MEME found somewhere??

10 years ago, I...
1. Was unemployed
2. Going to CIBLE for my DEP in Secretarial Studies...
3. Living downtown with Sandy (blonde going out with a filipino) and Tanya (artist who had 2 rats

and was going to Paris in the summer to study there)
4. I started to get interested into Asian men
5. Had my first Asian boyfriend 'Pan Zheun' a HK guy who introduce me to all that is Asian!

5 years ago, I...
1. 2nd year of University
2. Ended relationship with Joe and took up with my second Asian boyfriend who was born in Canada
3. Working 3 jobs...
4. Confussed as hell about men.
5. My beautiful kitty BEBE dissapeared! :~(

Today I ...
1. Woke up still recovering from my surgery
2. Still in pain but realizing MORPHINE will be my bestest friend for awhile
3. Put the humidifier on...
4. Wrote all about my surgery
5. Learned that i still have a hard time with drinking my fluids

Tomorrow, I will...
1. Go see Dr. Sweet
2. B-g has his big lecture
3. Stay relaxed
4. Start up my Scrapbook once again
5. Concentrate on me.

5 Snacks I Enjoy:
1. Banana chips
2. Melon shake
3. Oatmeal cookies
4. A bowl of Special K w/ a drizzle of honey
5. Flan or Custard

5 Songs I know all the words to, even with out the Music:
1. Untitled
2. Borderline
3. Bohemian Rhapsody
4. Tell It To My Heart
5. Cherish

5 Things I would do with $100,000,000:
1. Finish School
2. Invest it
3. Buy a house
4. Give money to my family
5. Go around the world with B-g

Top 5 Locations I'd run away to:
1. Hawaii any of the Islands
2. Tokyo, Japan
3. Bermuda
4. Amsterdam, Netherlands
5. New Zealand

5 Bad habits I have:
1. Biting my skin around my fingernails until it bleeds
2. Ordering way more food than I can eat
3. Not exercising
4. Talking too much
5. Watching way too much TV

5 Things I like Doing:
1. Getting to know new people
2. Sleeping
3. Watching TV
4. Shopping
5. Reading

5 Things I would Never Wear:
1. skirts & dresses
2. Shorts
3. licra everything
4. Stiletto Heels (wabble wabble)
5. T tops

TV Shows I like:
1. CSI
2. Charmed
3. Lisence to grill
4. Lost
5. O.C.

5 Movies I like:
1. Big Fish
2 50 First Dates
3. Wedding Singer
4. Back to the Future 1-3
5. Labyrinth

5 Famous people I'd like to Meet:
1. Angelina Jolie
2. Drew Berrymore
3. Keanu Reeves
4. Whoopi Goldberg
5. Margaret Cho

5 Biggest Joys at the Moment:
1. Reading blogs
2. Sleeping not feeling the pain
3. My Kitty Carly
4. My love B-g [which at times i like to ring his neck, but still love]
5. MORPHINE!!!

so thursday 23rd was app. day with Dr. Sweet... waited 35min to see him. was a bit in pain but could manage it. asked him why did it hurt so much and he said because he had made more room in my mouth and pulled some muscles and had to reattached them differently... it will take a while for it to all go back to place once again. it has to do with the brain and the body how it all will come together. i can't eat and drinking is pretty painful. he gave me another refill of morphine as i was truly low on the first doses b-g had given me. i also take 2 tylenol every 4hrs to keep me a bit numb and don't relly on the morphine 100%... i wish i could atleast have some pudding or jello or ice cream... i can't even have semi-solids. Dr. Sweet said it may take a while before i can eat semi-solids...i been loosing weight as the only intakes are water, and at times some juices [melon, berry]... had luke-warm beef stock, it was too much for my mouth... as my taste buds are fucked too, the doc said that he had to push my tongue back and due to that i have slashes on my tongue and can't taste stuff properly...
i am so not hungry, i get scared to eat cuz even when the water passes through my throat it hurts to swallow and if i don't swallow it goes into my wind pipe. apparently i had huge tonsils and had very little space to breath inside my throat. so, the it wasn't an average tonsil surgery. which i am not happy but the doc said that now i will be perfect from the inside out... no more snoring... heee... i guess i got perfection inside my mouth... but the pain!!! i need to take another dose of MORPHINE!

the fridge look as of this week (freezer always looks pretty much packed!!):

this morning was really bad... was caughing alot which i should not do cuz it will make me bleed and i really don't want to go to the ER... i taken some morphine for the pain and it's gotten better but i feel so droppy! still to call for the app. on thurs with Dr., Sweet but no one answers the phone, instead it's and answering and we left a message yesteday and one right now... what is up with this... i have had 30ml of water... i have to take it slow...my throat is not handling it very well, i choke i don't know if that is normal... i will tell the doc once i see him... i've asked b-g that if he hears me cough during the night to please wake me as i can bleed and then hello ER... no freaken way! i can say that my experience at the Royal Vic was mixed! i love the peeps in the recovery room, they have such care for their patients and as for the floors above well, the peeps just plainly don't really care... you have to be an asshole to them to give you good care or atleast what you want! i am a lucky one as i had an advocate for me that is in the system and can somewhat move the situation to be at my favor! for that i am truly greatful at b-g!! is that our system really sucks or was it that i experience a 1 time thing... i just don't want someone else who doesn't have what i had as a back up to go through the same things as i did or even worse!!

