DARLING

by Haley J Scott [One Tree Hill]

Verse 1
I never promised you a ray of light,
I never promised there'd be sunshine everyday,
I gave you everything I have, the good, the bad.
Why do you put me on a pedestal,
I'm so up high that I can't see the ground below,
So help me down you've got it wrong, I don't belong there.

Chorus
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Verse 2
I always said that I would make mistakes,
I'm only human, and that’s my saving grace,
I fall as hard as I try
So don't be blinded
See me as I really am, I have flaws and sometimes I even sin,
so pull me from that pedestal,
I don't belong there.

Chorus
One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Why you think that you know me
But In your eyes
I am something above you
It’s only in your mind
Only in your mind
I wear a
I wear a
I wear a Halo

One thing is clear,
I wear a halo,
I wear a halo when you look at me,
But standing from here, you wouldn't say so
you wouldn't say so, if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you,
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you

Haaaa ha-ha halo(x9)

Watching:
Densha Otoko [another] = [Part 1]
Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang
My Name is Kim Sam-Soon

Search for Kdramas

A music video:
Jacky Cheung search
Jacky Cheung - Blessing

Still looking for this CD:
這個冬天不太冷（広東語）
This Winter Not Too Cold by Jacky Cheung from 1994

And thinking:
- Why is it that pride comes first and being reasonable is last?

1. What time did you get up this morning? 10.23am

2. Diamonds or pearls? pearls

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? I can't remember at all! Yes, it's been that long!

4. What is your favorite TV show. I have too many! but a few: OC, Lost, Inuyasha, the L word, George Lopez, According to Jim, Hope and Faith, Nip/Tuck, Desperate house wives, Grey's Anatomy, ER, Bernie Mac, House, Gilmore Girls, CSI: Las Vegas, Charmed, Everwood, One Tree Hill, Iron Chef, Iron Chef America, 30min. Meals, Chef at home, Shopping Bags, Barefoot Contessa, Martin Yang: Quick and Easy, Christine Cushing Live, Christine Cushing: Cook With Me, Sugar, Good Eats, Unwrapped, Holmes on Homes, Hot Property, Buy Me, Neat, Mission: Organization, Kink, Sin Cities, Ghost in a Shell, and anything Anime, dodramas, kdramas!! I really watch all these shows! This way it's out there that I have no social life at all!!!!

5. What did you have for breakfast? Taiyaki [ fishy stuffed with sweet bean ]

6. What is your middle name? I can't I don't know what my parents were thinking when they gave it too me... I dislike it! All I can say is many think it's unique!

7. Favorite cuisine? Japanese

8. What foods do you dislike? Cow tongue and stomach

9. Favorite CD at the moment? No album just singles and there are toomany like 200-300 songs

10. Favorite sandwich? Subway: cheese steak sandwich.

11. Favorite item of clothing? My grey pants

12. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go? Japan

13. What color is your bathroom? White

14. Favorite brand of clothing? Anything that fits well

15. Where would you retire to? I never thought about it. I hope to die by 55-60

16. Favorite time of the day? Sunset

17. What was your most memorable birthday? 21st!

18. Where were you grew up? SanFern, CA

19. Favorite sport to watch? N/A

20. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? No one

21. Person you expect to send it back first? No one

22. What fabric detergent do you use? Tide

23. What is your favorite color? Baby Blue

24. Are you a morning person or a night person? Morning

25. What is your shoe size? 6 1/2

26. Do you have any pets? My 2 kitties: Mitsuru and Carly

27. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with friends and family? We finally have done our renovations!

28. What did you want to be when you were little? A flight attendant, I always wanted to travel the world!!!

29. What is the name of the book you are currently reading? Shop-a-holic, xxx-holic, fruit basket, planet ladder and pita ten

30. If you could meet anyone alive or dead, besides Jesus, who would it be? My grandfather

My pc is being a freaken bitch!! Been backing up all my crap! I have been without net for a while... I hate this... Using B-G's PC... Kind of wierd as its not a desktop... Now we are really considering getting the MAC. Just this morning he just touched my pc and it freaken shut down... now that is some serious shit! I will back up and call Microbytes, lets see what lame excuse they come up with. I never ever buy another pc from them! Plus, its time to change to something else... I think I will look into LINUX! And learnd that world cuz Windows ain't freaken working for me...

Gots to go... Need to continue backing up my crap! Its taking for ever as my pc keeps crashing!! AAARRRRRGGGHHHH.....

Was wondering why my freaken link to goddess was sending me to microsoft? Bimbo me had an extra 'http://.' It happens when I don't freaken look carefully!

You have no idea how bad I want an iBook! I am so ready to toss this piece of crap but the $$ which is still being sort a prob... I have like about 1 out the 4 and still going. If I worked I would buy it in an instant but lazy me... Although I been looking for a job for 2 weeks... The important fact is: I still haven't really send my cv to the agency that got me a really good job about 4 years ago... What doe that tell you?

On another note I spend most of the day watching 'My Girl' at youtube... But I stopped at Episode 7 (part 3), it just didn't want to upload and went to d-addicts but it wasn't happening there so I disconnected and went to bed...

I also have to leave feedback at ebay for stuff I bought and recieved yesterday! YAH!

Well... forgot to do some things yesterday. Like update my links and change one in perticular. Send mail, late like always, to goddess... She is a total sweetheart and now probably living in the city of sin! Happy for her!

Ragtooth, helped me with my PC woes... That was so nice of him. As I'm so paranoid of getting anything and everything on my PC. Yeah, I get the blue screen of death once in a while, ok more when I reboot the freaken computer. I have taken it to microbytes like 6 times and they found a virus the first time, changed the hard drive 2nd time, on the 3rd changed the memory, 4rd and 5th they said nothing was wrong, and finally on the 6th they change the the mini fan in the back... But they said nothing was wrong... They put it through prime95 and 3dmark2001 which they told me about and left them on my pc... I have no clue what the hell those things are but apparently if I am not mistaken they are programs to really put stress on the CPU. I think called benchmark programs?

anime lyrics
nihon-fr
browse happy
paper mojo
project j

Attack of the Show

This still amazes me!!!!!

