i hate was coming out of my mouth... i want to ring the docs head at the moment... it's been 9 days and i cannot talk properly at all... what the fuck! i am starting to get upset... ok so it will take 3weeks to heal but it should not effect my lyrinx or any part of that? what the hell is going on in my mouth? the little i can talk no one can understand! i'm starting to get scared that i will be talking like a deaf person for ever... hopefully soon that will change... i hate it! help.. i saw the doc on monday! he said it will take 3wks for my mouth to heal but it may take a while for the brain and the functions of my mouth to match up!!!! crossing my fingers that all will end up good and i will be laughing in a few months about this!!! yes, im feeling sorry for my fuckin self and what? who else will do that for me... no one! so, i want to cry, scream, and rant!!! oh not to forget to slap silly the doc who did this to me... i did not know he had done this until i came out... could i sue him? as i thought i was going for a tonillectamy:


and came out with my soft pallette cut up and stitched up! i just went and taped my self and sound awful.. i am crying now! will my beautiful voice come back? now, im scared.. i will go see the doc the 8th of July, i hope by then my voice is back to the its girly self with a bit less pain and no more disgusting sfuff coming out of my mouth!! this is my mountain of tissue which is growing by the minute...