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Billy's Original Hush Puppy Recipe

1 cup self rising flour

2 cups self rising cornmeal

3 tablespoons sugar 1/2 tablespoons baking powder

4 tablespoons oil

2 eggs, beaten

1 large onion, finely chopped

1 jalapeno pepper, finely chopped or ground in food processor

1 cup buttermilk

Combine flour, cornmeal, sugar and baking powder in a large bowl and mix well. Combine oil, eggs, onion, pepper and buttermilk, stirring well. Add to dry mixture and mix well. Batter will be stiff. Use 2 tablespoons of batter (or an ice cream scoop) to form each hush puppy. Drop into hot oil (350*) and fry approximately 4 minutes or until brown. Yield: 20-25.



Hush Puppies

2 eggs, beaten

1/2 cup white sugar

1 large onion, diced

1 cup self-rising flour

1 cup self-rising cornmeal

1 quart oil for frying  

In a medium bowl, mix together eggs, sugar, and onion. Blend in flour and cornmeal. Heat 2 inches of oil to 365 degrees F (185 degrees C). Drop batter by rounded teaspoonfuls in hot oil, and fry until golden brown. Cook in small batches to maintain oil temperature. Drain briefly on paper towels. Serve hot. Editor's Note: We have determined the nutritional value of oil for frying based on a retention value of 10% after cooking. The exact amount may vary depending on cook time and temperature, ingredient density, and the specific type of oil used. Makes 8 servings .



Arkansas Hush Puppies     

1 3/4 cups yellow cornmeal

3/4 cup flour2 teaspoons baking powder

1 1/2 teaspoons salt1/2 teaspoon onion powder

1/2 cup sugar

3/4 cup milk

1 egg

1 large onion, chopped fine

5 green onions, chopped

1/2 teaspoon seasoned salt, optional

Mix all ingredients well in order given and drop by spoonfuls into hot deep lard. Fry until light golden brown all over. Drain on paper towels. Serving Size: 6.



Hush Puppies

1 c. corn meal

1/2 c. flour

3 T. sugar

1 tsp. salt

2 tsp. baking powder

1 egg

1/2 c. chopped green onions

2/3 c. sweet milk

Mix and drop by teaspoons in hot fish grease. Cook until golden brown. The grease should not be as hot as for frying fish.



Hush Puppies

2 cups yellow corn meal

2 tablespoons flour

2 teaspoons baking powder

1 tablespoon sugar 2 teaspoons salt

1/4 cup finely chopped onions

black pepper to taste

Boiling water

1 egg, beaten

1/4 cup milk

Oil for frying

Heat oil in fryer to 375°F. Mix all dry ingredients except the baking powder. Pour in enough hot water to make a thick mush, making sure all ingredients are moistened. Add milk, egg and baking powder and mix thoroughly. Drop into oil (use a melon baller if you have one) and fry until golden brown.You can drop a couple puppies into the oil while the fish are frying Just be careful no to drop oil temperature.



B. Smith's recipe for Hush Puppies

2 eggs slightly beaten

3/4 cup milk

2 teaspoons baking powder

1/4 teaspoon baking soda

1 1/2 teaspoon salt

1 Tbsp sugar

2 cups plain yellow cornmeal

1/4 cup all purpose flour vegetable

oil for deep frying

Pre-heat a dutch oven with 2 inches of hot vegetable oil.With a fork, combine the eggs and milk in a large mixing bowl.In a separate bowl, mix the baking powder, baking soda, salt, sugar, cornmeal, and flour together.Mix the dry ingredients into the milk mixture using a wooden spoon. Blend well.Using a large spoon, drop by spoonfuls into the hot oil, and cook until golden brown. Reserve the cooked hush puppies on a plate lined with paper-towels or a clean tea towel.



Hush Puppies

1 Cup Corn meal

1/2 Cup Flour

1 Teaspoon Baking powder

1 Teaspoon Salt

1 Teaspoon Sugar

1/2 Cup Onion chopped

1 Can Cream style corn (16 oz)

Milk, if needed

Mix dry ingredients. Add onion and corn. Mix well. If more liquid is needed to make desired consistency, add a little sweet milk. Drop heaping teaspoons into deep hot fat. Fry until golden brown. (If cooked in deep fat, they float to the top when done.) Yields 10 to 12.



 

found through out the net... had these in Myrtle Beach on our way back to Virginia... will be deciding in the near future what to make... like yum... dreamy!!!

so the week past quickly at my moms. except for a few fights and the heat of South Carolina everything weas good. my brother is so military/marine like. no more drugs but the booze seems to be constant in his life at the moment. i hope he doesn't become an alcoholic. he has 4 more days to party and then back to the marines in North Carolina for 2 weeks and then to Missouri settling for 3 months.



b-gee likes my neice tons, he finds her so but so cute... she is no doubt but he is so funny... heeee... i'm very happy that he met my family even though we did go through some rough patches.  he also finds my brother very polite... and as for my mom he finds her very charming. my sister is very greedy and selfish, like i didn't know that. heee... ooh well, you don' choose who your family will be so that is what i had to tell him... in september will be my turn to meet his family... yikies!!! heee...



OK, so we took pics of the Piggly Wiggly in SC... heee... The Pottery place in Annapolis, was amazing and the Cheesecake Factory in Baltimore was great...



...did i mention the heat was awful... yukies!!! 104 not fun!!! felt like a roasting steak put on the broiler to make it well done... thank god for A/C...



now plans for San Fran and Toronto and let's not forget b-gee's sister's wedding in September 25 in Edmonton, Alberta, prairie land!! Yahhoooo!!! 

on Friday, July 2, 2004 she came into my life... she was a dirty, malnurished kitty... she was cute above all what she had... at the begining she hissed at us... so we ened up putting her in a box with a fluffy towel and small blanket...for her not to feel the harshness of the box... we pet her for hours so she would get use to us and eventually trust us... we gave her tuna/milk (as we found out milk not a good idea, by the vet) for that day... then we took her to the vet on the 3rd, they asked what was her name and i named her 'Grace'... a ear wax and stool sample was taken... it came back negative... the vet asked us to come back in 2weeks... she was concern over Grace's tilt on her right side... b-g was concern she had more then that and kept always saying 'are you sure you want all the responsibility and how about if she is a really sick kitty, do you really want that?' i told him that i didnt care that Grace was perfect and i will be keeping her no matter what... i also said 'what! do you wish me to put her back outside... i don't think so! never!' in my mind and heart she was mine, for always... i would look after her and keep her safe and healthy... so i thought i could... i took care of her, stayed up with her... i tried to make Grace as happy as i could... took her to the vet to find out what was wrong with her... yes, she walked with her head tilted and her hind legs were a bit high when she walked, like she had something stuck up her behind... Grace had the most cutest way of looking at you and meowing, your heart just melted... i picked her up as if she was a baby and she stayed in my arms sleeping and purring... she slept alot, and needed to be woken up to eat... she loved our bed covers... she layed there for hours sleeping. but the best place to sleep for her though was my chest/stomach... Grace loved it the best! i had never seen a kitty with such a craving to be loved... it showed in everything that was done to her in the most thoughtfulness way, we gave her a bath and she didn't fuss and was accepting of the blow drier. she got into messes alot (her own) but i washed her feet all the time... as i found out she loved the heat of the blow drier and slept through it... days were passed me playing with her as much as i could but not being too rough as she was skinny as hell... when she wasn't sleeping she wanted to be with me, i had become her serogate mother... i loved Grace as she was my own... i don't care if she was a kitty... we are all god's creations!!



yesterday, was the worst i ever felt... the day began beautifully, Gracy-pooh was happy as usual... came to us and was walking around the condo and meow looking for me... once she found me, she right away came to me and stuck herself between my legs meowing, like saying pick me up! heee.. so i did... we took her to the bed where she layed on me... for while and then walked to be with b-g... she slept there for a while then b-g wanted to go to the kitchen and i decided to take care and put her on the covers... she layed there and then i picked her up and took her to see what b-g was doing ... all of a sudden i felt her to be weak and some thing was wrong... she wasnt really waking up and then i put her down on top of the washer where all the recent washed clothes were... she started to arch herself and meow like crazy... as if she was in pain... i picked her up and as i was taking her to the living room she just passed stool and b-g was upset as i told him to please clean in up with bleach... as he did that... i access the situation and tried to see what was wrong... i thought it would pass so i waited a bit... then she just went from being ok to not breathing... there was no time to take her anywhere... Grace passed away at 3:19pm...