Secret Agent Josephine's old blog! at blogshares!

wanted to send email to 'Chub Creek' a podcast I like but never did!:
Love your podcast! I have downloaded all 49 + the other 6 (1 video/skit) which have no #! I love just love it! You need to make a cd of all your songs. Damn good! :)

tutorial outpost count
tutorial outpost drawing

Need to see this store's Online Flyer Need Driving Directions?
Store Information:
JULIE DOUCET (Pharmacist/Owner) Store #43
7275 SHERBROOKE EST
MONTREAL, QC, H1N 1E9
Phone: 514-352-5511

PC-cillin Internet Security

Brother MFC-8840D / 5-in-1 [$799.99]
HP Color LaserJet 2840 All-in-One (Q3950A)

digital home about cable companies in Canada...

there's a forum!
internet listings in Quebec...

Always make sure that you are the owner (or "registrant")!
dreamhost

protect patients now!
"Across the country, patient access to quality medical care is being threatened by personal injury
attorneys who are driving good doctors out of the practice of medicine or forcing them to cut back on "high risk" life-saving treatments.
Protect Patients Now is a nationwide grassroots campaign of concerned citizens and doctors dedicated to passing national medical
liability reform that will end lawsuit abuse and make sure that the care you need will be there when you need it."

Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon presequel and sequel are being made...
Sin City 2 will wait for Angelina Jolie to give birth. She's pretty important for a producer to wait plus she's the main character!
A new PSP with HD and camera are in the works, my guess to upset the delay of the PS3...

So amazon is going into the downloading biz for shows as they own the IMDB...

I cannot believe the, ok hold on yes I can, that CIA operatives have been discorvered by being googled!

via JAG:
- “Backward evolution” spawns ape-like people found in 17p gene and the first known language gen FoxP2 in 2002. called Unertan syndrome consists of quadrupedal gait, severe mental retardation, and primitive language. [article - movie]

What I needed to know about Firefox... Very important for me to know!!!
Software installation disabled:

In Firefox 1.0.x the option to allow web sites to install software is found under "Tools -> Options -> Web Features -> Allow web sites to install software". Starting in Firefox 1.5 the option has been removed from the user interface (UI). The software installation option must be enabled to allow installation of themes, extensions and certain plugins that use the XPInstall method.

If you click a web site's "Install" link and you see a message bar that says "Software installation is currently disabled. Click Edit Options... to enable it and try again.",

* Firefox 1.0.x: Click the "Edit Options" button to open the Web Features preferences panel, place a checkmark in front of "Allow web sites to install software" and try again.
* Firefox 1.5: If you previously disabled this option and then updated to Firefox 1.5, the disabled setting will be carried over. Since the option to enable software installation no longer exists in the UI, you will need to use about:config to reset the "xpinstall.enabled" preference to the default "true" value (bug 310737). These step-by-step instructions should fix the problem:

1. Type about:config in the Location Bar and hit enter.
2. Type xpi in the Filter box and find xpinstall.enabled in the list.
3. Make sure its value is set to "true" (double-click will toggle).

(Some users may have disabled the software installation option based on security issues which have since been resolved [1]. To reassure, software cannot be automatically installed without first being granted permission via the "OK, Cancel" installation dialog, which has a two-second delay before you can select "OK".)

Note: Updating of themes and extensions will hang indefinitely, with no user feedback, if software installation is disabled bug 288054....


Comments left in the past to BEX:
Hey, the store is great I've had the DaiFUKU: chocolate and strawberry, they are just yummy! :razz:

I have to take a longer look at the site... Check it out... the collon creams look great... :oops: heee 'colon' heee :oops:... the Hi Chu is not that great have them here with different flavors. I tried the Kasugai Lechee gummy it's amazing! :wuv:

I have to check if the Ramune soda is the one with the ball inside. I heard it tastes just awful... :cry:

Lydia must be so cute playing the hide and seek game... just cute... :wuv:

Woreker bee are yah now... good for you... i been a lazy chick for the past few days. I even missed my Japanese Class, bad girl that I am :eek:. The Valentine's was similar to yours except I had no curry. :cry:

I love your bunny smilies they're great! :cool:

ciao-meow

another one:
wuv: Hiya!

This will be like the 3rd attempt to leave you a comment... I cannot believe it has gone down the drains, man! Thank you so very much

for coming over to mysite! You are a sweetheart. Hope your Valentine's was great!! :cool:

Hope Lydia's doing better and the $$$ problem has been solved with your payroll...

What did you get? Happy to hear that you send your penpal such nice things... Yeah, it can't never be a british gift if it doesn't have

TEA! :razz:

ciao-meow! :oops

Part of a post from 6-16-05 thursday:
went shopping which it help me so very much! I love fruit & passion, spent a little bit there... well, needed fragances for the house and myself... heee... have fun shopping all the time... heee... la senza was great yesterday!

have been diagnosed with tennis elbow and carpal tunnel! Been taking Advil and Tylenol to reduce the pain. And some other med to reduce the inflamation. It's due to excessive PC usage. Been cleaning my Poddy... Fixing all the songs and arranging them properly and getting the lyrics at corichan. That site has major lyrics for Jpop/Kpop. Just great! Also wikied Utada...

tried to comment on Bex blog but no use, it ignores my comments and it's not the first time. Here's the latest comment I wanted to post:

Hiya Bex!
I see alls good. I'm sorry to hear you got hacked... I was thinking of doing the same a photo gallery but the hacking that has occurred to you makes me doubt on doing it... Will think about it...
Hope Lydia's :wuv: doing super! One morning you'll wake up and find her blabbing and remember the times when she only said 'Ap.'
Take care,
Maizzy :smile:

Have pointed it out to her but I guess, oh well...

I haven't been using it much so that has been one of the reasons for the lack for blogging too...

B-G's nephew Marcus is so darn cute... He's now 9mths, APRIL 7th, yesterday! :) He is a very quiet and well behaved baby. Plus, it's giving B-G some really serious thinking issues... I think he wants one... He keeps mentioning how cool a baby would be and how we would be so very happy... Yikes! Am I ready for that? I'm scared, more then anything...

I wonder who are the big B@#ches and A-h#$%s of the entertainment world are?

