Woke up to the sound of rain... My body feeling heavy from going to bed so late... I immediately got my pc and headed to the living room... Fed the kitties! Ended up spending my time in the kitchen cleaning and loading the dish washer... Made some さくら茶 [SAKURACHA]... Flowers always remind me of spring in Japan! J

Ended up taking pictures of the tea and the flowers that budded in the hot water... The rain is pouring out... Loaded some 2004 pictures from Cali! Had to take a few pictures of the rainy day! Such a May Day! Then got my CD that I burned yesterday night, before going to bed, and loaded the music up to my pc and onto iTunes... Seems some of the music bought on BFG’s pc doesn’t work on mine so I have to transfer it to CD then upload, what a crazy dumb ass way of buying but not being able to use it but on one machine... Rant.... here! Kitties are still demanding food! They eat and then want more WTF, which they throw-up because they have over indulged... goodness...

Listening to music... Need to fix it properly and uploaded to my iPod... Ended up on last.fm and read JenJen’s post she left me... Suddenly, I felt like eating Indonesian food from Nonya. We have only one in the whole island! The people are so sweet! I ordered and paid w/ cc... BFG will pick up for 6pm. Dinner is ready... heee... Ordered TEMPEH!!! Haven’t had it for quite a while. You can say that my palette is truly multi cultural... I can eat from almost anywhere in the world. I love it and will always be that way. Hopefully, if I would have children or adopt I would raise truly international/multicultural food gurus... Heee!

Had a light intake of food [banana, ocha, ice cream sandwich] cuz I’m waiting for the YUMMY food for tonight! BFG will be sorta surprised... Haven’t told him, will call him when he’s off! Hee... SURPRISE BABY!

Listening to music make me happy... Working is fun and keeps me active... Playing with my Wii keeps me fit... Adoring my boyfriend and kitties is what I <3... appreciations for others is what I respect most! :) Love is a word but showing it is the greatest gift of all! :) Harmony is achieved by being selfless! Accommodate your life with pleasure, respect and with the most sincere form of love! :) Calculate but don't be frugal.. Analyze but don't misjudge others...

Feel the pain and cry once again:

"But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
And all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right"
-- 4 in the morning by Gwen S.

actresses/singers who committed suicides:
Lee Eun-ju - in 2005killed herself by slitting her wrists then hanging herself... she was 24... bouts of depression, mental illness and insomnia due to nude scenes from K-drama The Scarlett Letter...

Jung Da Bin - 정다빈 / Jung Da-bin (Jeong Da-bin) - committed suicide, a month after U;Nee and in the same manner [hanging], in her boyfriend's apartment... no note was left but left a blog post before her suicide... may have been due to bouts of depression, career going down, criticism over her plastic surgeries and mother's uterine cancer...

U;Nee Hangul: 유니, born Heo Yoon (hangul: 허윤;) in Jan. 2007, killed herself by hanging may have been due to drepession, low album sales and criticisms for her image...

Shaariibuugiin Altantuyaa (Mongolian language: Шаарийбуугийн Алтантуяа; Sometimes also Altantuya Shaariibuu;) - Mongolian pretty translator blown up w/ C-4 before getting shot twice in the head.

OK this is the greatest and cutest TV ever!!!! I wish I could get my hands on the bed which is sitting on top of the kitty TV!!! Where to get is my question?

OK!!! this is one game I wish I had! Yes, I have the one for the PS2 that my bro got me but this one is portable and I don't have to lug out the drum! heee... :) Will see if I can see it on E-Bay!!!! :)

Reminds me of a night when I was alone in my hotel room and it was raining... This picture captures what I saw though the window of my hotel in Japan... What I couldn't do has come through this picture... I really love it! :)

these are the most adorable pins to have! :)

the kitty w/ flowers is so cute! wanted to blog it for a while! :)

This quilt is really cute! :) love the hearts and the colors are very sweet! :)

Chung's blog!

- Restaurant Shô-Dan
- Restaurant Hentai
- Restaurant L'Orignal

Found a great new website "Montcarte" that has really good recipes... through flickr [kimberleyblue] photo was were I saw it... There are 2 desserts I want to try:
Raspberry Chocolate Cake
Chewy Toffee-Marshmallow Brownies

BFG will enjoy both... I am thinking of making also the Greek Salad!
Have to explore her site! Seems that she has wonderful recipes!

my mom bought a mango cake for nieces b-day: Bread and Chocolate.

If I lived where she's at I would get them done like this! :) Dreaming!!!

The piggies are totally cute, cookies?? The Daiso, I bet is the place where the dish comes from... Dang, need to go to BC for the only Daiso in Canada! DANG... Why isn't there one in TO only 5hrs away, totally sad... Gonna ask BFG to see if we can go for the summer but I doubt it, he's got to do tons of work. Ok, should I go on my own... AAhh, no good! :( still.... heee....

Found out about Minty Fresh Press a card and stationary site that the owner of the pic of the piggies has! I want to buy/order some stationary for my penpal children and BFG nieces... They would love that and well for me, too... Great for x-mas gifts for the girls! Need to contact her and get me some... Need to think which ones would be great for them! Sweet!!!

Found the cutiest, Blue Flora Vase Set @ Velocity [thanks to sevenworlds16] but I'm totally sad that will not be able to get them... The store only delivers in the US! :( I wanted also to get the Cupboard Wall Organizer but :(! Would be great to use when I get a room of my own for my hobbies...

Kitty name Tama becomes mascot of Japanese rail company in Japan! :)

Crazy guy calls 800# just to hear the female voice recorder... Funny!

Japanese gov't urges parents to reduce time of usage of cellphones by their children

Harry Potter actor killed in a knife bar brawl

Tsuchiya Anna's ex dead at 25

Victoria babysits her husband David!

Patrick Swayze looking happy even though very skinny due to his cancer treatments

And now coming out the touch screen turntables.

TimHorton in the news once again!!!

10 things to remember about Memorial Day

Children being misdirected to p0rn-sites!

wallpaper reacts to heat!! day fades away!! Shi Yuan's site

Dumb-parents selling their child for $1.57US on E-bay!

Blog of a Eliza from NY, that makes beautiful cakes which will inspire me to make some polymer ones! On youtube: ConfettiCakes. No idea why I have this flickr user: jpop3000? A girl named Betty, who apparently became popular because she danced very... you have to see the video...

Wow, I guess I never knew that people had such closed minds... I live in a city that is truly multicultural. I have never experience or seen racism in my life. And for others to do that I find it totally wrong. I like Asian men since my early 20s. There are a few differences between men borned in NA and those who haven't...Asian men born outside of NA, they're very different from Asian born in NA. Their mentalities are also very different. Overall, they're all pretty much sweet and treat you like a jewel... I have dated white men but the relationship has been very different, not as sweet but still kind... Example. my Asian exes doted on my liking cute stuff and encouraged it. With Western men they discouraged me from it. The things my W-exes told me were "grow up and stop acting like a child!", "Are you seriously an adult?", "Didn't you have a good childhood, that you have to revert to it?".... those are some of my faves from them... Now that I remember some of our fights were due to that! Oh, maybe there are Western men out there that don't mind it but the ones I dated surely did...

Hayami Kishimoto - Yume Real
commented on the above.

