John Ritter, who was 54, collapsed on Thursday evening while filming "8 Simple Rules for Dating My Teenage Daughter." Surgeons at the hospital were unable to save him, and he died from a "dissection of the aorta," which results from an unrecognized flaw in a main artery from the heart.



Johnny Cash , who was 71, died of complications from diabetes, which resulted in respiratory failure.



So sad.. what a week. :( it's not getting any better is it?

laterz...

havent been feeling that up to writing. i finished my collage of images that i had retrived from a while back.

thanks to OLDCATMAN... he always has something nice to say about me in his brain farts! his latest (9-11/03) one for 9-1-1 is really good. and he is a great read! ^.^

got mail from tas... she sweet and i thank her for the message. also read greg's who is a libra as tas is... havent been making the rounds today. i guess im still in the mood of glum. im not giving up on my blog. i hope that tas doesnt either. people are giving her grief, she should tell them to go f*ck off! like OLDCATMAN... put it!!

for goodness sake, she is a sweet and caring lady, leave her the f**k alone! she has the right to say what she wants and do with her life what she pleases!!! as for that sam freak, kiss her ass 'a-hole.' Gosh, i have surf for a number of hours and i have seen bad and tas sweety you have a wonderful and beautiful blog! k, dont let anyone tell you so!!! love the music!! and the rants about the co-workers. vote for her!!

i'm happy for rob (awg= averagewhiteguy), yeah! good for you on the good bowling night!!! ^.^

havent had time to do the poem that annika has let me use on my marquee. probably will do it this weekend. been reading the greg (he not saying much!), cw (he has a hotty of a wife), lynn (nice memorial to 9/11), darksyde (the biatch who was fondling his goods-groceries!), ms. ren (going for an interview for a job, she got 2 calls. as she hates her present job and the morons, as she calls them, that work there! good for her, wish her luck! ^.^), tony is up to no good but he had this one entry (Monday, September 08, 2003) with some chickies he knows that are valley girsl! they have their own t-shirt that they sale the brand pink cookies, ginger (she is in the same mood as i have been in the past few days).

laterzzz.

Never Forget

i have been in a spiral of sadness/sorrow path! i havent had the energy or the mind set for this in the past few days. i have shared a bit with a few of the bloggers i read regularly. i send them a reply to their emails they have send me. as i dont say much at times but i did to some.



truthfully, i feel really sad. just have this feeling inside as the days come close to the sadness of 2 yrs ago SEPTEMBER 11, 2001. this will always remain in my mind. i can remember that day as if it was yesterday, which is creepy and achy. i was going to work and for some unusual reason i decided to turn the tv on instead of going to my comp. i thought i leave it on as i got ready. it was such a sunny day and i thought of ditching work, as i never used my sick-days. i remember putting the straightener to my hair as i turn and saw the announcer say and "now we go to the latest...". the devistation on the announcer face. they went white faced... i drop what i was holding and sat at the corner of the bed. my first instinct was calling my mom. as i put the tv volume louder. i started to feel this surge of acid building in my stomach and my wind pipe shrinking letting me only take small breaths (not realizing that i started to cry). i couldnt remember my moms number. and i couldnt move just the images of that were on captivated my attention 100%. i think even though i was far away. i sat there watching and looking and trying to analyze what just occurred, not beleiving that such an atrocity could happen. i spend the whole day there. i was just numb i didnt eat or drink anything for the whole day. i finally remember my moms number and called but no answer, when i heard of the plane that hit the pentagon. i thought of all the people that were hurt or were dead. how their love ones would be feeling, the pain that they were going to feel and the changes in their lives that would impact them for ever. all this was running through my head...



i think that we live in a time were life is fleeting... we need guidance and love. for we only got one life to live. with all this happening i dont know what to do or think at times. i get lost in the sorrow of it all. i dont know if im making sense. but i feel sadness purely that. Ginger has captured some of my sorrow. shouldn't 9-1-1 be an emergency number instead everytime i see it, it reminds me of the saddest day!



now that i write this i feel that the past 4 days have been really sad and realizing im totally lost at the present moment in my feelings. and i keep asking myself why??