TOTAL RUMOUR [for now] : May? DS Lite [addict3d has a image of EMG article that came from kotaku article]. Once again the New Mario Bros for DS has gotten a new release date can this be linked to DS Lite release too? Can it be a package? Sounds like in Europe it will come out in June? Can it really be really coming, I'm just praying! :) Hopefully, it will really be cuz I just purchased like 5 games frome ebay! YAH!!!!

Listening to OTAKU GEN.

what the hell is all this that I found on my PC. reg edit folders:
securom
pepimk software - spy bot
xing technologies

found and cannot delete... AAAHHH!! dvdshell.dll has alot of crap, will try download a new one?

Is it normal for the system volume information folder to say that it's not accessible and 'ACCESS IS DENIED'?

Deleted the following: j2se runtime environment 5.0 update 4 [118MB] by Sun Microsystems inc. ver 1.5.0.40 [I think I should downloaded once again and install it!]

wtf is this: msmpeng.exe

Toos and Materials Needed [ x : x ]

* Slats of lattice, pulled apart or slats of wood of the same size painted black
* Rice paper
* Latex paint
* Finishing nails
* Exacto knife
* Staple gun
* Small jigsaw
* Set square

Getting Started:
Measure the width and length of the window you will be covering.
Cut 2 slats of wood a bit longer than the length of the window, and 2 slats a bit longer than the width of the window.
Set these out on your work surface, and align them to form a rectangle or square. Nail the slats in place - check that the angles are all 90 degrees by using a set square.
Find the center of the frame's length, as well as the center of the frame's width, and mark them.
Place the vertical center slat, and secure in place with finishing nails. Ditto with the horizontal center slat.
Add as many slats as you wish in the same manner, to form a simple grid forming squares no smaller than 6" x 6".
Flip over the frame. Starting from one side of the frame, place a length of the rice paper over the back of the frame. Attach it with a staple gun, and trim off the excess by cutting along the center of one of the slats with an Exacto knife. Repeat this process until the back of the frame is neatly covered with rice paper. Turn over.
Once the whole piece is finished, paint over the nail heads with black paint.
Hang to cover the window.

Anise Cookie Recipe - Biscotti Anginetti

Ingredients:
* 1/2 cup anise seeds, finely chopped or ground
* 3 2/3 cups unbleached flour
* 1/4 tsp baking soda
* 1 cup butter, room temperature
* 1 cup sugar
* 1 cup brown sugar, firmly packed
* 1 egg
* 3 Tbs honey
* 1/3 cup whole milk
* 1 cup confectioners sugar
* 1 tsp water

Directions:
Chop anise seeds finely (I have a pepper grinder filled with anise seeds).
In a bowl mix the flour and baking soda. In a mixing bowl, cream butter and sugar. Beat in the egg, honey, milk, and anise seeds. Blend in the flour-baking soda mixture.
Cover and allow to rest in a cool place for an hour. Shape dough into rolls about 1/2" in diameter. Pinch off a 4" rope and twist into a figure 8 shape. Place the cookies on an ungreased baking sheet. Bake at 375°F for 10 to 12 minutes. Remove and allow to cool. Mix together the confectioners sugar and water to make a glaze. Drizzle or paint the tops of the cookies with the glaze.
Note: called some times genetti by some Italian Americans.

Anginetti (Italian Lemon Drop Cookies)
Makes 24 cookies [30 minutes 15 mins prep]

Ingredients:
COOKIE
* 1/2 cup sugar
* 1/4 cup vegetable shortening
* 3 large eggs
* 1 1/2 teaspoons lemon extract
* 2 cups all-purpose flour
* 1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
* 1/8 teaspoon salt
FROSTING
* 3 cups confectioners' sugar
* 1/4 cup water
* 1 teaspoon lemon extract

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350°F. For cookies, cream together sugar and shortening. Add eggs and lemon extract and beat well. Add flour, baking powder and salt; Mix well. The dough should be soft and sticky.m With a small cookie scoop, drop dough onto a slightly greased cookie sheet or baking stone, spacing them about 2-inches apart. Bake for about 12-15 minutes, or until firm and lightly brown. Remove cookies from cookie sheet and allow to cool completely on wire racks.
For frosting, combine confectioners' sugar, water and lemon extract and mix until smooth.
Frost the tops of each cookie with a metal spatula. Allow cookies to dry before stacking.
Store in an airtight container.
NOTE: If you want to freeze the cookies, freeze unfrosted and frost once thawed.

been on a shopping spree on ebay and given some money to some really deserving peeps and charities... Yeah...

Gots some DS games for my future DS Lite which will buy once it hits stores here... Crossing my fingers its in May like the rumours are predicting! :)

B-G bought Kentucky for himself. I been trying not to eat anything that is fast food... need to band it from my life for atleast 1yr or 2 or even maybe for ever. As I really don't miss it at all. I can cook most of the stuff I like... So, that is no problem...

Have been reading all my regular reads... I found that goddess site is under construction, need to send her an email to see what's up in that corner of her life... Hope alls good with her!

The kitties are doing great and playing their crazy games as always...

Well, gonna go play some katamari... laterz...

Yesterday went for brunch at Chez Cora's. We were late 15 min... B-G's brother-in-law was like upset... What ever! :P

Wasn't so nice as the night before... Nori was at home sleeping but had left by the time we came back.

Went to Deco Decouvert (Home Outfitters) and got a trashcan set for the bathroom, a front entrance rug [the cats were all over it like crazy! Need to change it cuz it has a deffect] and 2 cushions that match the bed sets we bought at Ikea last weekend. Still waiting on the sofa covers that we order... Hopefully by Tuesday they will get in and we can change them!!!

Took a shower... Went to bed early...

We have put our clocks ahead. This will be the last time we set our clocks the first week of April as next year we are synchronizing with the US...

B-G will be going to do rounds at the geriactric hospital! :) So no time for going to leave the rug!

NLO [Episode 54: All Aboard]... 16 episodes left 'til I'm catched up but haven't listen to the other 51 episodes...

need to read this article on blue screen of death. My latest STOP errors!

