so thursday 23rd was app. day with Dr. Sweet... waited 35min to see him. was a bit in pain but could manage it. asked him why did it hurt so much and he said because he had made more room in my mouth and pulled some muscles and had to reattached them differently... it will take a while for it to all go back to place once again. it has to do with the brain and the body how it all will come together. i can't eat and drinking is pretty painful. he gave me another refill of morphine as i was truly low on the first doses b-g had given me. i also take 2 tylenol every 4hrs to keep me a bit numb and don't relly on the morphine 100%... i wish i could atleast have some pudding or jello or ice cream... i can't even have semi-solids. Dr. Sweet said it may take a while before i can eat semi-solids...i been loosing weight as the only intakes are water, and at times some juices [melon, berry]... had luke-warm beef stock, it was too much for my mouth... as my taste buds are fucked too, the doc said that he had to push my tongue back and due to that i have slashes on my tongue and can't taste stuff properly...
i am so not hungry, i get scared to eat cuz even when the water passes through my throat it hurts to swallow and if i don't swallow it goes into my wind pipe. apparently i had huge tonsils and had very little space to breath inside my throat. so, the it wasn't an average tonsil surgery. which i am not happy but the doc said that now i will be perfect from the inside out... no more snoring... heee... i guess i got perfection inside my mouth... but the pain!!! i need to take another dose of MORPHINE!