Her name is Hayami Kishimot and the song's name is Yume Real [yume riaru]. :) Someone else on youtube has it too. Hope this helps :)

Wii Fit!
34 mins...
eat: cream of wheat w/ milk n honey... 180 cal
croisant
drink: glass of water 16 oz.

sad and sad... what else can I say about abandoned children in Japan [it's illegal to abandon children]
pro-euthanasia? many terminally-ill people seek to die go to Mexico for a cheap euthanasia drug!
Wii fit is coming!!! I will go pick up my copy on Wed!
couple to WED-FM [broadcast their wedding], common in Europe!
my space vs facebook fight in Japan! mixi, twitter.
Canada ranked #11 as the peaceful country in the world...
when traveling to BC, go to Daiso!

May 14
A song w/ wine
What song will make your wine taste better?

May 13
what is wrong with the customer service now a days! I can't believe the nerve of some people. How can you do that to someone! I am so angry at the fact that the airline has such asses as employees! If it had been me I would have sued [for more then 2 mil.] not only the airline but the flight attendant, for say it was OK and then going and bitching to the pilot that she/he wanted the seat back, & the pilot, for being a prick and asking a paying customer to hang out in the toilet w/o a seat belt.

Learn some manners!

what are these shows good for! they will, most likely, not learn nothing and go back to their cushy lives and forget about that! let's see if any, keep helping out those in need after the cameras have left, that I would like to see. Aahh, but society is so dysfunctional like that! but will see... shouldn't put all my ducks in one basket, yet!

Is he totally crazy... how about if he had gotten into an accident and hurt or even worse kille someone! bad man!

crazy drunk man!!!!

Obama has led a fairly pleasant existence, with most of its suffering and conflict taking place within his own head as he tries to turn himself into an authentic angry black man.

Wow! Einstein thought of the belief in god as a childish superstition and that Jewish people are not the chosen one, even though he himself is one... He also decline to be the 2nd president of Israel, that I didn't know... He has the same birthday as OCM and me!!!

Cell phones to be used for emergency purposes, too... cool!! I guess in times of need your phone is one gadget to have!

I can't believe the nerve of some people... How can you do that to someone! I am so angry at the fact that the airline has such asses as employees!!! If it had been me I would have sued [for more then 2 mil.] not only the airline but the flight attendant, for say it was OK and then going and bitching to the pilot that she/he wanted the seat back, and the pilot, for being a prick and asking a paying customer to hang out in the toilet w/out a seat belt. How come people are so cruel but I can't expect all human beings to have a heart or a sense of decency!!! Oh, so angry!!

Dead Bodies
I may think of this when the time comes... getting dissolved instead of getting cremated... just read an article on the discovery channel about this. Apparently is environmentally green as the coffee color liquid [human] can be pour down the drain, doesn't emit gas emissions and take up too much space like crematoriums do! :) I hope this process is used, if its really found safe!

Goodbye to HELLO!
Sad I had signed up to hello about 3-4yrs ago... now they have killed it! too bad it was fun to use when uploading to my blog! bye hello!!! mountain view has the domain now...

Nintendo wiiware... need to get me some fun games for my wii...

left comment:
what?!!!?? I have my phone and DS Lite blinged out!!! and it's not ugly! It's a matter of personal taste/fashion, to do this... Why do you have to be so mean and say its an ugly fashion?! :(

April month was the introduction to polymer clay! I wanted to a long while to do some crafts with this... Have done already 7 batches of dingbats and all sorts of cuties... Even made a few charms for my kitties. I want to try some more fun stuff but its really hard to do some of the stuff... Specially when the clay gets too warm... need to leave to rest and cool... I usually put it in the freezer for a few minutes and then take it out.

Learn that from reading blogs and info on polymer clay... I have spend hours and hours on sites about it... Found a site where I found someone had made frosting (was going to buy PermaIce) for her donuts and asked how she made the frosting... She was nice enough to send me the info via email... I was so glad... She has a site `tooaquarius` and also found her flickr site!! She makes really nice beads and wonderful canes...

I can`t make canes to save my life... I think I would need to do many tutorials... I tried the other night but my cane came out awful!!! I don`t think I have the technique down yet!! I love to make the cakes, got a tutorial from youtube from ebola909. There are not many tutorials on youtube on how to make things but found some really informative sites:
craft gossip
thing-a-day
how to miniature
polymer clay central
glass attic


Did some origami from tutorials from youtube... kinda fun... found other dingbats to do and made already about 7 batches... Currently, sick and not really up to doing some tutorials... Even though I want to do them and will eventually... Still wondering how you do those pillow beads???

Being sick is not a wonderful thing.... BFG brought it into the house from the hospital! He lost his voice and sounded really weird!! Now he looks find and I'm still sick with a runny nose!!! So much yukkiness...
I haven't even seen my k-dramas... I get tired and nauseas still, so I need to lie down for a while and take it easy... Been sleeping somewhat as the nose is freaken blocked at night and prevents me from breathing... Been taking the sinus Tylenol pills and they somewhat help and use the Vick's to breath!!! Having 2 maladies at the same time is not fun!! AAAh, I want it to be over and done. Getting back to my usual self is not happening... Soon...

Yesterday, spend a few hours on flickr looking and adding peeps onto as contacts... I looked and saw some wonderful and interesting pictures... I really liked many of the creations people have made. Got some ideas... VerdeBlue gave me inspiration for ladybugs, turtle, carrots, oranges and lollipops! I thank her... my phone charms also gave me some inspirations, like my takoyaki with an octopus on top of it, the totoro crowd... gave up on the cat and mushroom... made some spaghetti from the inspiration we had last week! I love how my plates came out!!

Have found out that sculpey III is not a good material to use... Too brittle, I need to practice with it and then will buy the good stuff: prèmo, kato or regular fimo, not the soft fimo!!

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utubing:
re: fall magibon
magibon appearance @ GYAO
magibon revealed @ GYAO
magibon running down a dream
maggibon arriving in Japan
some information on polymer clay "color scale triangles"

some cool sites:
tizzalicious
tooaquarius
tooaquarius @ think-a-day
tooaquarius @ flickr

tutorials:
* easy pincushion
* lined zipper pouch

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kitty pillow cover
1 yards fleece fabric [bed top]
1 yard fabric [side & bottom]
96 inches ribbon [optional - decorative]
8 heavy duty snaps or zipper [22in]

Materials for Large Bag
18x22" piece (fat quarter) print A (bag body) print B (lining) 3/8 yard heavyweight, non-fusible interfacing

From print A, cut: 2 — 10x11" bag body rectangles 1 — 1-1/8x3" bias strip
From print B, cut: 2 — 10x11" lining rectangles
From interfacing, cut: 2 — 10x11" rectangles
From heavyweight cardboard, cut: 1 — 2-3/4x5-3/4" rectangle

Materials for Small Bag
9x22" piece (fat eighth) print A (bag body)
9x22" piece (fat eighth) print B (lining)
1/4 yard heavyweight, non-fusible interfacing
Heavyweight cardboard (optional)

From print A, cut:
2 — 6-1/2x8" bag body rectangles
1 — 1-1/8x3" bias strip

From print B, cut:
2 — 6-1/2x8" lining rectangles
From interfacing, cut:
2 — 6-1/2x8" rectangles
From heavyweight cardboard, cut:
1 — 1-3/4x3-1/2" rectangle

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Berenice(ベレニーチェ)
Q request, I want!
A, you would like to add to the production of goods and products to revive old me! Or "I need this product!" If you have any hope shinshia@coquettish-tiara.co.jp please contact us.