(0xC0000005, 0x80565c79, 0xAFEEZA7C, 0x00000000)
(0xC0000005, 0x8054B339, 0xB12E86D4, 0x00000000)

These are themes for XP which Mac asked MS to take out of their downloads: EclipseOSX v4.40" and "MacOSX Aqua 3.2 or RottenApple. Banned!!!

You can buy iTunes Japan certificates at jbox to get Japanese music on iTunes...

Friday night we went for diner with B-G's sis... Ate Italian at 'Pasta Tutti Giorni'... Very yummy! They liked it very much!

The baby is so cute! :) Ate really litttle due to holding the baby all the time and my temp crown felt so freaken wierd! So I just had soup and didn't even eat it all...

Came home and had a few msg from storage places... had to call that the ones we didn't pick and went to get the paper done at PS!! A brand new location, which is sweet!! :)

Spoke to Nori and he came over. Made curry veggies with beef! It was so freaken good! Loved it... stayed up til 3:40 am...

You think you are secure do you want to secure your pc even more, article! Reading at PC mag and came upon the article:
secure email reader [ free download ] but doesn't support outlook express... that sucks as I use it! I will be changing my email to ThunderBird! Apparently MS will be trying their hand at the email protection market as they get a great deal of their moola from software! They don't want to loose it, yah knows... And they are also trying out a Hotmail Beta version for the desktop...

Java Cool Software is a site which has a program called EULAlyzer that lets you read easily lisence agreements.

It's a plugin for firefox, Site Advisor, for sites which are rated with red [have spyware, malware, etc...], yellow [take caution] or green [it's been tested and is clean]! :) Aslo available for IE and you can also look up a site report and suggest sites that have yet to be added to their data base. I have been using it for the past few hours and it seems pretty fun! :) As I use search engines all the time and it just rates it for me.

Add more to your Firefox with Firefox extentions, themes, plugins and much more...

Have also put in a few extensions onto my Firefox like whois? [ which if you high light a name it lets you search it in a few places which can tell you some information ], Pluck & Sage [ rss feeds ] and my stickies which is great! :) Watching alot of Call for Help has enable me to find some of these plug ins. And I thank them for that... I also use Shields Up from Steve Gibson for our PC and notebook, who's a regular in the show!

Will be exploring the latest extension 'Kaboodle.' Looks fun!!! Major Geeks- A great place to download stuff that is pretty interesting!

Been AWOL for a while have had nothing to say and only been back to surfing yesterday. Found some pretty interesting things...

Windows Vista sounds kind of fun... I have looked at all 5 versions that they will be coming out with and my fave is 'WV Home Premium.' I wonder how pricey it will be???

Will be going to the dentist at 2pm for the fitting of my crown but I still don't know if the dentist will do something else. I wonder what he thinks of my x-ray? Reading that there's a new fad in Thailand about colour braces, pretty crazy. The cops are cracking down on home braces kit. Which have become illegal... Dang, the fads are going to the dark side! Hee.. it was expected eventually. almost everyone is out there to make a buck! Right!

"A few things I am sort of scared that I have found out is that XP is not safe the only solution, which is argued, is to redesign and rebuild the kernel [ whole kernel has been reorganized and rewritten to help prevent software from affecting the system in unsavory ways ]with a focus on security and stability. Which MS is freaken doing with Vista. In Vista, it should be much more difficult for unauthorized programs (like viruses and Trojans) to affect the core of the OS and secretly harm your system. MS is trying to make it easier!"

Also came upon a program which emulates Mac. 30megs and looks like fun, but will refrain from using it for now. i need to find some info and read about it. I have one negative already, which said it was hard to uninstall and that is not good.

I also need to refresh xp and will be backing up all my crap and erasing my whole drive. That will be a freaken experience. I still have to get like over 60gigs of my hard drive... Not much but I think I will just spend the $$$ on an external hard drive and upload all my junk there... It's easier and I don't have to spend hours burning,,, Right!

B-G is helping his sis that has come from Alberta with her husband and her son to visit... They're moving to a hotel downtown (one which I worked a few years ago) closer to the action!

Gots to go and take a shower...

Happy Happy Birthday to OLDCATMAN!!! Hope you have a good one. And I thank you for the comment... I am happy that you are well and that the critters are just fine! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU AND ME!!

Been visiting my reads... 'tis been a while...

Mr. Bloopy on his link log 3/11 had a note about atm fraud which reminded me of what happened to B-G yesterday! Ok so it's not ATM but its bank related. ;P

Unfreaken believeable... Ok so the story goes: B-G went to a store downtown trying to buy me a small present for moi. And he forgot his CC, how he found out is that he was going to pay for Korean, yummy, when he suddenly remembered that he had lefted at that specific store. How does he know, well it was the last store he went to and bought something and the girl was closing up. I was thinking maybe she had given it another client by mistake but no the store was closing! Now the stupid girl used it twice and while B-G was in the phone with CC company a third transaction was being made and immediately the guy blocked it! but we don't know if it said stolen or blocked? But apparently the machines have a way of saying STOLEN! After B-G went to the police to file charges. On top of it all the stupid girls name was even on the freaken receipt. Oh let me point out that she was alone in the store no other clerks were working at the time of the purchase. Stupid Freaken Girl!!!!

One thing that's sort of good is that the CC company will not charge B-G for the Fraud. I love protection! I have it in my CCs cuz you never know. I am not really sure about the ATM pretection plans here in Canada but I'm 85% sure we are protected from fraud poor Mr. Bloopy I guess that really sucks! I will call to comfirm this in a few moments! Thank you Mr. Bloopy...

Kent Nichols - very talented and which I read all his blog from the begining! Living in L.A. The director, assuming, of Ask A Ninja Podcast...

reading his post of Oct. was interesting as I found out about Pope Joan, a woman that was a pope in the 855AD... The way they found out was that she gave birth? Ok all the details are not ironed out but hey pretty freaken interesting!

I love his poems they are called: Rhympinion I, II, III, IV, V. Well they are posted by the mouth which I assume its his alter ego 'the poet!'

This is what happens when I listen to my fave podcasts and I sorta check out what they find interesting. I get hooked too... I been reading this dudes blog for the past 2hrs that is insane but when I enjoy a blog I want to read it all... Just plain CRAZY!