surgery started at 9:00-9:15am... i was no nervous but did not show it so much.. b-g paid $15 for parking at the front entrance, no monthlies are allowed. went to A-125 to register... funny, they could not find my file anywhere but was upstairs already. b-g kept talking to me and getting me nervous as hell to the point that i snapped at him to stop the conversation... Went upstairs 5th floor, to get checked-in, vitals were taken. q&a followed, allergies, sick, operated before, etc... was asked to come back in 1/2 hr later, to get prep for surgery. the guy that was at the front desk was really nice... all the names are blurry to me now... an older lady helped my to get ready for the surgery, when i came 1/2 later... 2 to gowns, blue slippery things, and just kept my undies... all my closthes were put in a yellow bag and my sandals in a clear plastic bag...attached was a green tag with my stats, put it together with my over-night bag... i this point i was clueless if i was going to stay or not? i was in limbo... i was led to the outside of the OR by an orderly lady... i made small chat... told them that if they kill me that i was a organ donor so please keep me breathing so they could take from me what they can salvage... yes, im so optimistic, damn i was really nervous but now a days nothing is 100%!!! nothing! i waited for 45 min to and 1hr outside of the OR.. he was still operating on some one else... the same thing, i was told he was 33yo and was having his tonsils taken out too... i kept think that was the nurse's [she was the one at the pre-op clinic, she had told me that her boyf was getting the smae done but his were not that big, she was truly surprised!] boyfriend. Then a student came over name Stephanie, she was an exchanged student from Holland that was rotating with Dr. Sweet [his name describes him to the T, he also reminds me of Mr. Rogers].She stayed for awhile and kept chit-chatting myself more then she... i told her i was scared and said if i die bla bla, all that crap and more... then the nurse that helps Dr. Sweet came and i started chit-chat w/ her, too... she asked all the questions all over again... and i proceeded to tell her... common policy that many asked the same so i guess i won't change my answers... heee... Dr. Sweet came and talked to me, aksed me some questions and told me i was staying over night. met the anesthiologist Dr. Bandi [she made a joke saying the way to remember my name is that it sounds like BANDIT but with out the 'T,' i thought it was funny! because i still rmember her name, it worked!] waited another 5-10min until the OR was clean. i was wheeled in and i transfer myself to the OR table. where i met an assistant and another Dr.?? [do i remember no, i was like shitting bricks by this time!], Dr. Bandi was there to my right and near my head was Dr. Sweets nurse. Some guy was preparing the tools for Dr. Sweet. I got my IV put but they numbed my skin first before the rpick. they could not find vains in the back of my hand, the Dr had to help the assistant find a vien. i was so nervous, but once they put in the medz... they started to burn up my arm... they said it was normal... then i started to shake more like a freaken leaf... they thought i was cold but nope it was my nerves, they gave me something to relax... the last thing i heard was: 'this is to make you relax.' apparently i fell asleep crying, i guess from the nerves...
i don't remember anything... i was transferred to the recovery area... a really pretty nurse [that recognized b-g] was really sweet, she was so attentive to my pain, that when i said i hurt, she took out a needle and put meds into my IV it felt great!!! i felt i got top A+ treatment, very happy there... another nurse took over she was really, really nice too... dang, do IVs make you pee like crazy!! i got some stuff up my butt and in my IV... i was told that i came out of the surgery in a really bad shape: crying, pulling my neck, saying it was really painful, and to help me... etc... i was not taking the pain easily. i was out of it, really bad... as it wasn't just the tonils they took out but they cut my first pillars of my pallet and put in some stitches! MAJOR pain!!!
Dr. Sweet, Dr. Bandi and Natalie came to see me. then ear, nose, throat resident Dr. Mohamed Al Eisa was called because i could not swallow my own saliva. then it was recommended that the ICU resident come, which she did. i put my best foot forward and pretended it was not so bad [came to regret it later!] and that i didn't want to go to ICU... plus, no tv there to like entertain me, no freaken way!! so instead they gave me nebulized epinephrine adreneline, [constrict the blood vessels in my throat] which made me feel way better... but i was slow to recover usually it takes 2hrs but for me it took 6hrs (10am to 4pm), i knew it cuz i am slow at freaken healing... so it was decided that i go upstairs to 9SW. i met this really nice blonde nurse that wanted them to keep me for another 2hrs but i encourage them that i was feeling ok and that i could go now... i just wanted to watch tv but none was to be had until 8:45pm, which sucked!!! Dr. Bandi was really pre-occupied that is why they send for all the docs to come and see me... i apperntly i was looking green along the gills so better safe then sorry... next to me was this gentleman name Mr. Blake, he had a really huge belly. they were taking x-rays of it to see what he had. the assistant to the radiologist covered with the protective gear they have... [we bump into the readiologist when i was leaving the hospital and said to her i remember her and reminded her where i had seen her and she me... aaahhh it was fun! don't know her name but her face i won't forget or what she was wearing, heee... her greens were totally wrinkled and was wearing khaki shorts!].
b-g was allowed to stay with me in the recovery room, but because he was a staff he could, i was happy for that. b-g went up with me to the floor to get settled in but i started to realize my mistake once i got on the floor, the nurse rebbeca, the gernie lady, and a the orderly lady were all really not that nice...
after b-g left i went to see the toilet... dang, IVs... got 2 up my butt, one which burned and the other was tylenol...
was really in pain so i called the nurse [i wish i remembered her name cuz she freaken said NO to pain medz and even though Dr. Sweet had written that i could get IV medz they did not want me to have any! i found that later when b-g came! she even had the odasity to mark she gave me codine, which she didn't at around 6:10pm or something like that]. i cried for 2hrs as b-g was late he came around 8:45pm instead of 6:45pm, so did the tv guy $8 and 2$ tip... b-g came late, he was researching for his rounds talk on Thurs. in the auditorium of the Children's... he's going to be talking with a crowd 30 physicians and 2 or 3 of his directors of the general and the Childrens!!! so his really nervous!!!
was really in pain when he came and i told him all about it... he discussed it with the nurse [this was another nurse an elderly chinese lady shich kept pushing me to drink and have codine by mouth which i could not!! it hurt too much!] b-g said he wanted to speak to the resident incharged it was Dr. M. Al Eisa, which the ball started to roll... and got a shot of morphine [it kinda burn going in and took 20min to work] prescribed every 3hrs if i wanted it! when it was in my system and i was dopped up i could manage to drink a bit and have some ice chips... i felt better... b-g left at 10:45pm and i went on to watch some tv... but the nurses were sopushie to get me to drink while i was in so much pain... fucken' women!!! this is my thing, everyone has different levels of pain management mine is pretty low... i cannot hold my pain no freaken way!! when i hurt i want something for my pain!!! just wait, during registration they asked me if i could signed a paper to allow the hospital to call me back about my feedback on how i was treated, oh just wait... plus i will be sending a written letter to the nurse co-ordinator [Patricia Meridith] explaining what happened at the time of my stay. that i didn't even have the proper papers to tell me what to do, who to call if any problems, that they didn't even make me an appointment to be followed up they told me to call...
tryied to fall asleep around midnight, i did wake up many times during the night i was a bit uncomfortable... my vitals were taken, my meds for inflamation were given through the IV and i ask for some liquid codine to take [by this time it was a different nurse a black chubby lady].
i woke at 4:45 am and started to watch tv... got a new IV put in the person who did it was such a biatch, bumbling to herself and dropping the IV sack and just being pure miserable... she even left huge bubbles in my IV... i was scared that i asked to be taken of as soon as the doc said yes... freaken people no wonder Canada has the 2nd highest mortality rate is in the field of medecine, the first is Cancer...
the ENT resident Dr. Mohamed AL Aise came at 7:30am asking if i wanted to go home, how i was feeling and asked me to talk more and exercise my muscles... bla bla... yeah be in my condition and then tell me to talk ass... i told him that the nurses were not giving me nothing but tylenol for pain... he just nodded and that alteast i was going home and i said yeah, ALIVE! sheesh... but he was a bit nice cuz b-g gave him a talk yesterday... heee... i love it when b-g gets all manly and powery, it just makes me feel so special, all warm and fuzzy inside!! he would prescribe the medz for pain & inflamation!
Dr. Sweet came around 7:45am and asked almost the same questions but also asked what program i was watching: 'shaolin ???' cartoon on fox... i said to him 'still a child at heart!' he just laughed... he said i will see him in 2 days at his office... also, asked him the names of nurses in the recuperation room. he didn't know. so, i said i would pass by [which i did not but will be sending them something! they were so nice to me, i know its their job but they were really tentive to my every needs and pains!]. and i also told him that he's also in my thoughts, i didn't forget about him... 10 min later Natalie [Holland transfer student] came and i talk to her for awhile and told her what was upsetting me.. she said i looked better, she nodded and listen... and said bye... by 9:30 am she had left and the new nurse min-tou and her ass. nurse Ashley came to take my vitals and asked them to take my IV out and to tell me when the doc prescribe my medz to tell me cuz i want to be discharged! ASAP!!
at 10am i got my IV taken out so much blood came out of it, ashley helped me, as i took it out, it was a tiny plastic tube not a needle as i thought. as they saw that i had a bit of jello and water with ice chips... asked for more codine got 15cc but it did not easy my pain at all... i asked for more and why they were being stingy with the medz... i could not get any until the nurse came back from break! i was stuck with the Ashley girl!! i told her it's not her is just i cannot take pain!! she said she could not do anything and that i had to wait for the nurse to comeback... so i did and asked her...they had given me a concentrated dose but i told her that it wasn't working and that i couldn't take any fluids due to the pain! but she couldn't give me more so i left it like that...
i called b-gand asked him to come and get me... called Steph, she was happy to hear from me.. called Mondo and said i was ok in his answer machine and to call me... which he did later but i was so dopped up and had been talking to Steph for awhile i was sure i would be in pain once the morphine was gone out of my system. said to put it on an email of blog it for him to know how it all went...
when i came into the room it was a 4 bed room, there was only 1 person on bed #4 a lady who had
belly-surgery, gastro bypass surgery, she was pretty heavy... b-g recognized the physician that came to see her... that is how we found out!
then bed #3 was filled up in the evening a very pretty Hetian lady, thought at first to be too snobby but not really she was probably very serious due to her surgery, not known?
and in themorning bed #2 was filled by and older lady who was going to hve galblatter stone surgery. but she first went to get her colon looked upon, that is what she said and came back really drowsy [more like out of it!]. her surgery will be later on the day... some one came to visit and keep her company! she felt a bit nauseas...
got discharged around 11 am and i was of to my home... aaahhh, home... went to get meds and b-g percribed me MORPHINE [it's my hero, as you can see i'm dopped up!!! aaahhh, no pain!], it's my new love!! i feel nothing with it! love it!