TO GRACE MY LOVELY KITTY!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS... MY SWEETY...

t-bone === heee... posted what i was doing today... yikes... someone out there is writing about my life... that is why my ears burn....heeee



girl name bob === girl call bob, heee... her parents are on a cruise... where they have a cam to see where you can see the dock... watch out for the squid... heee...



what else... reading about mary-kate ashley... yikes... like it wasn't noticeable... poor girls... i guess the spotlight did eat them up! i wish... never mind.... no negativity on my mind... la la la... laterzzz...

yeah the cocktail is quite spiked:

How to make a maizzy

Ingredients: 5 parts jealousy 1 part arrogance 3 parts

Method: Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Add curiosity to taste! Do not overindulge!

yikes is this really my label:









talk about doing the tour of quizzes... what is up with this... and more like mee.... lalala... crazy for now... heee...

so i'm reading my dailies from this fish and start thinking what the hell is a mum. apparently it's a Texan tradition for homecoming.. ok i wouldnt have been caught dead with something so hidious well that is my personal opinion... yikes... ok, traditions have gone bonkers now...



in other things...



got my subscription for style at home... yeah!!! 10 issues for $20.64CAD...



and...



so yesterday i was watching the health discovery channel: Your Period Your Choice -

stories of women who suffer really bad Periods and those who tried to avoid to have periods with birth control... if you suppress your period you may aviod some serious health problems such as cancers, anemia or bone loss. i found it so very nice... that you can stop having your period for like a few months (with medical supervision, ask your doctor on this advantages/disadvantages) or if you have a special occasion [vacation, wedding, etc....]. i call a clinique today and asked a nurse she couldn't say much about it. as the subject is not really known that much in the medical community... there is so much fluff about the pill... some research has been done and it has been founded that women were not meant to have so many periods in our lives... due to us wanting so much we tend to postpond having children [which we have few 2.5 children] or he have none... the research was done in africa a tribe in which the men has multiple wives but the women have 1 period a year... that was my thing 1 period a year compare that to the western women.. hello, like 10-15 a year... that is crazy, embrace it my ass! so, i will be making my appt to my gyno this week to verified this, if i can do this... man that would be amazing... yeah! ... on that factor...



laterzzz...

"all look same" took the quiz got 7 out 18 correct... it all happened cuz i went to visit ms jen jen... then i read her chat box and clicked on one of her friends blogs reney... yep! i like to see others blogs, to see if they are interesting... that is what happened also when i visited candiedginger clicked on a link of hers "the fish" form there i clicked "secret agent josephine"... now i'm waiting for my spy patch... heee.... so the crazy link click does make me click click and click...



on another front... gave $13.?? US to the new radio station "80's Fm.com" that i listen to... have to keep it free... donations are good... so hey why not... i love the 80's music!!! and i chat there at times... found them through the windows player when i got tired of the ones that were there... so decide to try "80's Fm.com...



been emailing... tons... heee...



can't believe that b-g has been shopping since he finished his shift (voernite 11pm-8am) at the MUHC, yikes... hope he drives safe been reading about people who fall asleep while driving... he's on no-sleep!!!



'k that is about it for now.... laterzzz....

my character.... heee ^.^









Which Takeshi's Castle Character are you?

so it'b been about 9 days... got my new pc... saved some money... got a router... trying to get all the pc's up and going... yah!! bought xp for my old pc... that b-g will be now using as his... but still having some probs on the network issue which armando will help sometime this week... i cant wait... been introduce to radio music through windows media player... yeah i knew it existed but i never really took a look at it... since now i have xp and well a new pc i will take advantage of it... been out of the net for a while as all the stuff had to be put together and i had problems with the ethernet card for the 3rd pc... then finally, called and spoke to someone.. what surprised me was that the cust rep was in the phillipines? what is up with that... i even called microsoft too for some info and the cust rep was in India... what is going on??? all our jobs are going to 3rd world countries due to less pay! the companies make more money if they pay their employees less... as we ask for more due to high living in the west!!! i hate that but i guess people have to make money to get super rich and the average man is dependent on them to give jobs to the unfortunates that have less... what the f!$k!!! no wonder many people can't get jobs here... and so many are on welfare... then the gov't bitches about the money problem... well, look were all our jobs are heading out of this country and into others...



k.. that was my rant... leave it at that if i keep going i'm going to have a bad day!! and i dont want that... as i have gotten a great deal today... i called my IP and asked to be terminated as i was taking my bizz to the competition... well, they asked "why is that?" i told them the situtation: on the 11th we went to futureshop to buy equipment to set up a home network. we spent over $300 worth of hardware/software for the home network. now what happened was that i called on the 14th to find out about the special offer (3 month free for the service) that our IP provide was having if you buy hardware at futureshop. but the information that was provided by a sales rep at futureshop was missleading. we didn't know that the offer only was for new members... the sales rep even told us that we could do it... i even asked her like 3 times to confirm and she even said, "oooh, every one does it dont worry. even people who work here do it"... so, i called yesterday the store and they said no you cannot get the offer due to the policy... i even left a message for the manager to call me back on this he never did... so today when i spoke to the sales rep at my IP, he said that he would give us a deal either the 3 mths free or take the extreme speed for 6 moths for what we are paying currently without any restrictions... we took the 3 mths free as we save over $150 that brings us back to a savings for the $300 we spent! we only need to fax the paperwork that was given to us by futureshop! it all worked out for the best!!! happy now!!



laterzzz...



reading: "Moore Stayed Quiet About Prisoner Footage"

the day started out slow... got up at 8 am got breakfast started... served b-g in bed and then made mine... talked about what we would do through out the day... i wanted to go shopping, he was ok about that... cleaned up... took a shower... finished washing clothes... started to get ready and left at aroun 1:30pm... we hit fairview mall... got some dishes from the bay and went to get my exfoliator scrub (ran out today) by clinique and a post blemish solution... as a few blemishes were in town due to the "P"... hate those times... i guess the woman at the counter thought i suffered from acne... so she recommended it... i took bought it to see if it works during "P" time...

she also asked me if i needed the 3 step... i told her that i had:

3 step

emergency mask

7 day scrub cream

gentle eye make up remover

pore minimizer: t-zone shine control



she looked at me like i had a bit of an obsession, like i care :P. heee...



so we headed out to the car as we didnt want to carry the stuff around with us... but as we stayed outside to talk we noticed it was a gorgeous day... we didn't go back to the mall instead we ended up going to microbytes and got a computer... cost about $1,400.00 CAD... it will be ready on wed-thur... i guess they'll call us to come pick it up... i was glad cus the PC i have presently the USB ports aren't working... which is great now that i will have a brand new one YEAH!!!! so very happy... the case is a cute silver with blue trimimg... pretty cute...



i've been looking forward at buying the PC and i should have taken a while longer to buy the PC (that insane thing that i have to buy really quick!). ooh well.... maybe in another 3 yrs. i'll be better at that...

i spoke to Armando and he got me thinking of bad thoughts about my new PC... he said that the place were i bought the PC, they tend to use old parts... one thing i will want to do is ask if they do that, like they would tell me anyways.. now im truly neverous, dang!!!! we'll see how all the is in about 5 days... yikes!! :( kinda sad now...



after we did the shopping we went to provigo to buy food and came home to eat the leftover lasagna with some parmassan... which was delish!! yumm...



b-g worked overnight... he came in around 10am... he's taking a nap at the present... he will be doing another overnight tonight! which i hate cuz it scares me a bit to be all alone in the house with no one and our degu "pikachu-nun-nun" makes at times noise which drives me nuts when i'm alone. as i go to check the door if its locked like 30 times... and i sleep with the tv on and at time go to sleep when it starts to get light outside... pretty pathetic for a 31yr old... yikes... what society has made of me... well more like what i have let society do to me... dang!! ok stop for now...