Just a ramble:
I just thought about something... Why doesn't g-map, y-map, mapquest or any other net map have the function to input multiple address into maps? We need a plumber and well, I need to find out their location and which is the closest one as you need to pay for transportation fees if they are too far... I wonder???

Aaarrggghhh... I been waiting for the DS Lite (which sold out in Japan in a matter of hrs the day it came out 3/2) to makes its appearance here in NA but no the f#$k-heads are scratching thier a-holes. And holding it hostage for the time being before releasing it to the masses here! Why can't they just offer it at the same time as in Japan! I am so angry about that... Checked out some really cool games that I want to by even before I own the DS Lite! It's a little crazy. I have made my small but precised wishlist at nintendo! Yep, I have an account. I may be old and what ever! But hey, if the Japanese can do it so can I! :P

I am truly in love with it. Ok, so it will cost money to use the freaken DS web browser (which SONY offers it for free on the PSP) but I have no plans on using that. Yeah, it's brighter (battery life on max setting 5-8hrs & able to go up to 10-18hrs on the low setting which charges in 3 hrs. Uses transmissive LCD), the stylus is 1cm longer and 1mm thicker, scratch resistance on the lid and lighter. It also comes with a 1seg digital broadcast TV tuner... The AC adapter that is not compatible w/ other handhelds and old games stick out 1cm of the DS Lite which some people mind but not I. Ok with it! :)

I just love the baby blue color 'Blue Ice' they are coming out with but I want it to match my Poddy ['Crystal White'] so I have to think on that one, which the second shipment was 3/11 (double the turn out, specially for the color DSes) and introduced 'Blue Ice' and 'Enamel Navy'... It can also play GBA games Nintendo has confirmed this, thank goodness! :) They are being sold at Like Sang for $199US, but are all back ordered at the moment.

Over all, I am truly happy I waited to get the DS Lite... Plus, I hate the originals color, I am sick and tired of the dark freaken silver! It's about time Nintendo came out with stylish shit! :)

I also want to get a ifish form audiocubes but still reluctant as I want the icat! Been watching Angelic Slayer and finished Full Metal Panic! which is making me want to buy the 2nd part! Aaahhh!

I can't believe all the info. on the DS Lite I been reading this afternoon really stayed in my freaken head! I want it so badly! Needed to research it pretty well before really wanting it! Also, I been wanting to play a few games that I cannot on the GC or PS2...

There is a new game called 'Okami' that will be coming out in a few months that I want... I also wish to get 'Electroplankton,' which both are for the DS Lite...

And a note, a reminder for me:

- Super Mario Advance: Super Mario Bros. 2, Mario & Luigi: Superstar Saga, and Yoshi's Island: Super Mario Advance 3. Each of these three games will be repackaged in a new Player's Choice box and priced at a MSRP of 19.99.

A little wierd but cute at the same time...

Silicon Power’s Limited Edition Hello Kitty SD Memory Cards Cute and Fashionable & only available in Taiwan!

I wouldn't have minded having one :). But they were a limited edition and only in Taiwan :(.

I was watching call for help and they have such great links some times! Two that attracted me were zoom and go, a site to share you vacation, your city through video, news and pictures. Ordinary people making videos of the places they have visited... It's really cool! And if your video is interesting you may get a little $$$. Need a favor want a favor well favorville is a place for you. I love it but it's too bad that there are only 5 members for my city but hopefully in time it will get big! I am crossing my fingers. An amazing find! :)

Something to remember:
- How do I customize the 'From:' address on outgoing mail? on gmail
- who is: an extention of that can be used on Firefox. pretty damn cool!
- Directions on how to enable or disable software installation on Firefox

You can get much more at call for help site which they have like tons of freefiles.

Panorex ($40) was done today at the orthodontist and went to leave it to my dentist after. Ate corn, ravioli and perogies. For dessert glutinous rice balls with red bean filling - Yuanxiao [believed that it's named after a palace maid, Yuanxiao, of Emperor Wu Di of the Han Dynasty] also called Diafuku in Japanese.

I been lazy at doing my blog. Someon called me a few days ago and asked me if I wanted to get more traffic to my site. I was like my site is a blog not a biz. Crazy people! The guy got irratated and I was surprise as he was offering a service. I find that more and more that the clerks, cashiers, etc... are becoming so freaken obnoxious... Why is that I wonder? They think they own the biz and try to get your money at any cost. Atleast be polite if your gonna take my money a-holes!!! I worked in that industry and I was never that insanely rude. I was always polite and we even went to seminars to be more polite to our costumers. Do they go to them or do they freaken sleep!!! Maybe the company is too small to give a flying bleep!!!

I also had like 4 days of no internet! It sucked! I been watching the anime I got... Those Who Hunt Elves is so funny I forgot all about it. I spend 2 days fixing my iTunes library as I moved my files and like 700-900 of them went missing and had to put them all back. Which was a bit of a pain cuz some lost their album covers. Got some music and Jap Tv program which was so freaken funny and totally wierd the same time. What I get out of it, is pure laughter as I can't understand what they say. The program is about 4 guys locked up in a basketball gym for 24 hrs. They sit around a small table in the middle of the room, with sometimes people bringing them food. An alarm rings, a guy dress like a black ninja pops up and starts to run towards the guys. The 4 guys start to run around and the first one to get grabbed either gets hit, kicked or little naked boys (no joke) sit on their face. Other stuff happens but thats the jist of it all. It's Japanese entertainment, that's what Nori tells me.

I also met one of his co-workers/friend Saturday. Her name Yuko, pretty cute, 26yrs old. I thought she would make a godo girlfriend for him. I try to push them together. I am so bad... I wanted to be the match maker. Made stupid comments at times like 'You will invite me to your wedding, right?' They just laughed, I guess I took advantage of their so sweet politeness. But Nori's finally comming around to being a westerner. He's not that polite which is great. Heee...