on my notepad:

as i watch tv here on my bed... i glanced at musiqueplus,

minnie & roxie wear. that's what caught my eye...

gas prices are high as hell, due to the demand!!! Canada prairie rivers are overflooding! file sharing in Canada will be illegal... ex. Cold Play's new CDs are not allowed to be copied at all, but how can they stop it, i find ittoo be a little too late for this law...

took my shower with the special soap... b-g made his coffee... dress and ready... party on.... aaaaahhhh help... can someone go for me please... i don't want to... aaahhh, i'm late need to be there for 7am and the surgery is for 8:30am...

laterzzz....

so ok i have been in pins in needles all day... what i did to take my mind of is clean the house... first i started with the bathroom. i smelled that the cat litter box needed changing so i did it then realize that the floor got all dirty over the freaken cat litter... i then put on my trendy cleaning clothes... you really dont want to know as i clean bearly naked... heee....as to not get any bleach on me or my precious clothes... heee... so that was my afternoon.. taking me 1 1/2 hr... the floors had to be done twice they were filthy! yukkkies... played 2 games of spider solitaire... oooh... about games yesterday was a very interesting night...went to bed at 4am... met this guy 22yo... has a child and well the girlf is a total dominating-b ... so i told him what he should do.. talk to her and explain how he feels and all that... so we played and chatted until 4 am... which was great... but before all that... i had a wonder full evening with another player a lady for Cali, she was ordering Mexican... yummm.... b-g was at the library researching for his talk on Wed. he's nervous like crazy but the way he handles nerves is not good cuz he tends to sleep alot!!! so getting back i went to see C but was not so talkative to her... i ended ignoring her and playing with the 22yo, instead... she went to bed and that's how my Sat night went... b-g worked overnight... so now he's exhustated... he cannot believe i cleaned so much... cuz i started on the spear room where we keep all our crap we cannot use or have too much of... my mom & sis called they went to REDLOBSTER, b-g's fav. yummm.... ooouuuuuucccchhhhhiiieeesss, my legs, back and let's just say my total body hurts!! i am in so much pain... i rather be like this then feel the stress of the up coming surgery... which i need to be there at 7 am.. already took my icky cleanning shower, my first with that special soap... and another i need to take tomorrow morning... aaaahhh.... ok... time for bed!!! surgery it will all be good...

joined blogshares... it's so addictive... a very nice guy/man help me get lots of money... he was so good... his name face 2 interface! he gave me 10 shares as a gift and through that i made quite a bit.... he has 3 sites that are all in German... but pretty cool... also found some of the peeps i read:
OLDCATMAN: i bought 100 shares... i left the link at in his comments box! hope he's doing good and he got his new cane!
jen jen: i did buy some! heee... icklebug...

maps.google [still in the beta stages] was thanks to OHB, he has it on his site... i found excatly where i live scary... aaaahhh.... heeee.... then emailed me terraserver.microsoft... want but where to put it: blogpoll.

p-pine & Carly playing!!!

hate the fact that i have to go and get surgery, not fair but i guess life is not fair and then you die!!!!!! everyone says it's gonna hurt... hte pain doesn't get me as much as the fact that i will be under... that's all... b-g says not to worry that it's such a common surgery like a cold... so, i should just give it up... he has not been a very understanding person! aaaahhh... he's worried about his own things: doing rounds, his billing, cleaning his so called office... which i cannot help on any of that cuz he doesn't let me... he loves to bitch about it though!
Oprah was terrible yesterday... i let out all my cries out... i cannot believe that the world is so disgusting... to imagine that in S. Africa men think that by raping babies they can be cure of AIDS. that is freaken crazy!! and in Italy father's are prostituting their own sons for money... man, i think that life is fuckin insane... there is so much out there that many don't want to know and don't care to know... many of the clothes and articles we have in our own homes are made by children, who work instead of going to school and living thier lives... a child born in N. America is the most luckiest! they have advantage that others don't or will never have...
why are we so selfish and self-absorbed?? is that being human?

me this afternoon, not dress or anything, still in my morning look. lazy like always, freaken werb cam, makes my boobs look huge! notice i need to loose weight too... aaahh the life of a woman! been at my pc all day, looking for a website that i cannot for the life of me find. as i logged in yesterday to my pc all of a sudden all my bookmarks have been erased. what happened to them i have no idea, i been upset ever since. it's been like a few yrs i have had them and they were all nicely arranged freak... aaaarrrgggghhhh, ok, i need to go now... its getting late and its time for gundam see... may come back later... i hate the heat aaahhh... u see!

net-zombie-kitty!!