laterzzz....

been up to the same same... went shopping for food... b-g made lasagna... yumm... taste the best today! also, got a black forest cheesecake... yum.... had that with some vanilla ice cream! also, made some yummy cantelope smoothie which was great! been buying some fruits... cantolopes, strawberries, honeydew, peaches, watermelon, cherries and grapes... all that is was great... cut it up and made it into a fruit salad... yumm!! cant believe i'm stuck on GH (general hospital). great!!! heee.... the days have gotten better... it hasn't been raining for 2 days now... kinda cool.. but it's been 18-20 c... ms. jen jen has changed her page look... pretty nice!! lorinne, paid me a compliment which i would like to return it but her chatterbox is still not working...

starting to read my regulars... gonna go see...

laterzzz...

been doing some cleaning and reading blogs for the past week.... sat & sun was ok... sunday b-g and i went to asian garden... it was good... we order the buffet special... you order and comes to you instead of you going to the food... we started with dumplings in peanut sauce, veggie tempura and calamari in salt & pepper... and the main cousre was going to be pad thai, friedeggplant, chicken in coconut sauce but that was scrapped and we had instead sushi with dumplings of chicken and beef w/ shrimp... which hit the spot!! we came out stuffed like peppers... yikes! we got a scared this past few days... we thought we were pregnant but turned out not to be... need to be more careful!!! that is the high life of our week... i guess... til next time... thx to OLDCATMAN, demi, ginger/candy and lynn for the nice emails... hope that they are old good!



laterzzz....

My blogs 1 year anniversary!!! Happy birthday to you!! heee.... see you next year, hopefully! YAH!

found this on jen jen's site... so i decided to try it!

My Bloginality is ENTP!!!

as i found out yesterday.. my camera is not able to connect to my PC so i cannot download my photos from the trip, so i need to find another way... send it to the lab and get the cd from there.. this sucks.. i swear... b-g and i have been thinking and ww decided to try to look for a new PC then he can have this one and i'll take the new one... you know it!! heee... been so lazy...

met with armando yesterday and went shopping for b-g present as he found the one that i had for him... nutty! so i bought b-g: columbia pants, a mini zen garden, some clips for his office, alot of office supplies, a realu nice basket for all the presents... i even made him some lucky stars with pretty cranes... heee...

bought a dvd "the legend of the swordman" w/ Jet Li(his fanlisting)!! pretty good... armando and i had chinese left overs from the night before that b-g and i had... watched the Jet Li movie, Big Fish (that i bought in when i was visiting my mom)... b-g was at work he had a 12 hrs shift.. 12pm to 12pm but he came at 1:30am due to some paperwork he had to finish up...
b-g came home with 2 slices of pizza... and he opened up the gifts i gave him... but he bugged me for the card as i got a little sheezed due to the fact that he went after the presents instead of the card first... so, until 3.30am he was bugging me to give him the card but i didnt next thing i know its morning cus i fell asleep on him... heee... then in the morning i told him that he wouldnt have enver found the card because i had hidden it under the fitted sheet under me... heee... i decided to give it to him and he loved it... heee. it all worked out... got up around 10 am made him and me coffees and talked a bit... then around noon we took a nap and woke around 4:50pm... was starving as we hadn't eaten the whole day... heated up left overs and ate while matching "mission: organization".

b-g went out to get us yummy desserts... he got carrot cake, mango & rasberry mousse, strawberry/rasberry delight cheesecake... pretty yummy!! gotta go... wanna go eat some while watching iron chef battle of the caviar!
laterzzz...

that is disgusting what that bitch did to that poor woman trying to earn a living...

how is it possible that people can exist with such hatret for others and to have no souls as to what they do... that is really mean!!

at rieke's place... she had a post on a poor maid getting burnt (iron) by her boss in Maylasia! that is so evil! pure evil does exists in someone's soul (if they even have one!)

so today is my b-g birthday!! what to do?? i am a chicken with a out a head.. got up not to long ago... he's gone out to his meeting... did the most dumbest & stupidest, combine them together please, thing... trying to see if i could delete my log in name at the google mail log in page. it's a new email system "G-MAIL" that is being offered by google on a participation basis... i had the freaken email but i had put a name that i didnt want so i deleted to see if i could do another username... but instead i in my morning haze deleted the whole thing... how much of a moron am i... well... the zanest thing was to send mail to the team that is working on the project... let's see what happends in the next few days.. ooh, did i mention that when i wanted to re-sign up.. the link told me i needed a "a new spiffy link." found that to be a bit amusing though, if i say so myself... i feel this morning very light headed. hmmm, wonder why???



laterzzzz....

so i have updated my site at maizzy.com ... i simplified it... i emailed ms. gale to tell her how i appreciate her for asking me my opinion of "why i blog an article." as for other things in the home front... going shopping later on with chris to "LA SENZA" it's a warehouse sale everything $5 and down... i have the need to shop!! also, got into the cliques "google lovers." but that is on my site... so what else is new... haven't bloggged in a few days... kind of quiet and bored out of my mind... i think i need to start doing stuff... everything makes me sleepy... and crankie... not good... my hands still feel numb... i think i need to go to a doctor for that... maybe on monday ill try to see if i go... me so lazy! i love my hair cut... yep... that is about it... i haven't listen to music much these past few days i should... dang... oohh gotta go... need to get ready to go SHOPPING!!! YEAH!!!

laterzzz...

finally i am back... i love my hair my mom cut it and it feels so good and looks amazing but it reminds me a bit of "the rachel." it's layered on the back an i dont have to really do anything except put some shine in which makes my hair so soft! anyways, enough about my hair... yesterday b-g and i went to IKEA! bought a set of bowls (dinera & IKEA/365+), glasses (TRAFIK glass & wine glass), the new dragon fly light for the table which i will be sending to my mom as i gave her the dragon fly lights that go on top during the night... they are so cute... heee... i'm thinking of buying some for our balcony in front as the back balcony is too narrow to sit and relax!

b-g and i were so tired yesterday... that we got take out "Thai" & "Sushi"(which we ate it about 5 min ago...). nothing much has happened today, only had a coffee and 1/2 a sweet cheese bread in the morning... which was really good... made the same for b-g but added a blueberry muffin (which i made yesterday morning) with i can't believe is not butter... heee.. he loved it... cuz i took it to bed for him...

still thinking if i should buy a web cam which is really cool... to contact my family and keep intouch... still in the thinking mode though... and still thinking if i should change the color of my home page??? still thinking... still.... hmmm...

gotta go... laterzzz...

the day started pretty hectic to begin with.... got up took a shower around 8am. mom cut my hair and styled it. doggy (ruffus) was being a little pest... he's only 4 1/2 months old... he's a mixture of golden retreiver and a chau-chau (i think it's spelled that way, anyways). mom left me at reagan airport cuz she needed to go to a funeral (saturday one of her customers past away). i couldnt believe what i saw... two big huge x-ray machines to my right and another 2 to my left... dang, that was the first time i had seen that... talk about being extremely careful.. yikes.. heee. but atleast i wasnt strip searched like i was leaving montreal. i passed like 3 detectors and got searched like twice... bought a water, pop tart and batteries... but forgot the pop tart on the seat of the airport as when i order a coffee and went in search for the pop tart in the mess that i call my bag, it just wasn't there.. oh well, had to do with the peanuts that were given on the plan and thank god i had some pookie sticks (strawberry flavor).



i think the girl that was seating across from me was a hasidic jew. i started to think of what my mom said to me earlier... that i was 1/2 jewish... on my trip to i learn that and another tid bit of my past that my dad was a pilot! pretty informative.. heee...



wrote the following on May 2th (sunday):