ok so i made a small boo-boo.. Ren is actually a girl name Renee... sorry about that! oopsy! check "HER" out! thank you Ren for the heads up! i am trully sorry! ^_^

blogger was down for the count... trying to go to the site and log so i can put in some comments... dang! (ginger is pissed! blogger lost her post, a**es!)have done my writting on nopeday for the past few minutes! found a new blog :) funny too!

flamming monkey pants by Ren! will try to blog roll him... let's see if it works! emailed a few people... got a pic of domo-kun heee... he is so cute... i also like mashimaro! check them out! funny:



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pollstar is a great way to find concerts in your area! cool... browsing and looking found it! thanks to google



and now for some exciting news which i have been waiting and have gotten the answer to my question!! heee, i'm so happy!!! I have to thank Annika as she has allowed me to use her poem on my scrowling marquee!!!!

greg's birthday is coming up in 23 days!! need to find a count down script for him to put up on my page!!! heee... gonna do that tonight! yep!

tas has van halen on today, i know she'll change it in the evening, teehee.. let's see what will be the surprise song this time!

oldcatman, still wanting his comments area but no luck, yet! as all the freaken comment sites are down for the count. may be averagewhiteguy will send me the code for him.... still waiting? teehee!

i've been todarksyde about 3 times... heee still reading heee...

as for ginger, darlin' she's in a question period! hee...

been to lynn's a few times... he has the darnest cutiest kitty named "Baby" on camara! heee... not to mention a very lovely quilt that won 2nd place at the Tennessee State Fair!

dirty whore reading...

hit & run reading...

tonyreading...

laterzzz...

this entry by cw is the funniest! "a marketing lovestory." the same guy that brought you "the test for the men!!!! go check it out! you'll have a great laugh! laterzzz..

a few hrs ago i went to read annika's poems... and have a favorite poem already. just reading it filled me with laughter, tenderness, hopelessness, sadness and inspiration! sheesh! love the poem written on Saturday, April 12, 2003 titled: annika oscura @ 1:47 AM! i will email her asking if i can put part of it onto my scrowling marque... time to change and i found the perfect piece to put. i will not quote until i get an ok from her. go see annika's poems they are pretty good!

took a shower and G is coming over with chinese... yum!!! cool... night... he has to work laters that sucks overnight and cuz he's the doc on call he had to work the day shift as the reg doc freaken called sick... my ass!!! oh well, and well he has to work overnight tomorrow too that is so sucky!! gets more money though!! teeheee! i guess its not that bad but no life what so ever... yikes! not the job i want, yeah cuz i would be zonking out when a patient comes in and tells me what is ailing him... ha... ooh i just remember i havent gone to kungfoo.com in awhile... shit i wonder what's going on?? hmmm should check it out!! yah!

thx to tony for the heads up on the LA, the city of angels, b-day 222th heee... cool... pretty good.. blog... love to read it... heee.. funny!! smells like someone is cooking diner... yum... potatoes.. still listenning to ashanti at tas's. yep going over and over and over... heeee.... its soothing... and the wind is bringing my appetite up!! dang... food!! oh well, im going to get a glass of apple juice instead to lazy to cook wanna read and read!! Laterzzz...

trying to see... what works and what doesnt... thx tasberry, i know aint he cute... i will try to dig up my exes pics to see... hee... oh well... i'm still on the fixing of my blog an my site! yeah. went to read annika and left a few comments... she's pretty good. saw that oldcatman visits there too and that she also has pics on her yahoo! pretty cool which i will try to see if i can use too! great idea! thanks to lynn which i was reading and then he had said to me a few times to go read her! so now i went! i also went to read stoop, who's a car sales man (he's new but he has a good way of writing and good tips for those who want to know the mind of a car sales man!), no kidding! blog rolled him and annika, too! heee! i cant believe she's in cali my ex-home as well as oldcatman's! teehee.... listenning to tasberry's song of the day "ashanti - rain on me." i likes... think ill be downloading it... i need to buy a cd may be the latest ashanti one! will see?? read greg's and he entice a few memories, just before! heee... went also to read ginger, average white guy and dirty whore (poor chickie she is some what ill... my condolences to her! no sex that must suck!)! which i like them all tons! ooh i need to move "from the darksyde" up! dang i always have to go all the way down. the read to darksyde was good the comment #5 was all inspired by me, left a mess or two... heee! i like that blog, too! tony and hit and run need to go up too! dang i think my blog-reading is going so far pretty good. need to go check the other 30 or so blogs i have... been going to them on spurs of the moment when all my regulars been read!! ok need to go read some more and due a twice over the regulars... heee... need to comment and i have the need to bla!!! its still early! love that song tas!!! good one... thx for the music! great idea!!! laterzzz...