6.30 am wake-up... thinking that i need to take a shower... he didn't come to wake me... it was really good... left at 7.40am. was at the pre-op clinic excatly by 8.15am... waited 45min to see the nurse and it went like fast... bang! she was amazed at how big my tonsils were... she could only said 'HUGE!' funny her boyfriend is having the same surgery, his right tonsil is swollen... i told her that's how mine started and it's good that he got it earlier then me! heee... i flew through seeing the doctors but the waiting was horrible! we left 10.30am. came home made lunch for b-g and me... i hate the heat! it's going to be hot for the next few days... hopefully, renovations to the closet will start monday or tuesday...

funny thing, reading the news paper yesterday it seems that a woman's ability to reach an orgasm is partially related to her genes... i am glad that my parents had good genes for that on! heee...
trying out my webcam... i don't use it at all... i should... gonna think about that one... heee...

i had a some what ??? day.. i went to get my bloods done... sheesh.. freaken 4 bottles what's that all about. VAMPIRES, i tell u!! i almost fainted.. i heard b-g saying r u ok and then the chick saying wawawawa... the room started spinning and suddenly i'm semi-supine, i started to feel a bit better then she started to say something about not having smaller towels. i felt this cold comress on my head and under my neck. she asked if i was ok.. i felt a little shy as the door to the waiting room was open and i heard the old people waiting whispering... i don't know as most were oriental... i lay there for 5 min... the nurse was a bit scared, she told me not to do that and to talk but i couldn't i felt so weak.. i guess it was because i had't eaten anything since the day before... on top of it all i had to take a piss into a cup for freaken analysis the f%$#!!! i found the nurse to be so sweet telling me to take my time when i was ready to go to the toilet to go and then give it to her... freak i think she wanted to carry me to the waiting room i felt her arms all around my boobs and waist... i tried to get away but i just went a bit limp, b-g was just in the sides... i tell you he was not worried at all... i felt he didn't care... but brushed it off... i need to rethink certain things now a days. that's something else... i wish... so, i sat and then went to the b-room and me being such souch a dumb-ass i wet my undies... thx god it wasnt much! but still i had to get back and take a shower and change clothes... yuk!!! the things... getting back to the bloods, i come back and she takes the blood cannesters, pee and the sheet puts a rubber band around it and says take it to room #718 on the 7th floor... heee... i hated the elevator ride i was so freaken weak i felt the gravity pulling me up and down, it sucked... not once did b-g ask if i was ok... he just kept talking about other patients and then a collegue here and there popped up saying hi!! so no time for me... now, its late... i wanted to save money so i say just take me home, plus i was feeling terribly weak still... freaken heat... i felt so unloved... as i cooked my own food and ate by myself... oooh, he had eaten before we left... i had to wait for him to finish eating his meal... he said there was time not to get my panties in a bunch... bla bla...
shit i never took so much shit from a guy, i think i'm becoming a weak woman... no way!!! that ain't happening to me... i feel so sad... now im hoping not to wake up!!!

JAG's meme totally rocks!! yah!! that got my spirits up! she's a sweety... she has always come out of the woodwork when i feel shitty... thx...

it started out so good... the bed was great, b-g was next to me, which surprise me cuz my snoring doesn't let him sleep.. i should put an audio of it on my blog, b-g taped me about 1wk ago... i sound awful... like i'm choking!
getting back to food factors, i wake with an inspiration of burrito-matin, hashbrowns w/ sprinkles of cheese and smokies... but my dream was chattered when i got the call... i need to go in on Thursday at 8:15am for PRE-OP at the Royal-Vic. and that made me remember that i needed to go to the general to do my bloods... i freak, so food went out the window and now i'm freaken hungry!! those yummy nip-apples look good!
the view is on... Rosie's replacing Star for today. talking about she made what she's wearing into a vest. crazy, the protest about breast feeding... yikes... what the hell, breast feeding monkeys??? now, i need to go take a shower and get ready if i want to go for 1-1.30pm. as they close at 3.30pm. i need to do it before tomorrow! shit!! i am late!!
oooh i feel like a tim horton's ice cappuccino!! yum!!
once the shower is done... b-g will be back and i will make him a brunch meal and watch him eat! god! i feel so hungry...
ooohhh, i have to remind b-g to like stock up no jell-o my fav. STRAWBERRY!!! oohh, pudding too... i cannot eat the regular foods when i have my freaken throat cut! dang, i cannot believe i have to get my tonsils out! why can't there be meds instead of freaken, cutting me!! i'm thinking of joining the recipe box at kraft! what a fantastic invention jell-o has been... it's enjoyed by the young and the old... heee... mr. bloopy's thumb print is in this part of my post... to quote him:
"... i mean it smells so freakin' yummy that, after pouring in the two cups of cold water, you almost don't wanna wait for it ..."

"... you realize that drinking jello instead of waiting for it to congeal is what separates us from the animals?"

a few recipes that i may try from the jello-kraft site that i'm thinking of trying:
- peaches 'n cream pie
- lemon pudding cheesecake
- easy banana creme brulee


those are good for now... found shortcake site! i don't think i will be eating whole foods for a long while... knowing me i will freaken heal slower then a snail walks...

will wait for DVD:
Howl's Moving Castle
Saving Face
Memoirs of a Geisha


here is a bunch enjoy! OHB has named them... heee...

books i want:
* Practical Korean Cooking by Noh Chin-Hwa, Shirley Dorow
* Traditional Korean Cooking (Traditional Korean Cooking) by Noh Chin-Hwa
* The Best of Indonesian Desserts by Boga, Yasa

i hate the heat... why is it that i was not born a freaken seal or penguin... talking about penguins a new movie "March Of The Penguins" narrated by Morgan Freeman starts June 24,2005! it's a year in the life of emperor penguins. they travel where miles and miles into the deep artic tundra in search for romance and family... i can't wait! i have boycotted the cinema but for this i will make an exception! yep, i will wait until the movie is either on dvd or on tv... i will give a cinema $10 bucks or more for a movie... when i can wait patiently for them to come out free or a $3 dollar a pop! and if it's really good i can buy it! so there...
tony is funny, the pics of the icky guys wasn't what i was expecting but he made it all up with mr. simpson himself even though he's behind Jessica, he's still a cutie... heee... went to check out instapundit a law prof. from Tenn. who writes alot and doesn't look too bad! ooh not tomention is a band-guy! heee!!

i have been on the net all morning and i've seen so much... ok not much of the blogs which will be done by the end of the evening. mr. OHB has a his # number which he's daring anyone to call him... as his # will be changing on Friday! i thought about it... but still thinking... heee... if i called the conversation might gosomething like:
ME: hi (have always said it 1st, don't know why!)
OHB: hi
ME: so??? how's everything?
OHB: good. u?
ME: good, too... so, why did u do the # thing on ur website?
OHB: for fun, see who's the nut who'll call me first?

there u go i would be the nut!! heeee... and then a bit of dead air and nothing else to say but it was good taling to you and have a good one...