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new blogger code:

B9 D T K S- F I- O X E L C Y1 R+ W+ P++ M2 N- H

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Bought the Korean bbq and had it frozen for a while decided to make it on the Japanese grill I brought back from Japan... That grill doesn't even exist here but its wonderful... I love my grill. These bbq ribs are boneless which is totally great and easier to eat... no bone to keep me from the flesh, yum!!

We had them 3 day in a row... they are totally amazing... I bought the sauce and marinade overnight... all I can say is JUICY, JUICY...

Found cute_ami on flickr and she does some beautiful crocheting stuff! Amazing! - Porquinhos! - she's Portuguese.. Lucky me that I know Spanish, French and Italian or else I wouldn't know what she would write! I need to get me some tutorials and buy some of the books I've seen on amazon!

I want to learn to make these! Too bad when I was in Japan, I didn't get the chance to snag me some of the crochet magz or books! Dang, maybe next time! Amigurumi [編み包み] is crocheting small cute animals, inanimate objects and any other cuteness that can be crochet or knitted!

Site where found some tutorial on how to start... called crochetme.com... Free amigurumi patterns! not so cute but still it's a start! Crafting Japanese! List of various amigurumi....

I want to make this in the near future... they look tasty! yummy!! recipe @ montrealfoodies.com.

Using this blog to record all my cute findings [sites, pics, food, animals, people, etc.... and the list cat go on for ever and ever or until I die! ;P] in the net, I find totally adorable...

All started with reading article about Seinfeld's car accident with his vintage 67 FIAT!!! And finding out his age 53! OMFG!!!! He could be my daddy!!! Only a yr younger then my mom, dang! The ball started rolling and started to check when his show was on the air and for how long at Wikipedia [wonderful and amazing site]! That's when I started to reminisce of old shows I use to watch when I was a kid:
bewitched [ 2005 movie was made w/ Nicole Kidman n Will Ferrell which sucked!]
Alice
The Beverly Hillbillies[family from Arkansas]
little rascals
three's company
partridge family
the Brady bunch
happy days [ spin-off Laverne & Shirley]
punky Brewster
diff'rent strokes - [facts of life a spin-off]
golden girls - [ spin-off Empty nest]

Came upon a odd article that in Arkansas the law allowing even toddlers to get married has become illegal as of mid-March 2008... Age requirements are now in place [17yrs old for boys and 16 for girls]. Truly odd!

Article reading, 10 ways to get a better seat, came upon seatguru.com a site where you can check seat maps of almost every type of plane on any major airline. Good to know for traveling! There are ways of also getting good seats apparently joining frequent flyer mile programs are good if you travel a lot! OK, buying tickets early is a no brainer... i try myself to by the cheaper tickets but I ask to select my seat it will depend though if they would charge you or not, and if you are nice -.*... In some cases they won't but in others you can get if free! seat confirmation, early arrival at airport, be specific to agent to get the seat that you wish, be sure to inform agent of important issues for him/her to accommodate and last but not least, which works for me, be nice to the agent sometimes they can work miracles that you wouldn't expect!

BFG watched M.A.S.H which lated a 18yrs on TV... Seinfeld [the comedian is a year younger then my mom!] the show ran for 9yrs!

Read me some OCM!!! Feel hickey today!

Spend the whole day updating/upgrading BFG XP-PC! What a hassle lasted about 7hrs,,, Even though all the updates were done... Still problems exist... i think I need to wipe it and start from a fresh slate!

need to get some materials still:
FIMO [brown, black, red, baby blue, royal blue, beige, orange and other pretty colors]
acrylic rolling pin
shaping tools [double sided]
cutter
pasta roller
acrylic varnish
sculpey glaze [glossy or satin]

already have:
pin/needle
exact-o knife
FIMO [yellow, green, pink, white]
parchment paper/pan
starch/baby powder
ruler

tutorial on how to make a miniature cake with polymer clay. Need to get me some FIMO decorating gel/liquid.... pembelim. Wanna make these pretty butterflies [video]. Mold Making for Precious Metal Clay [video]. utube users: Abalorios n CandyFimoWebTR. Still need to do my duvets [tutorial] & flanged pillow shams [tutorial]. Abbreviation used in both knitting and crochet sites.

crochet v-stitch pattern [video] by tjw1963 and her blog. Hers:
Formula/Multiple for the pattern is 3+1.
DC in 4th Chain from hook, Ch 3, DC in same chain.
Skip 2 CH, DC, CH 3, DC. Repeat to the end.
Ch 3 to start the next row, DC, Ch 3, DC in Center
of next Stitch, Repeat across;
DC in last stitch of the row below.

tutorial for Crochet Abbreviations & Symbols - site a list of sites.

Videos:
crochet w/ beads
double crochet
crochet a circle
crochet a flower
Crochet Afghan Tunisian Stitch 1 & 2

makes ruffles [video] I wonder what the sewing machines are? Happy to learn to crochet... Even though it's in Portuguese! She [Elaine 33yrs old] is amazing has over 12yrs of experience in crochet! I need to look into all her videos she has done over 300.... NYA!!! She was even interviewed! crochet bag [info in Portuguese].

Anime = Minamike a blog post and on utube a video. Looking at the latest camcorders at cnet.com! Reading the latest j-gossip! Articles been reading for the past few hours. List of Japanese television dramas - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia.

Articles that I read through out the day at a Russian site. Russia has no law to ban sex in public - Mummified woman found in her flat 13 years later - People marry animals - Nude blonde visits petrol station - best divorce letter - Biomimetic materials...

Most of them from PizzaEatPanda
want to see:
Funny Movie, Restless, Someone Special, mr. housewife, now and forever, twins mission, how to keep my love, you shoot i shoot, my schoolmate the barbarian,project makeover, see you after school, perfect match,

Seen in the past few days:
Singles [somewhat funny but kinda not what I was expecting. didn't run as good as other romantic/comedy movies] part 11/13... And other movies I been watching these past few days: Ditto [a very sad, sad movie... of romance that would/could never be! cry, cry. grab the Kleenex box] ...ing [freaken' sad!!], like a virgin[some what funny but weird, too...], my scary girlfriend[ funny as hell...], Bounce Ko Gals [Jmovie - very interesting movie about the sub-culture of japanese school girls selling themselves for a quick yen... very unbiased! amazing movie...]