7am, woke... helped mom with the preparations for my neice's b-day party (her birthday was the 30th of April). got into a some what of a fight about my sis, like always. i dont know any more, coming to VA, i thought it was going to be nice and a family re-union thing but it has been turning out a bit sad like... i dont know where to start on that, but i will instead write of what has happened these past few days since the 22nd of April... heee.. a happier time:

came on the 22nd, mom picked me up... it was hot outside! so grossy on my body! yikes! walking outside to the parking lot. the prejudice of the world came upon me, i really felt it. i feel like that every time i come to the US i dont know why. i guess due to the fact that i tend to look at everyone doing every little thing and then i catch at the corner of my eye something totally discusting and i really dont like to see it... but i guess it does exist... do i live in a bubble or what?!!! i think i should go out more... heeee... but i guess i'm not like that... i personally come from a minority group(s) that many in in the USA tend to not like very much and look donw upon... that is the spanish/latino side. i dont know why... i guess due to the vast immigration of them...

spoke to mom for a bit about the things i had been doing in montreal... she had to go to work. found the doggy "ruffus" to be crazy as hell. 4 months old, he has no training yet. mom will send him to doggy school and get him neutered (ouch!)... my sis doesnt like ruffus too much due to the fact that he always goes after my neice and then she starts crying like there is no tomorrow... poor doggy... he gets scared... when Val starts to cry... heee... i want to take him home with me but i bet b-g will say no, as we dont have no room for such a big doggy... heee... anyways, that was my though even now! so i was left to roam the house the whole day... took ruffus out but he is like a crazed animal... mom came tired from a hard day... she was in the process of buying the salon... the 25th was the signing over of the corporation and place... also the lease was signed on the 28th as the people who owned the salon are were leaving for a week to england... crazy.. mom is going bonkers over the fact that they couldnt wait til the end of the month... yikes... mom asked me to proof read the documents before she signed them... it took me a few days but got it all ready and then she went to see her lawyer. she had done the inventory with the owner the previous week (before i came) and asked me to put all into the computer... so i did... that took me 2hrs. i missed my baby bro by a day imagine he's in boot camp. a 2 days ago he sent a card saying that he had arrived safely but that it was hard as hell. poor baby! so, now 10 days later i'm still here with recentment, if i may say so. TV has been my companion with Ruffus taking up a few hrs with the walks... i take him for walks, which he loves madly. i will miss him tons. he is so freaken' cute. poor darling... he's kept in the kennel at night as he goes upstairs and doodoos all over the carpet... which mom hates... heeee... i have gotten into a few fights about ruffus being in the kennel... i dont like that at all. i try to keep him out as much as i can... during the night i go to bed really late 3-4 am so he will be only in there for a few hrs... then mom takes him out at 6am... so that means he only stays there for 2-3hrs max... but when i leave i dont know what will happen.. during the day he goes to doggy day care... but cuz i was there he hadnt gone as i took care of him and mom saved money as its $15 a day (10am - 5pm). Saturday... was shopping day with my sis, spent $300 which was $140 for my neices clothes. heee... b-g had somewhat of a heart attack when i told him. like always, i'm a shop-a-holic!! i miss him so very much... i care for him alot... he misses me tons, too!! **cry **cry :(



over all the trip was good... got to see my neice, sis and mom... so it was ok, even though there were some fights in that time... heeee.... as i look at my shoulders they have like these red blotches, dut to the heavy ness of my 2 bags... i got b-g english toffee coffee and coffee mates (carmel, french vanilla & hazelnut) as we dont have those flavors here... heee... and he loves them... i also got him some really cute shorts... heee... i took pics of the doggy he is so cute... need to put them up some time this week... i am so tired... havent been sleeping so well! gonna go to bed... but before i havent to compliment blogger as they have made the look so much net-friendly!!! and not to forget "OLDCATMAN" has the new site up and going.. good for you!!! i will go see it.... soon.... thank you for the hi's on my site. demi...thx... i have to think if i should take out the fooble box due so much shit on it that i dont want... i even gave $$$ but not to get crap/spam to be put up on my freaken site... if that keeps up i will take it down... and only my comments will stay...

so im back... laterzzz....

p.s. ===> meow to JC Kitty (thank you for visiting) and the gang!



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so tomorrow i leave for 19 days to visit my mom... dang. this morning my mom calls me to tell me that my bother iwll be going to boot camp this afternoon at 2pm.. he leaves. that really sucks... i will not see him for about 3 months... he's like i can write.. aint that sweet... so that is it for my borther he is finally on his way and will serve in the MARINES for 4 yrs in total... he's happy somewhat his friends tell him his nutzzz... but hey its what he wants to do... more like my mom pushed him to do it... to get straighten up!! as he was into drug-experimenting.. and my mom was fed up so she gave him a ultimatum... that was go into the MARINES and straighten up!!! so that was it! he joined! and now he's gone for 3 months... he told me that he has a six pack and short hair, i told him i dont care how you look, for goodness sake your my bro... tell that to some hotty chick that you want to pick up, but still remembering to practice safe sex thats when he said lets change the subject... i dont need my sister tellimg me what to do in those intimate circumstances... well i told him why then did you bring it up in the first place.. with the looking thing... haaa... i got a rise out of him... which as always, he says what ever, kids... i do love the boy!! we talked for like 1hr 1/2... he wont be with us for our neice's (VALERIE) birthday... its her 2nd but he was there for her 1st so was i which was just the family and a friend of my sister...



i feel much better today, a bit nervous over the flying thing. as i hate it... i feel sick for like 3-4 days after the flight... it takes my body along time to get back to normal... ooh... been playing LITERATI at yahoo... which is fun... its like scrabble... which is freaken addictive... heee...



that is alll.... well need to go pack and take a shower and eat and sleep... i'll try to update during my leave... k... have a good one....laterzzz....

But Feeling DOWN...

went to visit my reads and felt like blabBing so much (which at that time i was on an up beat) that i had to check out a new blog which led me to a place which i been having fun for the past 2hrs... it's called photofriday... which is so nice... they have like challenges of different things on a friday... last friday's was 'self portrait' which was suggested by playapixie... she herself has a really cool pic that she entered... she's at #276! check her out!!



well before that i went to see tasberry she's doing good... one of her co-workers went into surgery and came out pretty badly but she has found out she is doing ok except she has no leg. it's sad.. mr. rob is still out since Dec/ 03... darksyde is still kinda there but needs a little of encouragement to post.. heee... as for rieke, i hope she's doing good.. her sons came to visit her so she was happy on that note... miss demi is kinda on her 'P' so it is hard on her... too much i know the feeling excatly... OLDCATMAN has his channel posting going on... the comedy channel is playing pretty good programs at his place... heeee... gale (anonymous gurl) is still out... soon she'll be up and going, i hope...

ike OLDCATMAN was saying to put a sample of our voices up on our blogs that would be great... to hear how we all sound! that's fun... he has one on his page... and it's pretty cool!! he has the nicest voice ever... heeee.... ***blush*** miss ginger & miss candy... are doing pretty well, except for the case of teasing and the repairman incident... heee... jen jen hasnt posted since the 11th but she has made her presence noticed... hope she's ok probably pretty busy! tangerine... is still in the outs since feb... hope she comes... she has the cutest pic of the "BRB"... heee... lynn has no comments so i cant really say hi to him... but i still go see him.. he's into the one phrase blog right now... hey he hasn't even responded to my email... still on the waits... heee...



these are my thoughts of my regular reads at times i dont post what im thinking or what i feel... i dont know really what to say and explaining is like i feel like i go on a circle... here... its freaken blowing all sorts and i think its going to freaken rain like crazy, i know it... but the sky is so dark, like how i feel inside... what an ugly day it is today... i'm listenning to "WHERE IS THE LOVE" by BLACK EYED PEAS... it makes me so sad and to think we humans are such uncaring people... makes me feel i shouldn't be in this harsh world... i feel hurt inside... OLDCATMAN knows the reality that exists in this hard/uncaring world. we destroyed and we kill each other... something wrong with that picture... don't you think...POWER is what is all about... DOMINATION is the name of the game... i hate that .... what to do BUT to bitch about it... CAN ONE PERSON CHANGE THIS HORRIBLE WORLD... im not saying that there are no good things or good people in this world, there are but some times THAT IS NOT ENOUGH... well for me anyways!!



this is my feeling of the day.... I'M GOING TO HAVE A GOOD CRY NOW, TOO MUCH SADNESS HAS CREPT INTO MY HEART AND SOUL!!! laterzzz....