this was enticed by greg! his fault! Listenning to depeche mode:

Behind The Wheel Route 66



My little girl

Drive anywhere

Do what you want

I don't care

Tonight

I'm in the hands of fate

I hand myself

Over on a plate



Oh little girl

There are times when I feel

I'd rather not be

The one behind the wheel

Come

Pull my strings

Watch me move

I do anything



Well if you ever plan to motor west

Travel my way, take a highway, that's the best

Get your kicks on Route 66



Well it winds from Chicago to L.A.

More than two thousand miles all the way

Get your kicks on Route 66



Sweet little girl

I prefer

You behind the wheel

And me the passenger

Drive

I'm yours to keep

Do what you want

I'm going cheap

Tonight



You're behind the wheel

You're behind the wheel



Well it goes to St. Louie down to Missouri

Oklahoma City looks - oh so pretty

You'll see Amarillo,

Gallup- New Mexico

Flagstaff- Arazona, don't forget Wynona.

Kingman, Bosco, San Bernadino

If you get hip to this kind of tip

then you'll take that California trip

get your kicks on route 66

get your kicks on route 66

get your kicks on route 66



You're behind the wheel

You're behind the wheel

You're behind the wheel



love this song!! takes me back to my days as an alternative chickie... i wonder if i still have those pics?? i use to have pics you know the look... private school uniform with a black tank-top under neath with the fish net stockings... shit!! i use to hang out with my fellow "sirens"... yeah! being a teen, we liberated ourselves by exposing as much skin as we could in a -30 celscius/-22 fehrenheit weather, no joke! dang crazy bitch that i was! hey i no longer do that, too freaken cold! dont have the same mind set! i wonder what happen to christine j, as for kate b, she got married and had twin girls and now lives up north where its more freaken cold. i guess we all grow up and move on! yep that is what everyone else did except me... im still f**** around!! hmm.. wonder what happen to my dockers and black leather jacket! heee... that was a time when i was lets say experimental and did not have my head screwed on right! kinda awoling from home and ending up at terry's (which chris j was so into!) house where i met this guy K. which gave me the best something, something... but that is not to say... i dont think anyone knows that one! wow, i remember that, i cannot believe that!! i am truly amazed! man listenning to the 101 album by depeche does bring up so much memories... shit! great i should listen to the cure, sex pistols and the smiths... shit! and watch Sid & Nancy! yeah!!! take me back to the era where i was a nut and thought i could do anything and never get caught!!! ok so coming back to reality to the prim and proper me... another time for flashbacks!!



Something nutty i found trying to find the english lyrics to a lee jung hyun song "Bakwo!." he looks like my ex...yikes! never knew, ben was an artist, teeheee!! should have been in a boy band yeah... heee! well here's the pic:



some korean actor/singer name: "rich." yeah, just a remembrance.. yep like the asian boys! nice and sweet! they seem to be anyways! well thats if for now... laterzzz

OLDCATMAN gave me the cutest picture... thank you! :)

I would like to thank him.... so much, for the gift!!

added my self to a blog direrctory "blog universe." email a few peeps! and now off i go... listening to "lee jung hyun" korean music! she is so cute.

Sunday was a lazy hazy day... did some cleaning and watched movies and went for dim sum, freaken busy due to the holiday. every one is out there wanting to go eat out, no one wants to stay home and cook, yeh!!! also went to IKEA. bought new sheets, a bath mat and some stuff for the kitchen... my friend he bought like 6 shelves no joke he has a so much medical magazines, books and other papers that he has collected since he joined all those memberships that doctors join... nutty... anyways! that was my Sunday day!