Woke at 8:05 and left for the dentist (10am). It took me a while to get ready... Damn, root canal ( a whopping $900)! I had 4 roots and apparently one was huge! I got about 4 shots of novocaine! I was so freaken nervous for like the first 1/2 hr I shook like crazy and the dentists had to stop cuz I was shaking too much. After awhile I stopped and relaxed that's when I felt nothing! I was so happy and just listened to my pod for the last 45 min. The dentist is such a sweetheart, I really like him alot. He so cares for my pain! He knows I can't take much and does his best to make as comfortable as he can. He will be going on my X-mas list this year!!! He is so sweet! I felt nothing! :))

On 3-31 at 2pm, I have my app. for my crown fit and on 4-7 at 9:30am they put it on! I also will get my front porecelain vaneers fixed! I will have some of my fillings changed and fixed too... I want my teeth healty... I try to take care of them as much as I can, flossing is like a crazy thing for me. I have floss every where in the house in my purse, car, coat, pockets... I seen some people's teeth and all I can say is YUK!

Yesterday got V1 'Real Bout High School' with manga and Sakura Wars V4... I also got WarCraft but need to return the CD as its broken! Aaaahhh, wanted to play it! As I'm an addict to StarCraft! Been recently playing it once again! :)

Bought some music on iTunes... I wanted to buy 'Halo' from the One Tree Hill soundtrack but to no avail I couldn't I need to buy the whole album. So, will go and check out the cd at Best Buy while I get my exchange on WarCraft! :))

I feel sleepy as I am so dopped up from taking some pain killers... Waiting for B-G to come back from his meeting... We need to go and buy eggs, water and some other necessities at Costco... Also, need to get to Brault and Martineau to select the new dishwasher... CRAP!!!! And need to select a storage place to put our junk into... Well, more like B-Gs papers, journals, mags and other crap he doesn't want to get rid. We have no space at all here... We live in constant chaos and I hate it. It depresses me!

I can't wait for my Anime DVDs to get here! I will be so happy!! Heee...

read bum's blog and was really upset about the treatment he gets from his family. I feel totally sad and I need to vent!! Why is it that parents that have a great child want more out of them and the bad children get away with it! Not fair! Society, family, your friends sometimes and even yourself push to be perfect or atleast to reach pefection as you can!

I mean, we are not perfect for goodness sake we are human and all of us have faults and inperfections... We can try to achieve or be pushed to become perfect but you need to look inside of yourself and love yourself wich is so hard as we are all bombarded with images of perfection. I hate at times being part of this society as children try to achieve it with deadly conscequences at times...

I take everything with a grain of salt because not everything you see is sugary sweet! I try to see the beauty within a person because beauty fades but the beauty of a soul lasts for ever! I wish I wish I wish for many things which will never come true! Reality is that I will be me no matter what! At times wishing can only bring pain and alot of heart ache! Yes, its nice to wish but if you take it too serious then that's when it gets like totally wrong!

I can't read, I'll take it up tomorrow!

Finally changed my site look... Took me all of Saturday day!

I'm still thinking should I get that region free DVD? I got a lot of anime (12 complete series) from ADV films... I cannot wait to get them... AAAHH!

I went to chinatown yesterday... Got dimsum, bake goods and meat to eat... Nori spend the Saturday night here... We went pretty late to bed... Watched the Olympics which I really don't get into but he liked it... B-G did some work, had a nap and then went to work. Nori left around 9:30pm to go to work. Poor guy wors overnight... We also offered him our spear bedroom incase he wishes to save money after May.

I also went around reading blogs... I found that bloopy had a wonderful link and well I use to be so into ren and stimpy, and found that the creator has a blog! Love the buggers... heee... He also had a review of the new Berry Krispies which taste grossy... I miss being in the US eating the yummy tooth decaying cereals... heee...

Bum had fun wearing a astronaut outfit... heee... Cute... He had fun and didn't take Bumpod with him, music was already being provided there. Apparently he also became a pic-slut, heee... Good for him. He looked really good with the oriental girl. They made a very nice couple!

Goddess had a really sad post... I read it and it's so true about some of instantces that happen. I was totally happy with the fact that the man wanted to take care of his son, that is rare in this society. That tends to almost never happen. That is a good father!

That's as far as I have gotten...

On Flickr found one of my contacts had recieved 'hanahiyori brand green tea chocolates.' I want some... It looks so yummy!

Got emails from Demi and Yoshie saying they finally got their X-mas gifts... The kids all liked their gifts. I am so happy!

I am not so good with birthdays... I am more good with big holidays... Why am I so lazy and not able to send things to people who mean something to me on their special birth day... Ah! I hate myslef to that being such a freaken mindless twit! It's not like I don't have the money/time or anything like that... I just tend to be forgetful and get myselft in a hole...

Demi's Birthday is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEMI!

Goddess Birthday is this week too... HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENEE!

Woken by a phone call from Madeline (the secretary of EM), apparently the changing of B-Gs account accidently caused all his checks be refused...

B-G's at a conference today... So much learning these doctors have to go through, it's a never ending thing! I got asked if I wanted to go to St. Johns this summer but I said that I wanted to go to Japan! I will eat in and not spend a dime on my beloved anime to go there... I want to so badly...

I been trying to call my bro for the last 2 days and freaken crap the circuits are freaken busy constantly... I want to scream. I soon will use my cell which will cost me an arm and leg to pay and that I cannot afford because I want to save for Japan. This is happening even if I have to beg and plead.

B-G wanted to buy me a new set of earings as the ones from x-mas sort of lost one of them. Weep, weep... I even had the crazy notion that if I retraced my paces I would find them... So, I did freaken -17C outside and I looking in the ground like a nut for it. I even forgot to get my tickets to go into the metro. Had to ask this guy who looked at me like I was crazy but obliged anyways and passed his pass to let me in... Here was a 5'2 chick explaining her problems to some stranger... NUTS! But had to do anything for my fave earings. To no avail didn't find them! SUCKY!

Valentine's was ok... Got roses a card and a 'I will take you to select what ever jewelry you want.' Yep, B-G thinks I am too picky and it's best for me to pick then him as he knows that I would return it if I don't like it! THat is mean but I will not spend uselessly on something I will never wear!

I got B-G the PS2 Namco Museum games and Micheal Buble CD with a card...