b-g wants me to make: an Indonesian dessert called Black Rice Pudding (Bubur Ketan Hitam)! still thinking on that one... need to get pandan leaves? need to google it first to see what it is... heee... been freaken googling the shou tao, chinese birthday bun, momoman, longetive peach, sou bao. why are most of the places where i found the yummies are freaken far away or in another language!!! aaaarrrgggghhh!! i know cuz we are so freaken' westernized!! it's so freaken hot i feel like i will melt... poor ms. kitty is like not moving for dear life... she's in front of the sliding doors... heee not moving at all... she looks dead but she ain't have been going to poke her once in a while to see if she's still alive, suffering the heat with me... i cannot be alone on times like this... i think i am now bla bla bla... gonna go play some games at canada.com or yahoo games... shit haven't set up the AIM dang... what's wrong with me... bloopy left me msg explaining what momoman means it goes like this:

bloopy said... unless the chinese word for "peach" is the same as the japanese word, i think a part of your problem is that while the bun may be chinese, the "momo" part of "momoman" is japanese for "peach". . .
and since those buns look a whole lot like peaches, i'm guessing that's where that part of the word came from. . . and if the "man" part is actually english so that it sorta means "peach man", it could be related to an old japanese fairy tale called "momotaro" which i guess sorta means something like "peach guy"... 4:28 AM, June 06, 2005

ooh... simple plan on the news... heee
'untitled' got it on itunes, about drinking and driving hopefully people will listen and not do it! vote for fav. Canadian group June 13 for People's Choice. would be great if i could get the recipe for A-pom it looks so appetizing... yum! very summery!

ok, i hate summer have i mention that before. such a nice poem at greg's. zhi yang left me a comment stipulating that it's singapore blogs. heee...
i want some momoman's what else can they be called? aaaahhhh!!! and google sucks, they have squat on the subject... am i not describing them properly or dothey simply don't exist. but i want to try them... b-g has never heard of them and he's Chinese but well born in Canada so that counts for being white in his book... heee... he says he's more white then he is Chinese so i guess he wouldn't know.. another dead end... aaaahhh...
OHB is so funny... he's hooked to blog explosion... but maintaining an eye on his system is a priority heee... he's such a lucky guy!!! aaarrrggghhh...

recipe for: momomans that i saw at charliebrown8989 at flickr... i got hungry for them.... i wanna learn how to make them... they look so cute... are they like mochi??? i would love the recipe for the momomans... they are so cute!!

yesterday i woke early took a shower and got ready to go get my medicare... ended up waiting for about 5 min. in total to re-new my medicare and get temp medicare to go to the doctor... the lady who was filing my data asked me if i lived with someone or not. i just looked at b-g and he responded 'yes, with me'... that got us called 'common law,' and he got told that i should be going on his insurance.... what the f$%#!!! i just looked at b-g and laughed... dang, i was a bit taken back! we waited to be called once again to take my pic... why, why, can't they use my old one... aaahhh!!! so it took less then a min. and $6 bucks later it was all done... walking out b-g went to thank the security guard for the information he had given us a week ago, to when to come because it gets freaken busy at the MALADIE place... dang!!! by the time we left 1/2 the room was full and getting fuller...

we ended up going to the general to get my throat looked at... i thought a few meds and everything will be running fine... but no, i had a freaken tube put in my nose. conlcusion JUNE 20, 2005 a MONDAY, will be my tonsil-surgery at the royal-vic, why at another hospital because the o.r. at the general is full for the summer. i tried to see if they could give me something for it but the only conclusion the doctor came to is surgery! great!!! not! i been booked i will get 3 calls to be confirmed... and all this is covered by medicare... which i am truly happy... yah!!!

now we're off to a strawberry-shortcake hunt at loblaws

summer for me sucks! i can't never enjoy it!! too freaken hot... i hate it!! i love fall and spring why can't we only have 3 seasons... aaahhhh... been blog surfing at blog explosion it's been fun!! but the heat is really killing me...

the Crazy Frog Axel F ringtone which made it to #1 on the UK charts! i can't believe that one!

dixler is a porn like site, this is my first one ever posted on my site! wow!!!

i learned that yahoo is trying to improve their email service by letting people send their digital photos in a thumbnail format so storage space and bandwith won't like go up the roof! and the images will be able to be inserted into an email by dragging them from a hard drive or website, using a small piece of user installed software. and it will be FREE!!
i watched dr.phil a few days ago and the only thing that stayed in my mind was "30-40 thousand polygamist reside in the USA... many in Colorado City!!" that is so crazy!

some sites i liked that came while browsing through blog explosion. misfits a place to that helps you get more traffic i got this one from orangehaired boy
from teammonkey i got spamshirt. steal these bottons site... it has like tons... too bad it doesn't have name buttons... i may do some but i don't like the button maker from kelsey, i prefer the one from luca zappa.

i love this one for the cutest kitty pic which reminds me of our Carly... aaahhh... i wanted to leave a msg but a 404 page came up... tristessa a very interesting read, lives in the same state as my family... she love sto drink and has a little girl... the Elmo's World post was really good... alexander josephine is a terribly interesting read and love the cup of tea/coffee which is next to the end of each post just lovely... this is just a station stop... that was my explosion surfing!! this happened a few days ago and well hadn't got around to blog. zhi yang came about through tony pierce, i am guilty of taking a look at his blog roll once in a while! as for this one no idea where it came from but what can i say lesbian erotica! i had been watching a few weeks ago the insider and ET were talking about pro-anerexia sites. i got curious and i googled it, which led me to blue dragonfly and will end on my reads. i think EX [contest] came from mr. bloopy, but i may be wrong!

this time around a Canadian chickie: Natalie Glebova born in Russia (her family move to Canada at the age of 12) the pretty 23 yrs, 5'11, blue eyes and a brunnette, motivational speaker for school age children/model, studies at Ryerson U Information Technology Management and Marketing, a classical pianist who loves summer, outdoors, sports, reading and researching healthy ways of living!

so surfing through the tube and and they were talking about sex positions from what country they come from so here are some:

Germany: missionary position
Spain: penis in the cleavage
England: s and m
France: oral
Greek: anal sex [very popular in ancient times]
Russia: full body massage and shaving the genitalia

that i got!!

with blog explosion!

had a great breakfast! yum... kitty sleeping and b-g has his boxers up in a bunch!
aaarrrggghhh...
b-g has to testify on a drunk-driver that came in a few weeks ago... he was the doc who was on duty and now they need his testimony of how drunk he was... apparently he hit someone and the paper work needed to get him was not given to b-g. the police did not follow protocol. b-g has called the prosecutor to get answers and but they have yet to call him. so, now b-g is up and arms... he's so cheeezzeeeeddd!!!

found at rieke's - neo counter... may use it? still thinking!

the letter and check!