Monday, was even more quiet! spend the day... finishing cleaning the house... its so dirty... man... went to buy some food and made a steak with mash potatoes... yum! watched the news... mostly about "STOP! DON'T DRIVE FAST!" like any one listens, yeah! until they get seriously hurt or killed then they are sorry! never understand people who drive fast on construction sites! shit that's where they get into such awful accidents! well, that was my night went to bed kinda late watching some stuff on PBS. hit the hey at 12.30am, i think???

Tuesday, well lets see how it goes... got up early and put my new sheets on!! did a CD to take with me and one a copy for a friend! that's it so far. ooh yeah found some old, old and some not so old pictures of my family and me... shit! wow will try to put them up on my site. gonna see.. also, will have to go check out tasberry's blog this evening and my usual ones... tasberry thx for the comment!!! well i gotta go... laterzzz...

read oldcatman (having some problems with the look of his page and he finally got his comments up! but they've gone away abit.. i hope that my comments havent gone poof!), lynn (has an article that got me blabbing just a bit... teehee... rant, more like it!), darksyde (hasn't put up new stuff but read some stuff from the archive!), greg (happy for him got his apt finally but he had a loos in his family which my deepest regrets go to him! he has to stop and clean the salad... remember you can get salad poisoning!!), average white guy (happy that he's getting his blog noticed! great read with his greivances!!!), hit n run (the ukranian! what can u say when they f**k each other, thats fine but then they f**c with others, what do u expect with politics!!!), and ginger (she brought the below out of me!) today...



ginger is a really interesting read... such great strenght, she has! Richie* is wanting to take over her space, but she seems to put him in his place! sheesh the thing about the tv... well i'm not doing anything so why don't i have the tv! then you do the cooking! i guess i dont know how to share properly... i guess. that will be something i will have to go through when it comes up or if it ever comes up! been single for 1 1/2 had a few f**/friends but that is it! the last relationship i was in took alot out of me. it was long distance i was with him 3 1/2yrs and then poof it ended... well not really poof, but it was well complicate, on my part! I was a bit under stress at my job and he had come to stay with me for the summer and was not working then he got sick and then i was just fad up with it... he didnt do nothing but watch tv. i worked 10-12hrs long and paid all the bills, even the net which he used constantly and if i wanted to use it he was like "don't be too long on it!" so things just got worse.. he had mono (i dont know from where cuz it wasn't from me!), which he ended in the hospital over night i was at my girlfriends visiting my godchild. 'k so i didnt go visit him or go at all!! he got out and came back home he spend another month at my place and by the end of august he was gone back to toronto! i visit him and decided that i had been a bitch and well tried to be nicer but by then he was no you go away. i can never count on you cuz you weren't there when i needed you the most the even dedicated a song to me by avril lavigne "Losing Grip"



nice, eh? well, i guess i did deserved it! i speak to him once in a while to see what's up with him... he doesn't want to have a relationship with a woman for a long time. shit, i guess i ruined him for others... oh well! what i do miss is the great sex that we had. a secret, i was his first, no he's not wierd just that he hadn't find the right person and he thought he had found it in me! so, i f**ked it up!! major, but i didn't want to hurt him as i realized that i did love him but he just put so much pressure on me that summer that i was just at my wits end! i know now that i shouldn't have done that but it happen and i cannot go back and erase what happen! the only thing to do is to move on, which i have done! laterzzz...

been reading all sorts of blogs.. and updating all my signups putting them all in one email. why do i have like 9 of them... sheesh... too much mail to sort out.. crazy chick...



hey discovered via kungfoo.com a really great blog by lynn carrier and from there i got darksyde. i blog rolled them both. lynn put a little snippet about me... which i'm deeply flattered! sweet.. :) i also informed him of OLDCATMAN which is really good!!! all this happened all due to him cuz i clicked a link on his site! so went to see spent atleast 3hrs there... and then bang it all began!!! happy and happy!! thx... i even joined... teehee... now im hooked to that kungfoo... crazed...