Also seen these ones in the past year or so, which are totally great:
200lb beauty [over-weight girl wants to be a pops-singer, goes through massive plastic surgery to be totally gorgeous! very funny!!! has a remake of Maria by Blondie in Korean! Pretty nice...], perfect couple/Beautiful romance, I'm a cyborg but that's okay, spy girl [NK come to SK to spy... falls for young guy!], 110 days w/ mr arrogant [boy meets girl, initially hate each other, but then have no choice to be together and fall in love], who are you [girl meets boy in an avatar-based dating game...], unstoppable marriage [romantic comedy which manages to combine and perfectly balance believable, heartfelt amour with a steady stream of hilarity], too beautiful lie[ex-con artist crosses path with a shy & unsure man who's going to see his gf. By a small series of unexpected events, the ring he planned for his gf ends up in the ex-cons possession, which at the same time, looses her bag. With only information she had chance to gather, she decides to find him, give him back the ring and take back her bag. However, at the moment of giving back the ring, her old lying habit kick back and pretend to be the guys fiancé... obviously, hilarity and adventure ensues.], my tutor friend [story of two completely different students from two completely different worlds. One is a rich male repeating his third year of high school and the other a poor girl in her second year of university struggling to make ends meet.] and many more...

took a new blogger code quiz... it came out different!!! need to change it!!!

I don't know what to believe about the Tibet/China war, so many different people saying so much! The only one I can believe is me and what I think to make sense of all the hostility that is happening in our world now. If things don't change something will have to give and that can be either negative or positive depending on which side you are standing on.
I for once in my life, I' m happy that I live in a country that is free and doesn't oppress me in that way. We are oppress in other ways but not to the extent of loosing your lives for freedom.
We human beings are too selfish to stand up in the billions... If that would occur I know that change would happen, but since we are only made of words and not really of action to do the RIGHT/CORRECT thing.
We will always be manipulated and used as we have always been! I for one cry and feel pity for the people who have no heart and who have nothing in their world to make them happy except for the evil things they do, did and will do...

I saw the soldier video of throwing the puppy [Monroe family threatened over puppy throwing video. ] my heart ache for a lost life and for the soldier. Lost in his world of torment... How is this man going to live with himself? Well, he will forget the ordeal and move on... Hopefully, he is not a psycho who will kill a person because of all the hardship he' s endured in battle.
I find that if you don't have a sound mind, you are not meant to be a soldier or be in any position that gives you power... As you will do something unforgivable in others eyes. What may seem to a joke to others, to me it' s the most heinous thing. I wonder of the children, women and old people whose lives revolved around the war and if they should encounter someone like that soldier what would/will happen?
War is wrong! I was a child when I had my first and only experience [I can still remember all the bodies in the river... the body near the store with all its guts pouring out of him... the soldiers marching and guns blazing in the dead of night... ooh the stories I could tell...]. It was not a wonderful thing at all... They had said that the soldiers were the protectors but no way. They were the perpetrators. They killed innocent people and in front of children like me... I had been taken out of the secluded touristic area by a local nanny and experience what it would be like to be living in a war. It traumatized me to be a better person and to see thing in a different light.
I guess that' s why during my teenage years I was what you called a good/bad girl! Good that I didn't hurt others or me, no drugs, no stupid shit that goes on these days w/ other teens. Bad because I did have my stubbornness [want it now or else] & selfishness within me but had a guilty conscious at times for doing the wrong thing...
I don' t use and abuse others and try to live my life in a good sound way... Try to be nice to others even though they are not to me... I try to see past all that is negative and see the positive in life. I have tried to commit suicide 3 times I don't deny it but its because living in this disgraceful and pathetic world gives me the creeps, sometimes. I seen what the rich care for and what the poor want to achieve. The poor want what the rich have and the rich are in constant search for the next thrill!
I'm tired of the 'I have to look my best or I'll die' factor! It's all about the egoist in all of us!!!!

I wouldn't mind getting money in the mailbox.

Started watching K-drama: Before and After: Plastic Surgery Clinic @ mysoju.com...

woke up pretty early! 6:58am... couldn't sleep was thinking about things I spoke yesterday... and it left me a bit depressed. But went shopping and tried to forget about it.

At 11:30am will call Voula [such a cool name, you know not everyone will have it! totally unique] to check in!

2:30pm Tupperware lady coming to access my kitchen pantry and kitchen cabinets...

Watching Canada AM and reading OCM. Quite funny and left a msg... PC stuff @ CNET, article - figure-out why an application hangs. Article on How to Survive in New York on 99 Cents.

Cute message on kitten's fur

Found out that the book I am presently reading "...And Ladies of the Club" by Helen Hooven Santmyer took over 50yrs to write [1,344pgs]! Wow! and 'The Foundation Series' 7 volumes by Isaac Asimov took 45yrs to write, which I read three times in 1992! Also wanted to know about the history of snow removal and found 'The Weather Doctor Almanac 1999' which found totally interesting! Wonder if in places in the Mid-West, they still use this practice? Very interesting... Also found out that the BobCat Co. is spending $$$ to let the public know that the Word 'BobCat' is only use for their products and not to become a generalistic word for every skid loader [M-400]. Pretty interesting, as the word is used by many here. The things you can find out are truly interesting!

dream bath tub & toilet for my dream home at toto usa, toto ltd., Japanese toilets [not traditional squatting ones!]. utubing and found this little video Cat Tien - Quen Di Anh took me a while to remember where I heard it! Paulina Rubio 'Baila que Baila. ' I need to find my old iPod and found it still there...

I still want this bag Berenice（ベレニーチェ） from Coquettish*Tiara!!!!

Been looking for cell phones for BFG and me for quite awhile now, pretty difficult to find a good phone that has the features that you want. I have narrow the field to a few that I think would be great for both of us to have. BFG's cell is on its last leg, he needs one very bad. Every time he opens his cell [flip phone] it dies which OK granted it has lasted quite awhile, 4yrs to be exact! But hey, we take care of our phones...

My Phone also needs to be changed some features don't work anymore and it acts funny some times. I been reading quite a bunch of reviews from all sorts of places on the net and have just seen some limited ones, that are offer in NA, I am in love with a few phones from Korea and Japan but no way will those work here, well only if they have the int. travel thingy, dang! BFG needs a phone with a good camera which most likely will have to be an unlock phone with GSM tech. As our provider sucks with phone variety!

The Nokia N95 is great has a 5mp camera, 3G support but you need to dish out a pretty penny for it [$599-650]. There is also, the Ericsson w760i [still to come out] pretty nice and stylish, has a 3.2mp camera, a cool shake control feature and Memory Stick Micro (M2) support which are some of the features that are good for him! Samsung's SGH-800 has a 5mp camera but has some things which need a little attention to. I like the Ericsson s500i for its look but doesn't have a very good camera, the keypad is very fragile but granted you can add a mem. stick! I also like the Ericsson w760i which I may get for myself. All the phones need to be bought from 3rd-party dealers... Or for myself I can wait for the iPhone which I have called my dealer and they have no idea when it will get to Canada! What a freaken' pain in the rear!!! [iphonecanada <--check for iphone will get to Canada!]

When I went to Japan I did my nails like this... 3 times... I been trying to find someone to do them for me like this:
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K-drama description: Green Roses only appear in Heaven. Do you know what a green rose stands for? It means eternal love -- one only possible in Heaven.
Filled with suspense, 'Green Rose' draws the unfortunate happenings of a man, who ends up being framed for murder. After going through near-death crises like escaping from custody and jumping off a bridge, he narrowly escapes with his life to China. He leaves everything he loved and cherished behind -- his friends, family, and his lover, Soo-ah. Filled with vengeance, he vows to find the people who framed him and bring them to justice, starting with Cha Yoo Ran, who lied in court against him. From the directors of 'The South Side of the Sun', 'Green Rose' brings the character Lee Jeong Hyeon the ability to go back to Korea as Jang Joong Weon, the man who holds the fate of SR Electronics.

info on downloaded flv named below: Wonder Girls Dance Battle [01.05.2008]- This is a performance where Wonder Girls splits into two groups, one with So Hee, Sun Mi, and Ye Eun, and the other with Sun Ye and Yoo Bin (my favorites!!).