YES I AM SO VERY HAPPY... I CAN READ MY COMMENTS....THEY ARE BACK AND YES.... THANSK OLDCATMAN!!! YOU SO SWEET... HEEE....



will go see about the audio blog... thingy... thanks to eric for coming to say hi... heee.. through demi's favorites!!



did i mention that i can now read my comments... im so happy... ^_^... YEAH!!!

i guess the night went ok... i watched tru calling & CSI:vegas... it was ok... tv was the night thing... i fell asleep around 1:30am... couldn't wait for my boo... but i sorta woke up a bit when he was looking for his jogging pants to change... then like always went to the dining room to work on his paperwork... dang, he works so much and always is stressed out of his mind...



had a wicked as dream yesterday afternoon when boo and i took a nap... which we got up 30 min before he was going to work... cuz i didnt put an alarm to wake us up!! made him a sandwhich, coffee, and put some grapes for him to take to work...



as the dream went... i was in the bathroom and then i started to have gramps which ended up with me having twin girls... then the scene changed.. boo was coming into the house by the slide door from the back as i was walking out of the bathroom with the babies on each arm... he was saying to me to take the groceries and he also said that he had found an old lady and a child which didn't know where they lived. the people didnt know english... boo asked me to take care of them... ignoring the fact that i had just had the twins... then he went into the bedroom and went to bed with our 3 yr old little boy, in the middle of the bed and on the other the old lady was sleeping... i got stucked taking care of the babies, putting away the groceries and taking care of the kid who didnt speak english.. all of a sudden the kid had put the twins into a basin and had taken apart the back of a bookshelf and put it on top of the basin where the twins were... that was so creepy... that i started yellling for boo to wake up... as i screamed i woke up of my dream by boo's voice saying.. wholly shit, i have to get to work....



bla..... dream/nightmare... i dont know... hee... that is all for now....

tru calling, CSI: vegas are on tonight... gonna see these... my favs... i cannot seem to read my comments... dang... i dont know what to do... i have loooked and looked over my code... dang... oh well.. i went and checked out a new blog... she (matty) has what OLDCATMAN has on his page... the audio blog.... heee... dang, dryer beeper, scare the willies out of me... washing & drying clothes at the moment!! so i been watching on and off american idol... i hope that jasmin (17yr old) wins!! she is safe tonight!! found a new cartoon to read on the net!! yeah, name miss dynamite... a bit hentai like... oh well... but is funny... alot of crude jokes but heee, they are funny... heee...



OLDCATMAN has been inspired by tv... he has he letters as if they were tv channels... heee.. they are funny... imagining playing that on tv... or on the net... that would be great!! made me laugh... heee....



ok... time to go... will put up my fav shops and some more tv programs i like.. hee. i watch too much... ok... i know...heee... laterzzz...

finished... practically... i will see if i change it once again... but for now... it will remain... heee....

OLDCATMAN, has a radio voice... he should work in that field... heee.. i am so happy he sent a shout-out to me... i feel so special... thank you so very much... that was a nice surprise this morning! Thank you once again...



laterzz...

annika has an easter quiz that she posted in her site!!



been joining fanlists & cliques that i like an feel that i am part of and been putting them up on my site... which takes awhile as i need to join then i need to add the code to my page then save the pic then uploaded to my site... sheesh takes time.... the next thing is moving my blog to my site... but i think i need to get a program to do that.. which may take some time... for now it will have to stay here... i think its time to change the layout of my blog... that is my next crazy thing to do... but if i do i think i will do the move all in that time.. another few mhts i think... heeee... that has been my day sitting infront of the computer uploaded and looking for cliques/fanlists.. reading all the stuff that has to be done... RULES... dang, it's easter an as i look back to my left i see that my godchild's easter present is sitting there, need to give that to her... soon... heee... but we are going away for the weekend.. i don't know how all that will be working out... as i am truly upset at B-G, he needs to do his billing but he procrastinates too much... which dirves me nuts... sheesh... then i hear all about it: im stress, i need to do my work, im tired, i cannot believe i have to do this... and i goes on and on... the tv is on and it's 4am the same show has been playing for about 2hrs... about some sex show... why women and men feel that they cannot have sex while the woman is pregnant... i dont know... but just as i write this another show that was running previously around 10pm is back making its come back... it's about boobs... bla bla... i have some so i really dont know what the biggy on it... i think is time for me to go sleep.. im truly tired... nighty.. night...

i been around the net surfing through my regular reads... demi & gale are doing their own thing... heee... hope they come back soon... lynn, has his new placed cleaned... miss candy & miss ginger have been on the bling ** bling *** thing... heee.. went to see taz for a lookie look... she's into the cell phone selling thing, her hubby has sold an antique radio for over 1,000$, yeah, SHOPPING!!! that is my first thought... OLDCATMAN has a following i can remember when he was starting out. such a sweetheart... miss rieke i cannot use your tag board... dang... jen jen, has passed by and has complimented on my home page which i find so sweet... hope that she has enjoyed the tapes her parents brought her of American Idol!! heeee... Rob is still out of the picture i hope all is good with him... darksyde, is coming back soon heee, hopefully... he thinks his life is boring if his is boring what is mine then...



as for me i haven't done much i just been tv watching and anxiously awaiting my trip to VA to see my mom... G is not to happy... oh well, spend yesterday watching william hung webpage... thx to jen jen... heee... found a fuse.tv too... through wil's page.. heee... that kept me amuzed... which i send to mondo... heee... it was all good... send emails and deleted some... it was a quiet day.. that reminds me i need to go and pay my bills. damn, bills... they seem never to go away. maybe some day... when im dead they will be gone, not! laterzzz....

Wed, 31st March...

stayed home all day... cleaned up and called for my confirmation to go to visit my mom on the 21st of April... made breakfast for G. we spent the day lazily doing nothing much! just cuddling and talking about our lives where we are at... how far and what we expect from each other... trying to see if and when we should move out of MTL. and go to the english side of Canada. i like it here but don’t get me wrong i want to live where the 1st language is English! yes... i still i’m at that... G doesn’t feel 100% comfortable with French so i tell him to do something about it. we can go anywhere cuz we still are not settled somewhere with kids and all the mambo-jumbo of a couple... oh we'll se as its all talk at the present moment ... more to come on that...



Thurs, 1st April...

breakfast was made and called chris to wish her a happy b-day. which took me a few hrs to find her as her phone was not working and then finally got her... heee.. .

i called the a charity place to come and pick up some stuff that we want to give away... they will come on the 11th of May... such a long time from now, dang!!! they will call a few days before they come...

G went to his meetings and then in the afternoon we went shopping of chris's b-day gift... headed to Future Shop and found the nicest microwave which, i wanted to get but G wanted to look around more... i got her a $50 gift-certificate from La Senza, a pink g-string with the slogan "BARBIE IS A SLUT", small back pack from La Senza, a strawberry candle and flowers...

we got ourselves from "fruit & passion" home fragrant mists 'bamboo & hibiscus' and 'bourbon & vanilla' with a small candle of bamboo & hibiscus. at "la rouet" we bought such cute candles shape like a strawberry, pineapple and watermelon.

in the evening i met her with melissa, steph and alex. we went to eat at "3 Amigos." it was ok food... i didn’t like my shrimp-burrito platter, as the shrimp was not de-veined which i do not even touched stuff like that... so everyone else had a little of mine as i couldn’t eat mine... got me a virgin-strawberry/banana daiquiri... it was really good... but poor chris 's mango/strawberry daiquiri was non-alcoholic which i asked for some more to be added and a shot was brought by the waiter which i think was on the slight gay side... he was really nice and sweet. when he found out about chris's b-day the waiters came and gave her a dessert with a candle in it and a mariachi hat! which she kept, they give them out to b-people... that is nice... cool... i went home with chris and G came to pick me up... it was nice... i was so tired... that when we came home i just drifted to sleep!...



Fri, 2nd April...

woke to freaken coldness... and as always-made breakfast. spoke to chris to tell me that she was coming over for diner with kyanna..