also found another site which i like pretty candy and in korean but like it! candybardolls this is my child side that hasn't gone away! cuz i still watch cartoons, 'k!!! very happy with it!!! I've also been thinking of putting all the stuff i've watched over my 30 yrs... will see... hee... i wrote some down and shit did i spend tons of time as a kid infront of the tube! and i remember going to camp and doing stuff.. when did i find time for all those toons and sitcoms!! wow!!! ooh and the new one's that are coming out this fall!! like:

- snip/tuck

- luis

- tru calling starting Eliza Dushku from buffy (too bad it ended :(...) & angel(can't wait for it! Spike is moving in! yah!!! action, tons!!!!)



did i mention i love the wb all the hot shows are there but i don't get it but i do get them through fox 44 (which i love), i get the vermont one which is not f**kedwith all the canadian crap! how you say, well bunny ears work really good on my 70s tv! yep i got a 70s tv and proud its about 21'in or less i think! but hey it works perfect! i know i need to change it but i don't watch as much tv as i use to!!! i wish i was back in the US so much easier... mommy, im coming home to watch your tube!!! 'k?



my favorites are starting soon... listening to no doubt: rock steady album! that Gwen Stefani, form no doubt such a babe,,, and i ain't no lez but she's hot no?



gwen stefani vocals for the group 'no doubt.' one of my favorite groups! they rock visit them at: www.nodoubt.com



what you think???



gonna go see some tv... laterz...

OLDCATMAN my deepest regrets on your lose.

A small town in Ontario will be emailing their politician to stop or decrease the fast changes that are taking place in Canada. One particular, the issue of same sex marriages.

A group of scientist set out to research why do the French stay slim! So, does the size of a meal matter? Lead researcher Paul Rozin, PhD, a psychologist at the University of Pennsylvania, gives one suggestion, that if portions are served somewhat smaller than what people normally eat. We may be satisfied with that. The article appears in the September issue of the journal Psychological Science. But how about desert?

The question: Can you teach a man to be romantic?. Well, the answer is "no!" but it has #3 tips of how to direct him:
1. spell it out - guide him with a road map to what you want!
2. try not-so-subtle hint - help him and hint to what you want!
3. avoid being bossy - dont tell him what you want, instead give him some pointers!

It's going to cost tens of billions to put Iraq back together. It will be up to American taxpayers and foreign government to put the infustracture of Iraqs economy on the map! <---said U.S. occupation coordinator L. Paul Bremer 8/26. The Washington Post

Elections 2004!!!



My favorite: HOWARD DEAN! sleepless summer!

Can't seem to do anything right. had a mcgriddle which i know is going to expand in size! Crap!! send a few emails. nothing much today...



watched the news and saw a wierd thing called "canine eyewear" the company is in Germany. Like, if you love your dog, you need to buy him tres expensive eyewear: it protects against uva, water, sand, dust. crazy! what will they come up with next? kitty dance lessons!



The regis and kelly show is having the 9th annual "ugliest couch contest." Last year, Tim Finn of Bullhead City, Arizona (the couch was orignally bought for a whore house!) won $10,000.00 (1st price). 23,000 people voted at surefit.net a company that makes slip covers. This year the 1st price is for 5,000.00. All 3 final contestants will be flown to NY free of charge in Sept and a live studio audience will vote for the #1. dang! the things that people come up with... I guess we need to be kept entertained!



Anyways, regretfully the "5$-a-day" daycare that was implemented by the Partie-Quebecois here in Quebec in 1996, is in a bind now. The Liberals are going to be deciding the fate starting Aug/27 here in Montreal and then taking it to Quebec City (the capital of Quebec) for the week to come.



The "MTV - Video Music Awards" is being held on Thursday 8/28/03. Cool... I'll try to see it or tape it!! Chris Rock's gonna be in the house as this years HOST!!! Yah!



Took out squawkbox and put in backblog. but it's still giving me problems im going to see if i try it later... to do it... too tired now... laterzzz...

At sympatico read the wildfires in Kelowna, BC. Those fires are destroying a beautiful place. Thank goodness atleast the winds have calmed a bit. Then read the bombings in Bombay, India. Spread of attacks drives me wild. The terrorist should be dealt with as soon as possible, innocent people are dying all across the world due to these crazy f**kers!!!