Thursday was a shopping day... Went to Walmart, the Mall, Deco-Decouvert, Future Shop, EB Games and Mondou.... got into a little scuffle at Walmart [bought a pink DS for Nat] with some indecent/disrespectful little girls!! but I ignore them and just went on my merry way! Went to an eyeglass place as mine were broken... Got an eye exam and got my old lenses into another frame. I will see if I'm a candidate for laser surgery. I got my fingers crossed that I will be able to have the surgery. They will call me sometime next week to make an appointment for the tests. Spoke for a while to the receptionist, who was from Cambodian. She had her wedding there over 1000 peeps she had in her wedding banquet. Dang!! She had the most blue-marine stone on her necklace that I had to ask her where she got it. And the conversation went on from there. Also, spoke to the eye doc from France. I guess it was kind of fun that I could speak with him in French, English and a bit of Italian. He told of his son who was going to Japan and that he got stuck in NYC because they wouldn't let him board due to him not having a Visa to China, as he had a lay over of 18hrs and that required a Visa. That was just to absurd... Anyways, he came back home and that was why he had Yen at his home... He goes quite often to Italy and was telling us about it. We talked about how much money was worth in Japan, Italy and Cambodia. Also, that Cambodia was really cheap to buy stuff, you can bargain one thing that many Westerners have little idea to do... She was telling me that the bargaining was great and that it made her feel fulfilled when she got stuff for a really cheap price. We all laughed. I told her that diamonds don't appeal to me as gold does... It has to do of so much info I know about how diamonds are retrieved in Africa and places where people put their lives at risks just to make a small amount of money... Went to pick up the food at Cote-Neiges, got some ginger and scallions at Maxi then went home to eat dinner...

Friday [3/14] was my b-day so went out to leave some packages to the post office [moms & BFG sis]. The freaken' snow is terrible... They still haven't cleaned all up!! Drove to Walmart and went to get some buttons, ribbon and bought sewing material to make pillows for the kitties... Bought some pretty pink dishes and bowls, a heart shape cake pan and other kitchen wears at Stokes.... Went to Walmart at Angrignon to get more stuff... Went to Toy R Us to see if we could find a Wii as EB Games Jean-Talon had no more Wiis... The clerk-girl told us that there would be a new shipment tomorrow and the store will have only 20 which we needed to be there at least an hr early to get one... Got happy and bought WarioWare can't wait to play it... Passed by Mandou and got a new kitty box for the kitties... As theirs is missing the door and Miss Mimi pees out of the broken door... Got a Rosé Wine at the SAQ for dinner, which was Chinese food from Kam Ching's: Chinese broccoli in oyster sauce, steam chicken with ginger & scallion sauce, salt & pepper squid. I still feel like having that... it was so good...

Saturday woke up at 6am to go and stand inline at Toys R Us for a Wii... We bought 2 of them [for us and for my BFG's nieces] with extra controllers for each Wii and one Guitar Hero III, still thinking if we'll keep it or give it to them, it's up in the air. We spend about 1h 15 min in the cold [-5C] waiting in line. Many people showed up but there was 50 Wiis. We were 9th in line talked to people in line, it was fun but cold. Went to FabricVille and spend a few hours trying to decide what kind of fabric to get the kitties... Ended up going home and making food... Started on the making of the pillows and ended up going to bed around 4am...

Sunday woke up at 10:40am and spent it finishing the sewing of the pillow case for Carly... as I made her pillow for her so to lie down and have something fluffy. I was tired by 7pm! finished and tried to go to bed but BFG and the kitties were making so much noise that ended up falling asleep at around 10pm...

Monday... Spend lazily around the house. Helping my sis with some school papers she had due today... I corrected them and spend some time on the net... Watching YouTube and voting for some video award they're having on the 19th... there are 12 categories... you're allowed to vote once a day.... Finally, send email to people... Order the Wii lan adapter from Nintendo $38.24CAD. Also, BFG went to get my L-bracelet... Was really crazy to get that thing... The peeps told him that he would get it before my b-day but he didn't. He went nutzo on them and told them it was for a special occasion and they had promised and checked that it was available for him. He was really upset... Anyways, I got it yesterday night! It's OK but not the quality I would like... I am looking into the leather bag [260$] that's in the catalog, it's dusty-pink leather... sweet!!! I'm gonna get me that!! Heee...

Today was 9am. Made BFG breakfast and coffee, 11am work time... Been cleaning and updating my dairy on the web... reading the news and made lunch for myself... Will be going to start Miss Mimi's bed-pillow now! Ok maybe a little YouTube first... heee... need to see...Oh, BFG will miss American Idol, apparently he likes it... I'll see if I can record it on the drive... Dang one more thing I need to learn... heee... Been reading the Wii manuals before bed... Yep, still haven't connected that damn thing...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLDCATMAN!!!!!

I want to wish you all the best on this day!!!! OK our day!!!

cute pictures of all sorts of animals : totally cute kitty : totally cute bunny : sleepy kitty and which reminds me of my old old kitty BeBe : dude has put up a anime doll : some dumb ass pretending to be black : blog which has a post with a picture of a grape shaped like a heart.

found this charger which is totally cute: hello kitty. Gigabyte GSmart MS808, The World Class 3G Phone what a beautiful phone... me want.

movies wanting to see:
The Great Yokai War [Yokai Daisenso]
Kagen No Tsuki-Last Quarter [Kagen no Tsuki]
The Happiness of the Katakuris [Katakuri-ke no Kofuku]

The first 2 movies the actress Chiaki Kuriyama who plays in them also played in Kill Bill, Volume I as Gogo Yubari.

Another is CJ7 [Cháng Jiāng qī hào] a Chinese film that came out in Jan/08 in HK. Stephen Chow Directed, produced, wrote it and acted in the film. He was behind Shaolin Soccer, God of Cookery, Kung Fu Hustle and many many more funny/action pack movies... He is quite eccentric but a genius! Other movies he's working on Dragonball (2009) (Producer) (In Production) and Kung Fu Hustle 2 (2010) (In Production). I cannot wait for them....

Baby V.O.X. (standing for Baby Voices of Xpression) was one of South Korea's most popular girl groups, belonging to record company DR Music.
Kim E-Z (김이지; 金倚珍 or 金丽芝)
Lee Hee jin (이희진; 李姬珍 or 李喜珍)
Shim Eun Jin (심은진; 沈恩珍)
Kan Mi Youn (간미연; 簡美妍)
Yoon Eun Hye (윤은혜; 尹恩惠)
Farewell Baby V.O.X.

Gwaen chah nah ee jae moh doo dah mahl hae doh dwae
Nahl sarang hah ji ahn neun dah neun mahl
Oh neul ee gah myun nahm gyuh jin coffee chuh rum
Nah doh geu ruh kae shi guh gah gaet jji
Geu saram eul ee jeu ryuh nah reul chah jah waht dduhn geu nahl
Geu guht mah neun roh goh joh ah ssuh
Nuh ae jah geun shil soo roh
Nah neun mahn ee heng bok hae haet jji...

