p-pine & Carly playing!!!

hate the fact that i have to go and get surgery, not fair but i guess life is not fair and then you die!!!!!! everyone says it's gonna hurt... hte pain doesn't get me as much as the fact that i will be under... that's all... b-g says not to worry that it's such a common surgery like a cold... so, i should just give it up... he has not been a very understanding person! aaaahhh... he's worried about his own things: doing rounds, his billing, cleaning his so called office... which i cannot help on any of that cuz he doesn't let me... he loves to bitch about it though!
Oprah was terrible yesterday... i let out all my cries out... i cannot believe that the world is so disgusting... to imagine that in S. Africa men think that by raping babies they can be cure of AIDS. that is freaken crazy!! and in Italy father's are prostituting their own sons for money... man, i think that life is fuckin insane... there is so much out there that many don't want to know and don't care to know... many of the clothes and articles we have in our own homes are made by children, who work instead of going to school and living thier lives... a child born in N. America is the most luckiest! they have advantage that others don't or will never have...
why are we so selfish and self-absorbed?? is that being human?