so the evening started pretty nice... saw the OC season finale and ate gyro's... yum... then b-g went to get the mail and got me 3 pieces this time... so, i get an envelop 'the adminstrative offices of RPR/OFV: RECORDS DIVISION' in florida, it said... got me curious that i left the other 2 envelops at the corner of the bed... opened it up and was sorta dumbassed by the fact i didn't know why the 'RAMADA PLAZA RESORT' was sending me a boarding voucher? i asked b-g to look at it... he right aways says it's a scam... heee... i'm thinking i wonder just maybe... that freaken maybe gets me all the fuckin' time!! so i called and b-g is like 'and what planet do u live on? free only in ur wildest dreams!!' what it never hurts to call... so, i bla with the lady for about, yes, 10 minutes, and i let b-g talk to her as the hand phone died and i was really curious what the website the woman had given us was about... so, i went and read a bit but got bored after a few secs. i started thinking about those fake sites that scam you and decided to google the ramada and then call customer service which they they said they had no affiliations with the 'ramada plaza resorts.' now that got me curious even more and googled 'Ramada Plaza Resorts' and came upon: bling bling.... 1,570,000 searches! all bad... ok so i didnt check them all out but the few i did dang!! and btw b-g was still on the phone with the chick! i wrote on a piece of napkin 'ask her to call back' as she had our #... and i went back to the pc... b-g was not hanging up so i yelled his name to come here... i heard the phone and showed him my goods i had found on the net!
he loves the net at times... he finds it, its a source of so much information... he's a bit bombared by them at times, i think...
he spend about 2hr looking at which was the best car wax and found tons and tons and tons of sites... related to his important fascination of car-waxing stratagies... heee... that was like about 2weeks got this episode happened...
getting back to the freaken scam... i am so happy we didn't go that route!! thanks to the awful experience of others we didn't get scam! we got out of it just in time! thanks to: ripoff, consumer affairs, Fraudulent / Deceptive Vacation Packages, u rate it... the list goes on but these are a few that helped us...

been a while since the last time... i haven't felt an itch to write at all... i have change all my stuff becasue some stupid asshole!! was such a... you know what i have dealt with it and well i don't give a rats ass! that was my rant! i'm over it!

so things been ok... had a few fights with b-g but we are finally getting over them... i got my pc back yesterday! it was taken on Saturday... but before that i had no feelings to write down... i had been reading everyone else... some were good others, there is no updates. all good.

funny bloopy was in my dreams with tony... so funny, which i don't even know, i'm a total wierdo!!! so it went like this:
i was wearing a long white dress with tiny flowers all over it, it was a garden party... people kept picking them out, like i was a freaken' bush! tony and bloopy were sitting outside on the balcony/backyard talking. they were sitting on my new table & chair set that b-g and i bought 1 month ago.. there was this dark green moss growing on the wall where they were seated (why i remember that no idea)... i came closer to them and they stared at my dress like it was a freak show. i thought it was pretty i told them, they agree that it was not! started to argue about it and they pissed me off so much that i just walked away crying... but as i walked away, i heard tony's words 'i like my women without baggage!' and bloopy's laugh ringing in my ear woke me up... i was sobbing! it struck a core...

that was about 2 weeks ago...

by Ozzy

Voices, a thousand, thousand voices
Whispering, the time has passed for choices
Golden days are passing over, yeah

I can’t seem to see you baby
Although my eyes are open wide
But I know I’ll see you once more
When I see you, I’ll see you on the other side
Yes, I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side

Leaving, I hate to see you cry
Grieving, I hate to say goodbye
Dust and ash forever, yeah

Though I know we mus be parted
As sure as stars are in the sky
I’m gonna see when it comes to glory
And I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side
Yes I’ll see you, I’ll see you on the other side

Never thought I’d feel like this
Strange to be alone, yeah
But we’ll be together
Carved in stone, carved in stone, carved in stone

Hold me, hold me thight, I’m falling
Far away. distant voices calling
I’m so cold. I need you darling, yeah

I was down, but now I’m flying
Straight across the great divide
I know you’re crying, but I’ll stop you crying
When I see you, I see you on the other side
Yes. I’ll see you. see you on the othe side
I’m gonna see you. see you on the other side
God knows I’ll see you, see you on the other side, yeah

insanity would be the best policy or more like pure bliss... so i have been in a spiral to nothingness and somethingness... the picture gets smaller and smaller as it gets to the end... things keep coming up that will eventually faid into oblivion...

i decided to click on the next blog link and ended up at a couple's blog which seem so cute, i wish my man and i could do the same but regretfully it will never happen, he's to lost in his practice... i don't mind, it did however struct a cord with me when i was reading about them her name Debra she like HGTV and a nurse... she automatically reminded me of b-g he a loves HGTV and is a doc... ok so my analigy is dumb... but i found it to be a similarity. heee... his name Eric a producer and politically savy... they have 2 kitties and we have ms. Carly... I can't seem to see their aol site... they impacted me and change my depressive state... thx...

then i went around and landed on the following today:
* canadaka... a site to promote Canadian patriotism, nationalism, Canadian sovereignty and democracy.
* does the future belong to China? - article

April 28th:
* Laas - zulieka's man aka Freddy...
* christopher griffin a click that i did a few days ago but found movie site which i found to be pretty interesting!
* coffee cold... left a message there...
* cute asian chick from Singapore her name Sandee
* a young guy's life living on his own in Singapore, i like the simpleness of the site... 'simple perspective'
* another Singapore girl name Natalie...
* Gina left me a message on Jan 13 05 - 04:25:31, she has a very cute site..
* i cannot remember how i came upon this site... but found it cute... her name Kanu from India, she has a LJ i got kiss my pixels.
* blog patrol - free site statistics, reports, and graphs on Visitor Activity and Technology in real time for your blog

on April 25th:
* what can i say... Ron...
* beer guy... another Ron!
* reminded me of OCM... his name Don Singleton except that he supports Bush... heee...
* a little bit of insurance...
* in-motion... of the ocean, i just had to say that cuz it rhymed... no but really it was a site which has stuff about Montreal... it caught my eye... like Weight of the World Schools Challenge
* i liked her... 'overworked and underfucked' she will be going on my reads... that's for sure in a few days though...
* a Chinese radio station...
* Diva but she hasn't posted since April 25?
* Nickle Annie... this site was fun... i love her pic... from her i got the Which cocktail are you quiz...
* Claire Belle's site is very nice... done by flirt and anna of blogtogs...

the days... and the savers... what the fuck does that mean... beeatched out...

the days pass... and all i look forward is nothing. i hate that i cannot look foward to the future, at times. i like all that is pretty and cute and some that is bad and naughty. i have been in this loosing weight battle thing. why? because i need to go back to me. i have strayed from myself for long awhile. i take full responsibility for all my deeds. i need to take my life back from the gutter that i dropped it from, i have neglected all of me and none of me has been happy for a long time.

as i bitch about my life. i am making sushi rice and sweet red bean soup for tonight. i love that, cooking for him and feeling like a house-wify. probably, get a dessert from Nonya, b-g likes it. i want a commitment and i want to be not so stupid and dumb about/with men. the beans are still freaken hard as little rocks. i want a change, i don't really know what i want but i know 100% that i want a change in my life. for now i concentrate on my body image that is so distorted, that needs my full attention.