* Ee guht mahn yahk sohk hae dah shi nah reul doh rah boh ji mah rah boo tahk hae
Hahn jool gi noon mool lo gah neun nuh reul jah bah doo gi neun shi ruh mm~~
Mi ahn hae hah jin mah suh roh dah reun goh seul won haet dduhn guhl ppoon ee ra
Seng gahk hae nae gah ah nin sarang ae oh neul doh nuhn heem deu ruh hahl tae ni kkah

NARR.) Ee ruh kae muh mool dah
Uhn jaen gahn nuh ae mahm eul gah jil soo ee sseul kkuh rah seng gahk hae ssuh
Hah ji mahn jah kkoo yah wi uh gah neun geu noon beet
Ee jaen geu mahn nuhl jah yoo rohp kkae hae yah hahl guht gah tah
Sarang ee sarang eul gah doo neun il, ee guhn ah ni yah...
Ssoh dah ji neun haet sahl ae
Jah gah ji neun nuh ae dwit moh seup eun ah ryun hi sah rah ji goh
Nah meun nah ae sarang eun
Seul peum euh roh mool deu ruh gah doh...

* repeat

Nah hah nah roh chae wuh jil soo up neun nuh mahm
Hahn jool gi noon mool lo gah neun nuh reul jah bah doo gi neun shi ruh mm~~
Mi ahn hae hah jin mah...

TRANSLATION:
It's okay
Everyone can tell me everything
That you didn't love me
If today ends, I'll probably end up like a coffee which becomes cold
To forget him, you came to me
That day, I was happy because of that
Because of your small mistakes, I was very happy..
Promise me this
That you won't turn back and look at me
I don't want to hold you back,
You, who are going with one streak of tear down your face
I'm sorry
But I'm going to think that both of us wanted to go different ways
You're going to have a hard time today
Without me as your love
I thought that I would get your love someday
But your looks weakened
Now, I think I should let you fly freely
Love trapping love,
It's not right...
Your back disappears as you walk into the setting sun
My love is drenched in sadness
But love couldn't be complete with only my love
---Emily Watson ©beautifulvoices

- The 10 Most Disturbing Smurfs
- Achieve a Deep, Uninterrupted Sleep
Forget crop circles - now we've got a mysterious SHEEP circle
Carol Zhu Liqian ex/girlfriend of andy lau...

Ice Rain & Madeleine [YouTube] - watched on Wed Jan 9th, 2008...
Almost Love watched it a while ago but watched it again just before watching Ice Rain...

Finished watching SoulMate and got the 2 songs by Lasse Lindh that I really liked on iTunes... Found also on YouTube Anyband-애니밴드 [Promotional K-group form by Samsung with singer BoA, 동방신기 band member 시아준수 (Xiah Junsu), Epik High band leader/member 타블로 (TABLO) and pianist 진보라 (Jin Bora)] I love their 2 songs they have 'Promise U''& 'TPL. Got the mp3s!
Went on a 29hr non-sleeping marathon to watch Couple or Trouble and Soulmate at mysoju!! I have learned to do that for a while!

Spend some of early & late afternoon yesterday downloading music for iTunes got 20 songs [Wishin' and Hopin' by Ani Difranco for My Best Friend's Wedding Soundtrack : I've Seen It All (Instrumental)-Family Tree & It's Oh So Quiet-Post by Björk : One More Time (Short Radio Edit), One More Time (Radio Edit) & One More Time (12" Mix) by Daft Punk the singles : Big Girls Don't Cry (Personal)-The Dutchess by Fergie : My Neighbor Totoro-A Music Box Heals You: Hayao Miyazaki Animation Orgel Anthology by Hayao Miyazaki animation orgel arrange: The Reason-The Reason by Hoobastank : 1973-Vingle by James Blunt : Stronger-Graduation by Kanye West : Don't Waste Your Time & Haunted-My December (Deluxe Version) by Kelly Clarkson : Bruised, C'mon through & The Stuff-You Wake Up At Sea Tac by Lasse Lindh : I Wanna Be Down (Original)-EP by m-flo : Won't Go Home Without You-It Won't Be Soon Before Long by Maroon 5 : (I'm Not Your) Steppin' Stone-The Best of the Monkees & She-More of the Monkees by The Monkees] & upgraded 2 songs [Idiot-Now What by Lisa Marie Presley & 1979-Greatest Hits by Smashing Pumpkins] to iTunes Plus... Also, as I had bought Timbaland CD [Timbaland Presents: Shock Value] so uploaded 2 songs [The Way I Are ft. Keri Hilson & D.O.E. and Apologize ft. OneRepublic].

Then watched music videos from YouTube: The Beatles, Beach Boys, AnyBand, John Lennon, Bryan Ferry, Aretha Franklin, Jan and dean, The Mamas & The Papas, Jefferson Airplane, The Turtles, Janis Joplin, Maroon 5, Kelly Clarkson and many many more...

Last week ate yummy Indian food... Had some pizza a few days ago, 3 days ago had BK, 2 day before had A&W, yesterday I had Bibimbap [so my favorite!!!]... Today is DimSum & some other goodies from the Chinese Bakery... Yum...

It's warm out most of the snow has melted... It has rained the past few days and right now the wind is blowing... I can hear the green recycling containers!

Samsung SCH-C220 slider phone [Anycall Mini skirt - 10.9mm Ultra Slim slide] only for Korea!!! so sad, no GMS, no PC hookup, TV output, no mp3, no dbm, no PC dbm or no email either :( ... I want this phone or one that is similar to this one!!! There's nothing that compares to this phone in the NA market. Why is it that we get the shittiest phones? For the past 1hr 1/2 been looking for a good phone to get as my Samsung e316 needs to be changed... I've had it for 4yrs... It works well and loved it when I saw it... I been looking at Lg TU720 Shine, Ericsson S500i & w760 but they are not that great... the LG doesn't have Email (POP3/SMTP/IMAP4), camera, photo light effects, 4x zoom, integrated flash, only 500 names on phone book & no lines of text on display. Only has 180hrs of talk time with a standby time of 250hrs, screen resolution only has 64k compare to 262k [18-bit] to other phones like the Ericsson w580i... It does however possess the Slim Metal Design, Video calling capable, High Speed HSPA data connectivity, Music Player and Bluetooth enabled... Ericsson s500i comes in 4 different colors, has 12mb phone memory w/ support of up to 2gb, but no video calling, no photo fix, no album art, mega Bass, sensme, shake control, track id, no media or radio, no pict bridge & no instant messaging. The Ericsson w760 on the other hand has all that the w580i doesn't have but comes in 3 colors which I don't like any color at all... The blue with red sucks! the blue should have been put with the silver!!! arrrggghhh... I wonder who their designers are... yuks! the s500i on the other hand has nice colors which my faves are all 4... It would be hard to come to a decision on the color... I wonder if the w760 would be better as it has video calling and almost everything that s580i has although it doesn't have the shiny thing and the colors suck... hope they come out with newer colors... sheeshh...