G & i went to Wal-Mart on jean-talon but no luck we did buy (intuition replacement shavers, strawberry shortcake bubble bath, and some stuff for kyanna's Easter-gift) some stuff heee... went to future shop at l'acadie... to get the microwave...

chris came over and i showed her the new microwave 'sunbeam' it was all metal/black. very nice she loved it!

i made chinese style spare-ribs, green beans with beef / ginger / garlic and broccoli & cauliflower... i cooked, if i say so myself it was really good and the presentation was great... as a few weeks ago we had gone to IKEA to get the rest of the dishes to complete our set of 12... yes 12 i don’t know i guess in the future we expect alto of people to come over or may be just in case we break some... hee... anyway, so the dishes were piled like mad and G washed them all... we had cheese cake for dessert chris brought it from her work... it was really good... coffee hit the spot with that... G was on call and he went to the hospital, which took a few hrs that ended chris & kyanna sleeping at our home. G came home at 1am... everyone was fast asleep by then except me i try always to wait for him... so i did he was so tired. he fell asleep on me... i stayed a bit up to watch the end of the 'taxicab - confessions' in the document channel.



Sat, 3rd April...

i woke up pretty early 7 am... started to make breakfast... pancakes, potatoes, sausage, eggs and smoothies... it was a great breakfast... G washed the dishes once again... by the time all was cleaned up and we had all changed... we had to go leave chris to her house... G and i drove her with her new microwave and we set it up for her... we left and came home to just be together we usually don’t have people over so we needed 'we' time... hee....

we went to chinatown got the bento boxes i wanted they are really nice they go with my set of regular Japanese dishes.. it's a good contrast with the nice Japanese dishes that i got in B.C, TO, and Boston... heee...

i wanted to go to my home but he was a bit tired to go so we just stayed home in the evening and listen to music and read a bit... diner was good ate lasagna and watched TV... it was a good night....



Sun, 4th April....

woke up and made breakfast... simple and easy... leftovers from Sat morning... lunch was good it was leftovers from the evening before... it was ok... we found out that the time had been moved back when we came into the room and found that the Illico machine was an hr ahead... and the computer was also an hr ahead... we had lost an hour... yikes!! G was like a tornado... he had to go to the hospital before his shift that started at 5pm, he left but not before i made him an excellent diner to take with him to work... he came home at 1 am stayed up ‘til 1.50am and went to bed.



Mon, 5th April...

woke up at 10am... made French toast, eggs and hash browns for breakfast... it was delish if i say so myself... G has gone to a meeting and is working in the afternoon... watching TV... soaps...i will keep on working on finishing the recipe-pages on my site...

i have not been doing much but cleanning, watching tv, cooking and going shopping... went to see scooby-doo 2 'monsters unleashed' with my godchild... it was fun her little friend (b-friend). she has an additude which there is no respect to adults. i think that my godchild may be too exposed to her and well, her mother doesnt care. i pointed this out and what does she say to me... 'oooh all kids a re like that, do you want her not to have friends?" i said "no" but damn...

oh well, i'll see when i have my own children, if i ever do...

i been trying to finish my page... which has been a pain... and a joy... all rolled up into one!

i have been terribly lazy at surfing as b-g keeps the modem most of the time... sharing is not so fun! we need to disconnect the modem connect it to mine and then vice versa! yeah that is the fun time i have every time i want to surf!!

well, time to go and have my left-over sushi and then repair the broken links on my page...



laterz....

It’s been such a long time that I have blogged. I feel that there are cobwebs all over my blog... What have been doing? Hmmm... Well, I quit my job at the end of Jan. it just didn't work out. Trying to clean y old place as I’m moving in with B-G. I transfer all my mail to his place. Getting the house clean, washing buying sofas, a bed & dishes. Baby sitting my godchild, while her mom goes out. my birthday was the 14th, my godchild's b-day is the 19th (tomorrow). My brother's b-day is coming up the 22nd... Then Christina’s is the 1st of April & my niece’s b-day is the 30th of April, which I will be there to celebrate her 2nd b-day! I can’t wait! I wonder if the clothes I bought her will fit her. I’m sorta anxious to see them all… I haven’t seen them in a while so it’s going to be great! Plus, my mom has a doggy due to my brother leaving so she didn’t want to be alone. That is nice. He has the weirdest name that I can’t ever remember it cuz it’s so hard to pronounce for me anyways.



Done for now... I have been pretty lazy and have learned that I have carpal tunnel syndrome (bilateral, on top of it all) which makes my hands ache and numb in the morning I guess due to the years of computer junkie! When I go in the computer for long periods of time I pay for it at night. So its been taking me for ever to do my page... it sucks to be me... I have found a few dreams from December 2003:















Due to the above is a major reason that I left the company. It couldn't have been helped! Oh well, next!

What else has happened, let me think, hmmm... my mom bought a business which I am truly happy and I will go see her on the 21st of April, which is good that I will see my brother as he is not going to boot camp until the 25th. He was suppose to leave on his b-day the 22nd of March but he is not yet ready so they extended his PT for the 25th of April. He will serve 4years, which I guess is good. My mother gave him an ultimatum either he joins or he leaves home. Well, this was good the decision he made due to his crazy shit he was doing before, doing all sorts of drugs which led him to quit his jobs. Which my mom was pissed as hell! But now everything is back to normal and he’s once again on a good path. Due to the fact he is the only boy in our family he’s not put in dangerous situations, which I’m happy for that!!!

my new web page:

MAIZZY

I'll see if i can transfer my blog to my new web site... i decided to do this as to keep me occupied until i get a new job. i am truly happy on the event. b-g thinks it will be great plus i can help him make his own... hee... we'll see! the weekend was just pretty lazy-hazy... i spend Saturday day/afternoon with Christina & Keana, shopping it was fun... i bought make-up stuff... and hair stuff... that was my weekend... Laterz

yeah ^_- !

one month & 11 days today... so much has happened. i have ignore you bloggy of mine... i started you to help me with my inner feelings and all my frustrations of daily life. i have come to an impass in my life. i guess now i feel a bit depressed and have let go of all that is suppose to be good for me. i need to start to get my priorities in line. so, x-mas holidays were good i had great time... i made a turkey with b-g and it was cool. passed my 25th at emily's. a few weeks later i wished all my blog friends happy holidays.... i once again did not update my blog. now that all the days have passed i havent really kept track of the days. but one thing that is stuck out is that i have quit the job. so im jobless but im some what happy/sad... the half and half things with b-g have gotten back on track. my puter is now at his house. i pass most of my time here in his house... and cleaning and now will try once again to find a job. i couldnt take it in that crazy place. there were some excellent peeps but for most of the part my dept was the worst. i try to fix it but they all freaken' denied the whole atmosphere and i gave my 2 week notice & only told like 2 peeps and another 6 found out! i wonder what the bla bla would be. i guess that it was all ok i love the surface of the company but the people just made it freaken' impossible. i wished that i was in another dept or working on the 1st floor. some said i should have been more patient but nah i am happy like this.. ^_^ ... started reading my driving course book and will try to get my permit soon... maybe in 2-3 months... yep! that is my goal. b-g asked me if i wanted to go back to school and what i really wanted to do... well, i really feel deep inside that i want to teach so i may go back to school to get the qualification for that. ok so im going on 31 and feel pretty good i just wish that things had turned different in my life but i guess things come up when they are ready for you. i will try to be more patient as i have a short span on that. heeee...

the week was icky and yucky with the wind, snow, sluch, rain, icy rain, and me almost quitting! Ah!! did i forget that b-g and i broke up too! yep, we did! i had enough i dont want to spend my life in a useless relationship. want i want he cannot provide. oh! well next?! x-mas alone again but satisfied with my decision! i dont have regrets. i will calm down and see what happens but i will just lay low and just concerate on work...

on that thought todays was a feast for kings! we had our gift exchange/potluck thing which turned out amazing... i stayed up yesterday night til the early hrs of the morning trying to wrap the goddam present, like a dumb ass i had to many ideas on my freaken mind!!! dumb ass chick that i am!!!

need to say that i have been debating the fact of quitting at my present job, i cannot stand the people some times... it goes from hot to luke warm to freaken freezing in that office. i have mood swings but these people get upset at anyone who will take their shit! and well, cuz i am new i am the one to get bashed at! the chick who trained me... she got into a huff-puff shit with someone and well she took it out on me. i just ignored her all day and did my work. i thought about calling my mom and "saying ok packing my shit and moving down south with you, back to the USA"...