so, i printed 3 copies of the 'order forms' for the stamps, thanks to bloopy for the site... he is such a sweety. reminds me of my best friend mondo [his site is down]. too bad he's so far away... if my life would have turned out different i would still be living in a LA, but no my mother had to, like, jump ship and run to the north... freak... that is a story within a story... never mind. let's not talk about the past is too but too sad and painful!

b-g is... tired had a 12 hr shift at the children's and now he's out at a meeting. he's so devoted to his practice i am very happy for him. he works hard and loves what he does. but things are not progressing to something that i want and wished for a long time. i have to really think and get my brain around this, but i want to make my future and i somewhat believe that we make our own path so i come to a fork on the road and i have been there for a long, long time... i need to re-access my life and see where it takes me. i have no children, nothing to keep me here and still i remain... why? is it that inside i feel so inferior and i have no chance to survive in the real world, so i remain in this bubble safe and warm, away from the hardships and pain. i know it so well and i really keep myself from going there ever... it scares me to death!

aaahhhh.... dang, i wish we had photo.stamp {link from bloopy which he found at j-walk} available at the Canadian Post Office... I went even crazy to write to them about it... what is wrong with me? I found it to be so cool and such a great idea that I had to mention it to them and see if they would even take it into consideration but I think they will just blow me off and that will be the end of that... I may get some for my mom and sis though heee... that sounds great! that will be my next thing... I have to get registered though... These are great gifts for to give at christmas time!

I'm an Orgasm!! There are a few variations on this drink but one way to reach the climax is to combine equal parts of Irish cream liqueur, white creme de cacao, triple sec and vodka!
"Which cocktail are you?" brought to you by Quizilla

thanks to nickle annie for the quiz

( ) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city

(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states
(x) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger

( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested

(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino

( ) been skydiving
( ) skinny-dipped

(x) skipped school
(x) seen a therapist

( ) done the splits

(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches

( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour

(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex

( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan

(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped

( ) shoplifted

(x) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher

( ) celebrated Mardi-Gras in new Orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day

(x) Been to Canada (I live here... Eh??)
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show

( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire

(x) Eaten Sushi (And love it!! Greatly!!!0
(x) Been skiing/snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet

( ) lost a child

(x) gone to college
(x) graduated college
(x) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself

( ) taken painkillers

thanks to JAG who found it at Dawn's??

Thanks to JAG for Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com by callalily19

agnosticism 92%
Paganism 83%
Satanism 58%
Buddhism 58%
Islam 38%
Hinduism 38%
atheism 29%
Judaism 29%
Christianity 21%

You scored as agnosticism. You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof).

Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.

thanks to annika for the battle which btw i won!!!

maizzy is a Giant Robot that breathes Fire, and fears the Military. Strength: 9 Agility: 3 Intelligence: 8 To see if your Giant Battle Monster can defeat maizzy, enter your name and choose an attack: fights maizzy using Strength Agility Intelligence

thanks to bloopy i got into the quiz and then i saw more and tried them:

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?
Your Linguistic Profile:

60% General American English
20% Yankee
10% Upper Midwestern
5% Dixie
5% Midwestern

What's your Japanese Name?


Cho Matsuki


What Age Will You Die?
79 = You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.


What Age Do You Act?
You Are 26 Years Old...
20-29: You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.


What Does Your Name Mean?
MAIZZY:
M is for Musical
A is for Active
I is for Impressive
Z is for Zappy
Z is for Zippy
Y is for Yummy

Benny and Jen2... he's the cuties pupp... yah!!!

quiz at jen2 which she got from markie and i think i will try her favorite list, too. that will be later, though... Here I am:


Which Incredibles Character Are You?
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my first thought was, OOOH MY!! only bloopy can be funny at the same time he's mean... ok about being some what fucked for finding him cute... yep, i guess i am... heee... but hey i think its due to the Asian thing that is all... heee... but no matter what he is hilarious, specially about the fear of squirrel story he posted yesterday!!!

OCM has the funniest post!!

b-g's NEW Ipod Shuffle (1gb) bought on the 4-11.


part of our condo... on a nice dirty day... hee... i just saw it and reminded me that i have to clean the house more often then i do now!!

for the past few weeks i been wondering what the hell was crashing my PC (its only 6mths old the #$%^) turning it blue... so, i called mycrobytes and brought it in to them... on Sunday, they came to the conclusion that there were some viruses, with a $40 dollar charge, which i paid... i cannot believe it happen as i'am clinically always on top of my norton & all other updates that need to be done. like, checking it like 3-5 times a day and then i get told that my PC was experiencing virus problems, what the hell! i come home hook everyhting and it does it again, i just decided to reset and it all was good for the day... on Tuesday, it does the same thing again... took a picture to capture it (have pics of other time it has crashed)! i am deciding if i should take it back for repair.

i started to look really closely to see what the prob was..looking at the windows task manager nothing was wrong there... so i decide to go to the 'application' tab and start IE. what i see is 'SysFader' popping up when IE is loading but fades and IE 'home page' is shown.

i read all the threads on the wilderssecurity.forum and tried the fade information guidelines they had there... i haven't seen any problems but also, windows update has just installed the hotfixes (6) for what ever was wrong, i think. my mouse doesn't want to run away from me like it had been doing for the past few weeks and no blue screens, yet! crossing my fingers that it won't happen again... it discourages me from surfing...

why is it that i can't find answers to my manic-freakiness. i hate feeling shitty... i spend the afternoon out trying to see life in the bright light of the day that was today. when i laugh i feel a deep urge to start crying. what the fuck is wrong with me. i want to scream b-g doesn't understand me and i cannot really blame him. it's all in me and i have to get it out some how??? i have no pc.. it has gone to the pc hospital... they'll call tomorrow to see what the out come will be. thinking about the freaken' pc, i cannot believe b-g thought of it first then me. i was like let the freaken' thing die, he (PC) is telling me something.. yes i am very superstitious, when the PC went down on the fritz, i felt like it was saying i'm coming with you if you leave. my PC loves me... am i being so stupid? yes probably but who cares... i have been reading and i wish at times i had a better life then the one i have... it seems that i have a boring existence...

ok let me get over my self pitiful shitof a life... aaahhhh.... i cannot write i need to get over this depression and go to the light... is it season freaken change... why am i not getting happy instead i get like sad & cry!!!! aaarrrggghhh!!!

bloopy made my day... he so sweet... he made me feeled warm. i was reading his post on the shitty architectual make-over! made me laugh, as it's so true exec's never know what the lower rank peeps are ever thinking.. heee.. you go boy! heee..monkeybutt... mr. peabody! heee... i got bloopy from tony, which i was relaly happy and still am.

later... much later i am feeling this...
every now and then i am so sad about things in my life... killing myself is the best thing to do at times, but why is it that i am a pathetic chicken to do it. tried it 3 times and the last was going to be the end but instead the concierge came in and called 911. i get happy, i get sad, i get angry! but all comes up to the same thing... i can only help myself no one else can do it for me i try but it doesn't work!

memoirs of a geisha w/ gong li & Zhang Ziyi is being made... i cannot wait... i liked that book! cool... there is no official site yet!