30th Got up and made breakfast... Panettone french toast! pretty good!! BF got a breakfast recipe book and tried it... It was pretty good! Passed the day cleaning the kitchen and bedroom... there's a quite a bit of turkey left... watched some utube. feeling a bit stressed but nothing out of the ordinary. For dinner ate what else but TURKEY!!! YUMMY in my tummy... BF is working... bb in the evening...

31st was spend with the kitties as BF went to work... His phone was acting up which was really weird and kinda scared me a bit... I turned it off and left it there to look at it the next day... BF came back at 12:20am... a bit after midnight....

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!



1st tired, tired..... cooked late breakfast.... ate turkey and watched some tv...

2nd spend it like the 1st.... except took a 4hr nap...

3rd was spend as the 1st & 2nd except that took Carly to the Vet for her appointment to see about her teeth... She has a broken tooth and needs some cleaning... The
estimation was made and it will be over $550 but our regular Vet would be around 450$....Now its time to decide which place Carly will go and get her teeth done... My Mom's b-day was today...


4th made breakfast egg-wich... pretty good!

6th-10 -----------------------------------something!

Got up to clean the kitchen it was a mess... The dishes are being washed... Love my dishwasher... Saturdays is a day to clean! BF is just watching tv but my guess is he's hungry but he said he'll make himself something, that's great! nya!

Going to soju to watch some K-dramas... My last one was: 이 죽일놈의 사랑 [ A Love To Kill]. It made me cry so very much! Also been watching some K-movies which were totally funny: Beauty&Beast, 100 days w/ Mr. Arrogant, Almost Love, Did We Really Love?, 200lb Beauty, Millionaire's 1st Love, My BF is Type B, My Little Bride, S Dairy, Seducing Mr. Perfect, She's on Duty, He Was So Cool & way many more.... but that's only the Korean ones... I've also seen many many Japanese & Chinese... Some Thai, Spanish and Philippine ones.

k-dramas I seen in the past: 1% of Anything, My Girl [favorite], My Love Patzzi, Full House [favorite], Bad Couple [favorite], Dal Ja's Spring [funny], Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang, Goong S, Hello! Miss [funny], One Fine Day, Only You, Princess Lulu [funny], She Is Nineteen, 18 vs 29, The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince, Wedding and many many more.... Also many Japanese, Chinese and some Spanish, Italian and French....

Gonna go start a new k-drama to watch: Sweet 18 and still waiting on Golden Bride which has 70 episodes... I'm on ep 45....

So looking around for a turkey sandwich ended up on univision forums. It's in Spanish... had to use my g-translator as some of the words were not known to me. I need to practice my Spanish... I will read and see how the site is... Got my sis and mom's x-mas gifts... Sweet... Send bf to get bread and water crest.... My kitties Mitsuru and Carly are sleeping and probably dreaming of yesterdays turkey diner...

Watching OLTL not that great I prefer AMC n GH which are great! Talked to mom asked what 'escabeche' was she said it was crispy... Dang, tried to find it on g-translator and didn't work and then on other dictionary's and nothing came up except like places and other recipes with it...

Broke my left thumb nail yesterday cleaning the furniture... Damn, it will take like so long to grow back...

Wish that I could be in Japan again and go do my nails... I hate the way they do them here... It sucks! Still looking for someone to do them.... LOOKING!!!

Been wondering the net:

cute pictures of all sorts of animals - totally cute kitty - totally cute bunny - sleepy kitty and which reminds me of my old old kitty BeBe - dude has put up a anime doll - some assholes pretending to be black

blog which has a post with a picture of a grape shaped like a heart.

BF is back need to go make lunch....

Headed to Chapters and bought:
Singer Simple Sewing Guide (Spiral-bound)
Step-By-Step Sewing Course: Essential Techniques for Making Over 150 Creative Home Projects
and
So Easy...Home Sewing : 30 Fabulous Items to Make for your Home (Spiral-bound)

with other nick-nacks: CocoMira Espresso Crunch gift box, Glass tealights, Animal bath toys and Jordi Labanda Gel pen.

Got up bright and early... Nagged B-G to get himself ready. I found my pretty Brother CS-6000 sewing machine which was on sale for $399 at Centre de couture Gema. It has 100 stitch options! Will now be making my second cushion and more to come... Have also decided to make a few duvet covers.... Need to look for some fabrics that I have in mind... Headed to Fabricville and got me some fabric: Gingham 1/8 Inch Check - Pink [3yrds] and green/lime [3yrds] by cranston village, another 14" cushion, and some interfacing. Which was a bit hefty in price [$63] and the cust serv lady was a total biatch! She even over charged and had to go back to get the credit! She was upset that we came back for the credit! I couldn't believe that! AAAhhhh! Never going back there!

✿ Was a bit early so I went to the dollar store bought some lace which was really cute...

I made a cushion today! It was fun... It took me a lot of time to do it. I had never really sewed, so it was a really slow process for me.... I did however have so much fun! I like the people that were there and the teacher was a sweetheart... The 3 hrs went by so fast!

'Friperie La Gaillarde.' I asked her to contact me when the next class would be offered. She said maybe in Sept. she would do another class which will run for about 3 consecutive Sat. which I am totally hung-ho! Asked her if I could have extra fabric to make another just like the one I had just made. She agreed....

B-G picked me up and showed him my art work! I was very satisfied and energetic... Went to the Korean/Japanese store to buy stuff to make Bibimbap... Have had it and its amazing! Want to learn how to make it!

Will be buying a sewing machine as soon as possible...

spend 2 [15-16] days watching 'Wonderful Life'. A really good Korean drama....

NY border : jury 2007.
As we approached the agent, we declared our stuff and were told to park and bring our stuff in.... In the middle of bringing it all they said no need... asses.... So we paid like 15$ for the extras....

The New Year was spend kinda smoking my last cig of 2007.... Will be trying to quit!!!
Jan/08:
1st day of No Cig!!!
2nd day of No Cig!!!!
3rd day of No Cig!!!
4th Day of no Cig....

Headed to the US for the shopping! Went to the info desk and got us a map of the city and talk to the lady for a while to tell us what's good in town... Then just looked at the make for a while and drove around... Saw the lake and went shopping as we didn't have a lot of time....

Bought some Hungry Jack pancake mix and a lot of flavor coffee mate creamers powder form and a couple of liquid form! Body pillow and paper towels! Ate at Ponderosa! Was ok... Dang, so much food! couldn't eat all, they even have an all you can eat buffet for and extra few $ with the meal. That's just crazy! B-G took the buffet which he only went to get salad, macaroni and a dessert.

We were on our way! Listen to music and had fun!

How pathetic is this as I listen to this song [My Girl soundtrack - K-drama - track 5] I remember us and it hurts to the core... Why is it that I still feel... saranghe... I hate it,,, these feelings of a lost love... I want to forget and never think of it but its impossible. Why? Was or am I that bad of a person to suffer like this. I want to know when it will disappear from my heart. a wound has been left and I can't seem to close it. When will it become a scar, like the rest. Was it that special. The song vibrates through my body and my tears fall so easily. I cannot stand it any more. I want to scream so loud that I loose my voice. I wish to rid of it. I want it gone. Why so much memories. Can I get a memory transplant. I rather have the memories of someone else and never have mine. I sleep and I seem to walk in a dream through this this world. I have not thought of this before and its costing me my well being now. I want it gone.