Ate some ramen, just a while ago. I am in love with ramen been eating it for the past 3 days. Since Nori came with them and made them for me. He said that after 10 min. the noodles become to soggy and they don't taste as good as when they are first done. So that's why you need to eat them quite fast!

They were amazing!! YUM!!!

Did my blog reading and was totally surprised by Josephine's self made Shoji sliding doors... GREAT! I want to make Shoji closet doors from scratch as they are like 3000-4000 grand... That is a bit too much... Found TAP a company in California that makes the plastic I want... I thought I had to make it from scratch as I left a message to Josephine asking her what kind of paper she bought at Paper Mojo. I will ask Nori if he could help me on the making of them... Is a crazy project maybe but they will look totally beautiful in our bedroom!

Woke up at 10am... B-G is still sick with the stomach flu. I gave B-G his gift (cd- micheal bubble and PS2 namco arcade games) with a card...

Yeah, he's forgiven as he's sick that is why I got nothing, it's all good!

I played Katamari for 3hrs and had some Japanese ramen with sushi, gyozas and egg... Yumm!!!

Spoke to my bro 2 days ago... He sounds good and says nothing is really wrong. Do I believe it or not? I don't know what to think. I tried to call him yesterday but all the circuits where busy. really... AAAAHHH!!! I hope he doesn't think I was just lying to him. I think he will come and checked out what I wrote as I told him that I was really worried and some of you were also wishing him well. Which I thank all of you for that...

Been listening to the Otaku Gen. podcast, need like 8 more to catch up until next week... Hopefully, its all done by then...

I don't know if I should go to class... B-G wants to spend a quiet night, not like we do anything else every other night. Hee... I checked my email and found that on flickr I had a email regarding 'We Love Latte' group...It's the 4th group I been asked to joined! Which I need to post about ms. blondie and ms. fatsie there... hee...

Happy Valentine's!!!!

I got a bit worried about Nori and decided to email him which I did... Then decided to browse the web clips on gmail... And it rocks I found that i-Cat is coming out this fall and I want one... They are so cute... The i-Dog is so so cute...

Yesterday I went onto my gmail and found that its now link to a chat which is great! So I talked to Twinkie it was great! He's wife/gfriend was out on the town with the girls and he had been thinking of having Korean which B-G and I had had a few minutes ago...

I was thinking of getting the Nintendo DS Lite but I want to wait for the new one that's coming out! Thanks to Jen at for the information...

Suzi Chen has cancelled her blog. I guess she just decided that she was fad up with the blog... I hope she's doing well... I will be emailing her and wish her tremedous luck on her goal of lossing he weight and becoming healthier as days pass by. Wish her well! Blogger friends are so sweet... I feel truly special...

Thank you all, for your well wishes on my bro and caring so much as to take some time from your busy lives.

Greg (being a lawyer now and all must be truly busy), Long (still out in the world... checked out the deathclock and I will die in Thursday, July 18, 2075 Seconds left to live... 2,191,669,659), Demi (hoping she's doing well...), nosthegametoo (Miss his beautiful poems!), OLDCATMAN (has a new pretty red truck!!! NICE!) and WTF (still working at the cell company) have not posted I think I rubbed my laziness or they are very busy. Most probably they are busy! Not like me, that I am just truly LAZY! Heee... Poppymoonean has a post which got me so fired up! It makes me think very hard about having children, still scared. Goddess has changed her home which I need to change on my link side... Sylvain has the cutest snow falling site ever!! Rieke was not around for a month or so but has recently posted. Hope she's doing well... Bum is getting into the match thing!! Good luck on that one bum!! JAG has a new look to her site!! Fenina's stie is still very interactive! Jen2 is into the reality fix!! Jen is stress and hopefully all her worries and cheeses are soon over with... Wish her well... Tim is still fixing Lady Jane! The progress maybe slow but its getting done!!! All the best!! Ickle bug's daughter Lydia is such a cutie and she might be also down! SAJ site is in the frits for now. Rolled my behind to Tony and read for a few min. catching up... I will be one of the ones to buy his secrets that he has locked up and will soon be put onto paper... Heee.... And finally Mr. Bloopy, hates brusselsprouts, which I sort of find them ok... Cocoa Pebbles rocks!

Finally catched up!!!

I will get him the info for that... He went to work at 11pm... Crazy works overnight... Yikes... Poor guy, he's really sweet... I wish I could be able to help him find someone for him... HE reminds me so very much of my bro. Talking about him, well he is doing very well but he has been given the boot! He will be going to San Diego for 2 months for rehab and then go home. What we are scared of and I made my mom understand is that he may go back to doing drugs and drinking. This for him, I find, will not be a wake up call. I expressed myself to my Mom, I'm being harsh but if he can give up that easily then he is susceptible to it.

All this either for 2 things, he was scared of going to Iraq and could not go through it no matter how patriotic he is! He could not do it... Or it could be something personal within him. He was kind of acting wierd with me and getting vey upset with me. When on other occassion it would be all ok... I mean one minute he was sweet the next he was terribly angry at me. So, I more strongly leaning to his state of mind that he was very depressed, due maybe not being able be with his family and friends... Or not happy with his life. I know that very well... At that age you do the most stupidiest things and sometimes put your life in danger...

He knows I am here for him and that no matter what I will always be there. I do however tell it like it is. I am not embarassed or hide anything. I'm however lazy and last minute. I suck!!!

Tues. headed to class... Was about 10 min late but then another person came even later then me, so then I wasn't feeling so bad...

I am so lost in my class... I really need to study like crazy. I also as I didn't go to like 2 classes I am a bit lost. But catched up... Still... AAAHHHHH!!!

Wed. Nori came over... We studied and watched a bit of 'Ice Age.' He wants apparently to go to Concordia for Conversation classes... I think it would better that he get himself in contact with more people. He tried to... Train of thought has been lost...

So we got the TV but returned it to Sony why? Wel, cuz they were charging a mint. We went to the Brick and got the same TV but with all its accesories for almost the same price. So, I say why not save a few bucks were we can!

I am happy now. The wall mount is on back order. It will take 2-3wks... Hopefully not!