but then i realize i need to speak out i need to stand up and say something. so the conversation was with the regular people that i work with. i said it in a matter of fact not to point fingers:

"if anyone has a beef with anyone it would be appreciated if they deal with the person that they are upset instead of bashing the wrong person. and while on that subject if you have something to say to anyone say it to their face instead of either whispering it, like we all know what you are saying or going to the boss and taddle-telling like a 5 yr old. please people this is an office not a kindergarten class...

i loved myself... so i ended it and went back to work...

i just think people take the new girl for granted...

dont you??? heeee ^_^

the week has gone by and i have concluded that it was a dissaster. i dont know but i get the feeling of not wanting to go to work and my days are getting really long. could it be the routine has set in and i am once again bored at my job. the peeps are ok some of the time. i guess. it rained cats and dogs on thursday. i went to a restaurant to celebrate someones b-day. man did they pose a million questions... shit, i have nothing to hide and so i told. who cares i dreally dont give a damn what they think. as long as i am happy in my own skin. so anyways, i took some pictures they all look dorky as they all got taken at inapropriate times. they are at my fotopages.

friday was the x-mas party. i felt i didnt want to go as i started to feel dizzy and nauseau. put a brave front for a while but as i got into the place i really felt not like socializing at all. i sat in a corner and called b-g for 15 min. i had tried since 5pm and it was 6.30pm he had not gotten back to me. i wonder what was up. i hate that he has a pager instead of a cell. i have tried my darnest but i think that will be my x-mas gift for him. lets see if he can live with out it when he has it for a few months. ha! betcha he cant! hooking him to technology! yep, that is the thing! i hate that i was feeling so shitty. would have loved to stay and mingle. i think they thought either i was a total snob or a really shy person. ooh well, i guess i really dont care. we'll see what happens monday morning for now i am taking it easy and just updating my blog and my fotopage.

been reading my morning blogs this morning... OLDCATMAN has given me a small present... i love it... i think he knows my likes....he... Keanu!!! yummy baby! OLDCATMAN thank you very much for the thought. ^_^

ms.taz has moved to www.tasberry.com at movable type as of the 6th of December. Pretty nice place!!! visit her even though ... anyways, she's a nice lady.

Demi, Rieke, Gale (aka anonymous girl) and OLDCATMAN have been really nice people... thank you for that. Lynn thanks for the wonderful christmas card! ^_^







pppssstt.... Demi, has her own fotopage... if you haven't yet go visit her and OLDMANCAT has his own fotopage, too... heeee...

laterzzz...

well i get up today at b-g house and came at around 7am back to my place to get ready. i had to change to go to work. work has been tiring but fun. i guess the chickens are getting up with me or maybe is the other way around right mondo? anyways, so i get home call mondo and chat it up for a bit he had a blast this weekend that man can party his bro went home early as he has a child and as mondo put it your life changes once you have a child... ok so then i hang up with him and then due to a minor collapse of a brain cell i call my x-J which is not a good idea but i said what the hell not so i speak to him. he sounds likeoooh you still in love with me... but im married i have moved on and throws it in my face that i am not living at home... bla bla bla... what ever. he nutzo jobso... i cant believe i had some sort of feeling for this wack job. see what youth does it blinds you... stupid! yes it does. dont get me wrong i dont mean to be mean but please its been 2yrs and i have moved on with my life. plus i came clean with him. told him that all the 6yrs i was with him i cheated. i wanted to releave the burden of my shoulders. so, i came out and told him that b-g had been around for a while he was my f$%^-friend when he had to go home to his mommy and daddy... and that the last 2 yrs i had someone else and when we ended it i was still with him. ben is out since last yr anyways, now it's b-g and with this one i dont have the itch to cheat. x-J gave me the itch i dont know but i had never cheated on any one since him. i guess he was not the right one. and my mind was trying to tell me while i cheated on him.. true! no lies here. so the secrets come out. i needed to bla this before i do my freaken month of catch up time... freak its going to be long but i will keep it as short as i can. here goes nothing:

the official 1st day "OCT 29"
So, I wake up at 6:15am. took a shower 45 min. got ready.. didnt know what to wear and thought... "need to go shopping." as i am a shop-aholic #1!!! left at 7.15am took the metro to charlesvoix way. got in at 8.15am but took a cab (which cost me $5, down the drain). that 107 bus, i was scared to be late so, tomorrow i'll leave earlier. all day i've been training on the billing... learned 2 new ways. signed the papers that V_P_M gave me. took an hour lunch at 1pm. my comp was set but no log in, yet or phone. maybe tomorrwo. we'll see!?! called b-g but hasnt return my call. mom, emily and someone private (i imagine is architect_J) called me? oh well...

???? no date
it's been a while now but things have bee hectic. i have had to be in an intensive training for the past few days. work is ok, i guess but i have mixed emotions on the people who work here. there is... i cant explain it but a back-stabbing b/s in this place. i mean some have no class. but i will concentrate on the positive side of things and the people hav a few whxih i already like...
bee... i like she's sweet and nice
c_bubble... is nice but has a corky side
r_alert... is 1/2 and 1/2 mixed emotions on her...
V_quiet... what can i say, thinks things
j.. is in round land "baby-carrier"
m_head... she's sweet and has kitty kitty
l & c ... work together, sweet and nice but kinda in their own worlds... yep
a... is in the fron of the battle field
t... is let's just say that she's in her own little la la la land...

???? yet another no date
today was "fishy-time" conference... even a book was given... "fish" by s.c lundin, h. paul and j. christensen... went from a11 am to 12.45pm which was ok... AY is ok but scares me a bit... i see that if b-g meets her, they may somewhat match but nah!!! as they are both from the same culture, you never know.i guess i'm a jealous, even if it's just in my head. can i be a bit paranoid. i think that things are ok for now but need to see if something better can come out of the horizon. let's see if its worth it. getting all this info into me, with a tremendously low pay. less then what i made in IPG dang... i guess i can come with it for now!

11/11/03
today i came in (8am) early which i will not be leaving untile 5pm. b-g drove me. he was like ur going to work early. i was like , yeah so?? i came in and my b calls me for a meeting and well spent 1hr almost discusing what i had been doing for the past 2 weeks. it seems that i have been branded a "talker" and may be a perfectionist/ "cry baby" or pushy what ever you call it. i came in with a sad attitude. i think that if you spend 75% of your life in a place where you hait it, then you should figure out if that is what you really want to be doing in your life. i have to think......... i always do that ... say it but never really take my own advise. my life is some what happy but i think that it could be better. yes! do i see myself in this place.. breathin and experiencing??? now, things get worse for me. everything is upside down. i feel upside down. i wish things could be easier, happier, nicer, prettier, i am a dreamer. i that is what i am, i know i dont belong here. yep, this is mymind crazy and always hthinking, of things. memories, thoughts, anticipations, and everything else in between. i am sor of nervous because i have given some thing that has been kept personal for always. yes, i share it with strangers but rarely with one's i know. why is that?????

11/13/03
woke up.. had a romp in the hay... it felt wonderful.. pleasure make u extremely happy and nutty. b-g drove me to the bus stop (renelevesque and peel). it was windy as hell. froze myself for 5-10 min 107 bus came. met v_quiet and walked together to wrok. she's in the same dept. as me. in fact she sits in fron of me as no cubicle separator is in front of our desks exists. hee... the day has been "billing" what else is new... that is my job dah!!! bought my slef a kitty broach and got my mom and ankle bracelet i know she likes them... heee... but may send it to b-g sister i'll see. who gets it... i may even keep it.. we'll see... havent gone back home in a while. bad girl that i am!!! b-g's getting good at his dirty talk strategy. heee... im going to his house tonight by metro and then walking. i guess he'll be otherwise engaged. more like studying, which hopefully he gets to 100% good in his trauma conference that starts next week. well, he said the 16th but it mayb e 17th he works all w/end, poor guy. he has added up his 3 jobs and found out that he workds 23 days out of the month these are not the 9-5 ones... more like overnights and 10-14 hrs long... which suck and make him extremly tired. poor baby... he always needs TLC always and i am here to give it... well, all i can say is that i work 20 days out the month. we need to talk that is all i can say. let's see what the afternoon is like. the afternoon flew. went to b-g's place . washed dishes and ate-left-overs. he's so stressed out of his skull. too much work. crazy!! he was tired and grumpy. we ended falling asleep at 10.15pm.