I feel like I am drowning in a vast sea... I have to get my self out of this pit of darkness and live. Why cant I do that? What prevents me from being happy? I ruined such a good thing. I seem to ruin things when they are good and finally find happiness. I feel that I don't deserve it, so I guess that is why I'm in such a place now. I have done so many mistakes when am I going to stop and listen to my heart. Why do I do the things I do? Why?

comment I wanted to leave:
why not get info from peeps. if your clean you have nothing to hide, right. by obtaining info of predators who lurk behind the clean and deceptive image of being a good human being.... i give up my rights to take down all the evil that possess these awful peeps. never think that the person beside you is a good one because then you are being naive. everyone says we have rights but the only thing we have is the right to be selfish and deceitful. we may be at the top of the chain of the pyramid but we are the worst of the worst... we kill, exploit and devour our own young, we are not better then animals. if you think that by keeping all your private data out of the mainstream data bases is the thing to do then think if you or anyone you care about would be in danger and the only way to find you or your love one is getting the information from these places, wouldn't you want the people looking for you to have every piece of data that could lead them to find the person/s or yourself. what about when it comes down to a life what do you perceive privacy laws to do in that? remember that the law doesn't protect only the innocent but the guilty, too.

I agree that corporations are out there to make the money and exploit us anyway they can. this would be a great way of doing it as to what we like and dislike but also think of the big picture. how about the predators that are around the net getting to innocent children/people. what are we to do? Just sit and say privacy is worth more then a life. is that how society thinks. i am sorry but this really gets me angry. do i make sense maybe not to some or anyone at all but i really regret being born to a humanity that puts profit before a life....

what are you afraid of?
why not get info from peeps. if your clean you have nothing to hide, right.

I agree that corporations are out there to make the money and exploit us anyway they can. this would be a great way of knowing what we like and dislike but also think of the big picture. how about the predators that are out there on the net getting to innocent children/people. what are we to do?

So woke up by the sound of Katsu's phone call... I told him that I would be down in 5min but it didn't happened as I needed to take a shower... Yah!! My last shower in Japan which was sort of fast but still good... Got dressed and called him to come and help me pack all the boxes... In total it came to 4 boxes which cost like 89,900yen. Almost $950CAD. I took it to NEKO-transport! And did the paperwork for the last box there... After went to Jusco but the floor where all the toys were was under construct8ion. It was like a maze, totally funny! We asked and the lady said they were remodeling so no one could buy toys. She recommended the other store which was close to the shinkansen train station - tsudanuma-bashi!

Ended up buying some stuff and well it was raining and the bag the lady gave us was paper. Got wet and it sort of crumbled. Katsu when to get a plastic one... Also, he kind of cheesed me off as he went the wrong way. Not that he went the wrong way but just through the outside and it was raining and my takoyaki machine box got wet. Hope the machine works or else I will be really be angry but Katsu bought it for me so, I guess but still... Such a nice man!

So, I was sort of happy to have gone out of the hotel and I said bye to the receptionists... Went to the post office to take out money and headed to do the shopping thing!! Bought some stuff and was really happy with all my purchases. Didn't have enough money so Katsu kinda fronted me some and told him I would send him the money he lent me...

Headed to Shin Tsudanuma... Waited a little bit and got into the train... Rode for about 25-30 minutes... Once we got to the airport headed to eat sushi, my last meal in Japan and some sake which made me a little bit tipsy but all good... Went to the nearest souvenir shop and got some stuff for B-G's nieces and nephew. Got 2 cute umbrellas that Katsu bought as a gift of farewell... Got inline for baggage check. they passed it and asked me to take out the lighter gave it to Katsu... Then headed to the ticket booth and remember that I needed to take out the pillow so the ticket girl went with me again to pass the bag over the x-ray machine after I took out the pillow. Then we headed back to the booth where my stuff was checked in and was happy to walk around with out it... We headed to the mall but didn't have much time so just kinda looked a bit and then headed to the gate. Last minute I forgot to give Katsu his phone but he remember and was able to give it to him. The 15hr ride was not so comfy but not that bad... Slept, watched some movies and then slept some more. The food was ok. A Japanese business man sat next to me. We shared our food and it was a good trip. He headed to his business meeting once he got to Seattle... I headed to take my flight to Alberta... Waited a while... I was kind of surprise of all the people that were taking that flight.... It was a small plane but it was full!

The ride was easy and not too bad... A very large man sat next to me which he kinda took some of my space but it was ok.... The stewardess grabbed my hand, which I found a bit surprising, and loved my nails. He even said to the other to take a look and asked me all sorts of questions... Where, when, how, why? I explained and they were really interested on what I was saying. I kind of felt in the spotlight and made me nervous as some of the other passengers were staring at us... I just said thank you.

Once I got to customs, I felt the jet lag.... As I stared which of the agents was going to be questioning me. I decided I wanted the Asian guy. But to my bad luck he turned out to be an ass... He was really mean.... He treated me like a child... I went to pay my taxes for the bulk of my stuff and asked the other agent there, a blond lady, what was wrong with the agent. She asked me which one was the one that gave me a hard time and I explain what I was thinking and my situation. I was jet lagged, he treated me like a child and over explained himself with a very rude/authority manner that I had never experienced before. I thanked her and went to wait for my luggage to come around the bend. Once there.... I saw the stewardess and they stopped me and asked me more questions and I answered them. As I was saying goodbye to them another agent popped himself in front of me. I got a bit nervous thinking they thought I was carrying something illegal or that I looked suspicious which scared me. But in turn the agent asked if I could talk to him about the situation that I had just experienced. I said sure. He put an agent to guard my stuff, while I went into his office and explain the situation. So, he asked me that he was the supervisor and that he wants all Canadian Citizens to feel protected not scared of his agents. I went onto explain and then he asked me to write it. He gave me his card and went with me to get cleared... I thanked him and said my goodbye's... I passed through the doors and B-G was waiting for me.... He was happy and sad looking... We walked and talked.... It was sunny and hot....

We stayed at his sisters house.... With the girls.... It was fun...

Woke up at 7:35am (I could not sleep as I swear I heard a voice say either 'back' or 'pack', I turned the TV and slept that way)... took a shower and watched TV... I packed and then headed downstairs. While going to the elevator an older couple from England went down with me.. I asked them if they were from England and they said yes...

I checked out and made my way to Shin-Kobe... I sat a little at the park before leaving and then headed to the station. Waited about 1hr30min for the train.


Received a Skype message from Seiki yesterday that he still hadn't picked up his gift... What an ass... Whatever, I ignored him! I was kind of upset and didn't want to talk to him or I would say something bad to him...

I am now in the train... It's 11:17am... I arrive at Tokyo at 1:43pm where Katsu will meet me. Hopefully without my baggage... Heee...

Went to bed quite late and got up around 11am... I watched tv all day... Didn't eat anything... I stayed in the hotel all day... I received email from Miho and Etsu... Excused myself for leaving so suddenly..

Just watched TV all day, took a shower and smoked a lot... Couldn't get in contact with B-G... Send email to see what was going on.

Nothing much...