I been reading my blog comments. And have gotten back at some but not all.. Sorry about that... I left a gigantic one at Bum. Hopefully, he doesn't think I'm a nut case! His b-day was yesterday! Happy Birthday, once again!!!

Been reading his blog for the past 45 min. I usually read from the bigining, I say usually cuz if it catches my eyes. Like all that I have on my right side, have... He is going there...

My bro hasn't gotten back to me or my mother. I am trying to call him just about now! As I write this... Hopefully, he's in but the freaken' phone isn't being picked up... Picked up... Laters...

On Tuesday was my 3rd class and didn't go felt a bit under the weather and was sort of lazy. So, decided to remain home. Also, Nori slept over and we stayed up a little late.

Went bowling on Sunday with B-G, it was so much fun! Also went bowling on Tuesday with B-G and Nori it was fun... Took Nori to Fairview and B-G went to his meeting while Nori and I went around the mall... It was really nice weather 3C... Sweet! Went to Best Buy but they didn't have the TV that we wanted... Got an Action Replay for my NGC... I am thinking if I should get an X-box 360 or wait for PS3? Aaaahhh!

My bro is ok now, he's in a program. Been trying to call him all week and I cannot get through. It's so annoying not to be able to talk to him and see how he is... Frustrated!!!!!!!

I send out like 30 emails out of those about 3 have come backed, I guess people are busy or don't care to send back a reply, no problems on that matter... heee... I guess no more 30 emails sending again... W - E!

Today, we ended up going downtown to the Sony Store... We talk to the rep. and decided on the 32" BRAVIA XBR Widescreen LCD TV(V32XBR1) :

16:9 Widescreen Mode is essential for enjoying DVD movies and High-Definition TV, offering a wider and more vivid scope of the action. BRAVIA's high-definition monitor resolution is also a must for true-to-life picture quality and accuracy in fast-moving scenes.

Sony's newly-developed WCG-CCFL Backlight technology featured in the new BRAVIA XBR line, enables an even more accurate reproduction of colour, recreating a broader and more vivid colour spectrum. The result is a spectacular and life-like image.

Watch High-Definition programs directly on your BRAVIA XBR television with the integrated ATSC Digital Tuner. Receive High Definition signals terrestrially (over the air) broadcast where the signal is available.

WEGA Engine is a key driving force behind the superior picture quality of the BRAVIA XBR LCD TV. Based on Sony's expertise in digital signal processing, WEGA Engine processes all video signals in the digital domain, delivering an even more realistic image.

Experience high quality home entertainment with the LCD TV engineered for performance and style. Its slim shape makes the BRAVIA XBR a perfect addition to any decor. With its smooth black and silver finish, the BRAVIA XBR delivers outstanding picture quality through impressive design.

The Dual 13-Watt Speaker System delivers crisp and vibrant sound through its invisible bottom panel. Enjoy TruSurround audio with the LCD TV designed for exceptional picture and sound.

Enjoying your favourite media from a variety of sources is even easier with the Experience PC gaming and personal computing applications with the sharp contrast and enhanced scope of Sony's top-of-the line BRAVIA XBR Flat Panel LCD TV.

Connect any compliant USB device and experience the full power of the BRAVIA XBR LCD TV. Whether sharing digital video with friends or enjoying music via your Digital Music Player, the High Speed USB 2.0 input brings more to home theatre.

The first industry-supported, all-digital audio/video interface, HDMI allows for uncompressed high bandwidth audio and video signals in one convenient cable. Experience PC gaming and personal computing applications with the sharp contrast and enhanced scope of Sony's top-of-the line BRAVIA XBR Flat Panel LCD TV.

WEGA GATE provides one button access to essential TV controls. Select your favourite channels, access digital pictures, or choose audio/video settings with this convenient all-in-one interface. Use your remote to navigate the interactive menu and find what you want easily.

Use the table-top stand out of the box, to enjoy high definition television from any room in your home. Alternatively, you can use the VESA-compliant Wall-Mounting capability to enjoy your BRAVIA XBR in a whole new way.

w/ the special of saving $500 for buying a HDD/DVD recorder (RDRHX715) :

For entertainment beyond the limits, trust Sony's RDR-HX715 DVD Recorder and Hard Disk Drive to deliver more of your favourite movies, sports, news and dramas whenever you want them. Its impressive 160GB Hard Disk records and stores up to 269 hours of television programming for easy and convenient access. With the industry's highest media compatibility, recording on DVD+R/RW and DVD-R/RW discs, the RDR-HX715 takes the guesswork out of recording your video content directly to DVD.

Plus, with the added convenience of i.LINK, you can connect your Handycam Camcorder and record memories on either DVD or the Hard Drive with the touch of a button. Its time-saving 64x high-speed dubbing transfers video from the Hard Drive to DVD instantly - recording 60 minutes of video content in only one minute! And with the RDR-HX715's single-cable HDMI High-Definition Multimedia Interface for uncompressed digital audio/video streaming, all your favourite TV programming and DVD movies will always sound and look spectacular.

* Over 269 hours recording on 160 GB; high capacity Hard Disk Drive (at SLP mode)
* DVD+RW/+R, DVD-RW/-R, DVD+R DL DVD Recording Compatibility
* i.LINK Interface for DV & Digital8 Camcorders
* HQ+, the Optimum Bit Rate Recording on Hard Disk Drive for Superior Picture Quality
* Up to 64 times High Speed Dubbing from Hard Disk Drive to DVD
* 720p/1080i Upscaling of HDTV Level Resolution Video Output through the HDMI Interface
* HDMI Interface for HD Ready TV Sets
* Dynamic VBR High Quality Dubbing from Hard Disk Drive to DVD
* Intelligent Scene Chaptering & Visual Search (VR Mode)
* Onscreen TV Program Guide (EPG)
* Chasing playback for watching a show from the beginning while the show is still recording (Hard Disk Drive and DVD-RW VR Mode only)
* Cable Box Control
* D-Matrix Noise Reduction System
* Quick Response Graphic User Interface
* Fast Playback with Sound (HDD in VR mode)
* A/V Sync

Those are some of the specs I took from the site... which I care to keep!

I am so lazy... I don't really feel like going to school... aaaahhhh, freaken' lazy!

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