11/14/03
woke, took a shower. had cereal "graham" my fav.b-g had a coffee. i got ready. spend a few min in front of the puter. i read oldcatman, AWG, taz, and demi. was about 10 min. late. didnt like that one bit...and on top of it i had to run like a crazy across the street. to get to work ..mr. b-g was lazy to turn the car near the door to my work. no, lie it was because the light hadnt turngreen. or else i would have been another 2-3 min late. only the recep anne c _blondie saw me come in. but my whole dept kenw. miss v_quiet was there already. got all my stuff done did some splitting. maybe custom will start today. let's see what the afternoon brings. ooohhh... its friday did i mention that... yep weeken time... laterzzz..

11/18/03
so... i woke up today and well... i hadnt slept that good as b-g came at 4am from the hospital. he works the freaken grave yard shifts. sucks!!! i try to ask him to change but "we'll see" are his words. i've been at his place now for 2wks and i havent gone to my place. shit! atleast i got in contact with mondo! whichrocks!!! i sit here and wait for the metro... to get going seems the winter is here the suicides are back.... here in good old montreal the young or depressed throw themselveson to the uncoming metros/trains. crazy!! the regular stuff... of winter... work was ok all the girls except bee n me stayed, went to a meeting at the conference room for the new traffic sheets that will be done good now instead of all crazy and messy. i didng do much work didnt feel like it. oh! j_babycarrier is gone off to her maternity leave for 1 yr. trying to learn the stuff as fast i can. only 3 wks and well i still need more triaining on the customs billing. havent blogged in a long while. all my writing has been on paper i think i have about 10 days since my 1st official day (29th oct). i started on the 28th at noon. it was ok. the peeps were nice but wewent thorugh some what termoil days. dang!! it's 6.30pm and im still on the freaken metro they say it will take another few minutes... oooh we're going now. and we also are having a bus/metro strike since monday. but they will prolong the metro until 7.30 pm for tonights delay. as the metro only runs : 6.30amd - 9am, 3pm - 6.30 pm, 11pm-2am and not in the weekend. schedule will be forthis week! yikes i guess i will not be going anywhere with b-g. as he has a car. i want to go to the gym!! i feel like going but i need to find one which will be good for me. i need to release some stress... dang!!

11/19/03 - 11/31/02
have been reading the blogs of some of my regulars. but havent wrote squat on all those days... nothing much went on except for work and more work. time spend with b-g which was nice. only sat 29 was cool went to emily's son's b-day gave him money and got my anime back from her younger son. they all got to meet b-g which was so cool! we got invited for christmas on the 25th. which is great! bought some stuff from emily as she is selling avon. the kids jamie and jarette are great... they are so cute. they are brother and sister and jamie is 3 and jarrette is 4. he says im his girlfriend. he's taking a liking to me. i have taken so much pictures i havent even uploaded them to my puter. dang need to do that.... one of these days!! yep!!!

12/03/03 - 12/05/03
still at b-g need to go home friday. ended up at home. my place is a mess.. i got in b-g case. i was truly mean. and i guess i should stop that but i need toget my way i havent changed on that specific spot of my life need to stop that... shit!! dang. rented a movie...“View From the Top” with gweneth paltrow, who is expecting and got married in real life... dang... the movie was ok.. i didnt like it that much zappy is all i can say!

12/06/03 - 12/08-02
the weekend was spend cleaning. sunday was dimsum yum! spend 4hrs with b-g he had to go but before we went to the gym "fit 4 life" to register 2 for 1 for a yr at $ 299.99. work was calling and he wanted to take a nap before his over night shift at the childrens... dang.... i just watched tv. and slept pretty late 10.30pm
monday was ok... back to work.. was bit off with one of my co-workers at the end of the day. wished her a good weekend it will be a long one i can feel it...

so this has been the past month.... bla bla... hope i can atleast blog for a few min after work. i need to get into a routine... dang, missed my session with the guy yesterday... too tired... b-g re-scheduled it for me for Sat at 5pm. which is good as he works that Fri overnight at the general. and my work party is this friday... the 12th... dang and the 19th is the exchange gift/potluck... what should i bring... that is whats on my mind! dang!!! ok so now i need to go to bed its 8.39pm i have been on the writing frenzy for the past 2hrs dang!!! done

LATERZZZ......

who is jen jen you say... then go see her... ^.^



more to come this evening. no im still alive and kicking just work has gotten be over the top.. thx to annika for wishing me happy thxgiving! yeah! she must have had a blast do doubt with all that food... yum!!!



HAPPY BELATED THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!! ^_^

almost 2 weeks without a bla from me. the training period has not ended i spent last weekend reviewing and doing some stuff... dang is my place a mess! i havent lifted a finger. havent even openned my emails, at all. i guess i been lazy. work is good on the tuesday that i went in at midday i met everyone there but i still cant retain all the names. shit! oh well soon enough. the peeps are nice, for the moment you never know what can transpire in the next few months, yrs, etc...

well the 29-30 i spend the day training with a r-b but by the 31st i was on my own, billing. dang, it was fast but i still go to her which r-b didnt really train me completely. i know it takes from her doing her work but if i dont learn properly then the billing will have mistakes. i dont want that.

the 1-2 of nov was spent at Boo-G's recopying my notes and re-reading them. ooh, and did my laundry! 3-7 was working, learning, and billing. nothing out of the ordinary through out the days. but at night i spent it at Boo-G's place. i had left my place there untouched with out a sign of me. although, i'm still a bit worried over Mondo cuz he hasnt call and i have left him tons of messages i hope he is ok. dang (call you freak, i'm truly worried!!!!) he's become an uncle maybe that is what has kept it out of the spot light i dont know, i'm just guessing.

well thursday (6 nov) night i met with emily for a bit she needed to give me my topper-ware stuff i bought from her. she had had it in her car since September. dang! 2 months, yikes! anyways, im going to her eldest son's b-day that will take place the 29 of nov. which will be great no doubt!!

on friday (7nov), the evening was going to a foundation diner to raise money for "the Foundation for Research into Children's Diseases." this diner was organized by one of my co-workers, this will be her 4th year with the foundation as she lost her 20 yr old to a desease, 4 years ago. she started to get involved and has gotten the company's head to go with it too. which is great. they do this every year. it was fun. i sat with n-k and her husband, s-m (she's a very retro kinda of chick, the coolest glasses. imagine she has a neon green room with leppard skin sofas.) and l-s and b-ll (couple). very nice people and kinda wierd at the same time. they asked me my age i guess i dont act my age, 30 and proud! but they had an office poll to know who was the youngest at the office and they had all concluded that it was me. but nope i aint no 21 yr old spring chicken. heee. so i guess i told them.. haa.. they ask what i drink to keep myself young and all i said was water. but truthfully i dont do squat that is how it goes. to tell you that when i found a gray hair it was gray at the bottom instead of the root what is up with that. the pigment to my strand of hair was coming back. so there goes the my theory. i think its my genes. they like to stay young! i dont know i'm just guessing on that part.





those are just a few which i have problems with still. i dont understand. what is up with that. i am a very nice woman. i don't like to harm or be harmed for that matter. i consider myself very open minded and truly sweet. yep! i know who i am, but i come out sometimes being a bit dumb. once co-worker even asked if i had ever been a blonde, now for me that is a stereo-typical which i think that has been done by the media over the decades. to tell you the truth she was a blonde, for her to pose a question like that made me think? what??? i guess it must have been just conversation. oh well just a tid bit i want to remember in the coming years. heeeee...

anyways, i have written a few notes on my feelings through out the 12 days i havent been blogging but i dont have them at the present moment. i guess i will try to add them at another time. that is is for this one... laterzzz...