Read my usual msn site. Read about skin tips, flat monitors and what are jokes? Nothing really on there. As I went to check out my email that had tons of freaken' spam!



A song that I like it! Love the lyrics (Spanish):



No me ames [Don't love me]

by J-Lo & Marc Anthony



(he)Dime porque lloras [Tell me why you cry?]



(she)De felicidad [From happiness]



(he)Y porque te ahogas [And why do you drown?]



(she)Por la soledad [From loneliness]



(he)Y porque me tomas [Why do you take me]

Fuerte asi, mis manos [so hard like that, my hands]

Y tus pensamientos [And your thoughts]

Te van llevando [take you away]



(she)Yo te querio tanto [I love you so much]



(he)Y porque sera [And why is that?]



(she)Loco testarudo [Crazy-dumb]

No lo dudes mas [Don't doubt it any more]

Aunque en el futuro [Even though in the futur]

Haya un muro enorme [There could be a huge wall]

Yo no tengo miedo [I have no fear]

Quiero enamorarme [I want to fall in love]



(he)No me ames, porque pienses [Don't love me, because you think]

Que parezco diferente [that I look different]



(she)Tu no piensas ques es lo justo [Don't you think is just]

Ver pasar el tiempo juntos [for us to see time pass by]



(he)No me ames, que comprendo [Don't love me, I understand]

La mentira que seria [The like that would be]



(she)Si tu amor merezco [If your love I deserve]

No me ames, quedate otra dia [Don't love me, stay another day]



(he)No me ames, porque estoy perdido [Don't love me, because I'm lost]

Porque cambie el mundo, porques es el destino [Because the world changes, because it's destiny]

Porque no se puede, somos un espejo [Because it can't be, we are a mirror]

Y tu asi serias lo que yo de mi reflejo [And you would be my reflection]



(she)No me ames, para estar muriendo [Don't love me, so I can be dying]

Dentro de una guerra llena de arrepentimientos [Inside of a war filled with regrets]

No me ames, para estar en tierra, quiero alzar el vuelvo [Don't love me, to stay on earth, I want to fly]



(both)Con tu gran amor por el azul del cielo [With your great love in the bluest of the sky]



(he)No se que decirte, esa la verdad [I don't know what to say to you, that is the truth]

Si la gente quiere, sabe lastimar [If people really want, they can hurt]



(she)Tu y yo partiremos [You and I will leave]

ellos no se mueven [They don't move]

Pero en este cielo sola no me dejes [but in this sky don't leave me alone]



(he)No me dejes, no me dejes [Don't leave me, don't leave me]

No me eschuches, si te digo "no me ames" [Don't listen to me, if I tell you "don't love me"]



(she)No me dejes, no desarmes [Don't leave me, don't break]

Mi corazon con ese "no me ames" [My heart with that "don't love me" phrase]



(he)No me ames, te lo ruego [Don't love me, I beg you]

Mi amargura dejame [My bitterness leave me]



(she)Sabes bien, que no puedo [You know, that I can't]

Que es inutil, que siempre te amare [That it's impossible, I will always love you]



(he)No me ames, pues te hare sufrir [Don't love me, cuz I'll make you suffer]

Con este corazon que se lleno de mil inviernos [With this heart filled with a thousand winters]



(she)No me ames para asi olvidarte de tus dias grises [Don't love me to forget your gray days]

Quiero que me ames solo por amarme [I want you to love me just to love me]



(he)No me ames, tu y yo volaremos [Don't love me, you and I will fly]

Uno con el otro y seguiremos siempre juntos [One with the other and will always stay together]



(she)Este amor es como el sol que sale tras de la tormenta [This love is like the sun that comes out after the storm]



(both)Como dos cometas en la misma estela [Like two comets in the same heaven]



(he)No me ames [Don't love me]

(she)No me ames [Don't love me]

(he)No me ames [Don't love me]

(she)No me ames [Don't love me]

(he)No me ames [Don't love me]





Well, this is for now... Laterz...