3-31-2005 thanks to Bruno for the quiz... yah!!!


You're a Cappicinno!


What Kind of Coffee are You?
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What was No.1 on the day you were born?
US = Killing Me Softly With His Song - Roberta Flack
UK = Cum On Feel The Noize - Slade
nice, i like both songs and they don't suck! great! JAG

looking around came upon:
five27
ABG
S & C movie
1051am
paigesix 21
michelle

lobster messiah -left a msg on the charm thing
french kitty - wanna go see what they have available to download & to buy, hopefully its cute...
mad tech speaks - wanna comeback to read him...
radio - asian what else can i say... savy, bizz
Canadian blogs - wanna join
copperman - have to go back to see about firefox and other links
makepovertyhistory - get the white band to support the end of poverty

yes! found an indonesian restaurant at MtlPlus but the address was wrong.got the new one from canada411 i feel like having it for diner tonight!

Restaurant Nonya Cuisine Indonésienne
151, avenue Bernard Ouest
Montréal, QC H2T 2K3
Phone: (514) 875-9998
Hours: Tues-Fri 12pm-3pm; 6pm-10pmSat-Sun 5-10pm (Mon closed)

thinking of cooking Fri. or Sat:

Bulgogi (BBQ Beef Korean style)
Ingredients:
1 kg cross cut beef (or shoulder cut)
1 carrot, sliced into matchsticks
1 onion, sliced
3 spring onions, chopped

Marinade:
2 rings of canned pineapple
1 whole kiwi fruit peeled
2 tbsp soy bean oil
3 tbsp sugar
2 tbsp sesame oil
1 tsp black pepper
1 tbsp ginger
2 tbsp beef stock powder
1 1/2 tbsp crushed garlic
1 tbsp toasted sesame seeds
100ml soy sauce

Slice the beef thinly (you can slightly freeze the beef beforehand to make this easier).

For the marinade:
Blend the pineapple and kiwifruit together using an electric hand beater or blender. Then stir in the soy bean oil, sesame oil, black pepper, crushed ginger and garlic, sugar, beef stock powder, toasted sesame seeds and soy sauce. Mix the beef well in this marinade and put it all in the fridge over night.

The next day you simply barbecue or fry! Because the beef is thinly sliced it shouldn't take long to cook. If you don't use it all, it can be kept in the fridge for 2-3 days.

Serve with steamed white rice, a selection of Korean side dishes and a cold beer!

Zulieka: Monday, September 27, 2004

i hear screams and ran over to the bathroom expecting something tragic had happened... i asked 'what happened? ur hair? ur hurt willy? what?' and what i get is: 'i poured some gel on my hand and it slid into the drain. that is why i yelled, crap! i hate when that happens,' he said. i just walked away saying 'OMG!' i still think that was dumb...

taking me away from such and interesting read. name zulieka a mix of Japanese & Swedish, talented and very provocative reminds me of justagirl with a touch of music. the things you find at tony's place. i did thank him for leading me to her blog. im in July 5th 2004...

i went to tony early Sunday in the evening and read his posts... curiosity got the best of me and read her 'til late morning and woke to keep on reading... shit afternoon...

the name reminds me of this woman (her name i cannot quite remember) i knew, her sister was named Zulieka. i was 9yrs old. and my family was still together (brother was a distant future thing). we lived in LA (on Rampart, bad place to live.) at the time, i thought they were so hip! i remember going in their home and listening to really loud 80s music... i sat or lounged on their couch while they just listen to music... i know now they must have been dopped up because now i can place the odor their home had but being young and naive at that time, i didn't know shit if it looked me right in the eye... ooh, the days of good old innocence...

need to go and finish of my chinese series...

mini van oddisy 2005 sleek looking having great options... w/ more horse power... cool... for the future!

so, saturday (19th) was Kya's 8th b-day! got her the cake... but she recieved 2 others (cheesecake & one that Janetta made) both very yummy! had wonderful time... Kitty& her 1yr old daughter were there, Kya's best friend Sabrina, Khalil & Jasmine w/ Steph & Lawrence, Melisa & Steve (he left wasn't feeling good), Janetta brought her son Tyreeq & her business partner Emily... Later Shaq-il (Janetta's 10 yr old) came... we had fun... evening time when only Janetta, Melisa, Emily & me were left, we played scrabble, which i took over and helped everyone.. hee... make words... then decided on blackjack... paid for .25 cents a game... heee... i got tired around 10.30pm and left... b-g came to get me, i asked him why he didn't want to come. he didn't want to be around so many kids and did not feel like it. i left it at that...

i had a wonderful sleep, woke up at 11.30am... b-g had gone to work by then... he said that i slept through his goodbye kiss... watched 'twin dragons' i have 12 more episodes to rent and then i'm done... this story is so good... aaahh... need to find others as the new ones are not coming anymore with subtitles in English due to $$$...

the car will be ready to day between 4-10... we got a LEXUX IS300 w/ the premium pkg... installed a spoiler, hood deflector, anti-theft devices, cargo net & extra set of tires (winter)... i cannot wait, im so excited for b-g!!! i love to see him happy. he deserves this. he works so hard and feels constantly tired and that nothing really comes of it... i say the next thing is a house... heee... he says maybe something else first heee... i don't know and i don't get my hopes up either... cuz for him it could be renovations... heee... i never know with him...
so, i will get my b-day present heee... i did get something that he thought i would like 'a parisian scarf' i though SAJ when i got it... heee... it was made in paris... and it cost a few... i seen it before and 100% silk... from that store that is truly expensive... ooohh lalala... he's so knows me, he got me a book mark... hopefully i start on my new series soon...

went around and saw a few i liked but it seems they are only being sold across the ocean... well, there is E-bay but i don't trust it there, so that is, like, forget it! now i really need to think about it... i get a little apprehensive when it comes down to use my personal info on the net. scary thing...

here are some i liked:
fishies2
fishies2
clear blue
clear white daisies

keanu, the hotty!!
Bex, my new link...
mr. bloopy, he's annoyed at my comment size limitation & gave me tons of info. on MACs! i will be getting MAC-Book... but my boyfriend will be getting himself a windows laptop... i really don't want him to get it because it will cause problems... aaaaahhh...

i have found my ideal toilet seats (didn't even know they made them ) but they are a bit far away! but they are still so cute... transparent!!! i want one... will look to see if they offer them here in the good old North America! i'm assuming they exist here in N.A... thanks to justagirl for the picture...

Have been watching my chinese series... i'm on my 22 chapter out of 40... will be going on the a net search for the transparent toilet seats! yes, i want one, specially now that i know they exist!!

'le deuxieme jour de ma P... tengo que usar todas mis lenguas, si no voy a perderlas... penso...'

inspired by bloopy. his asking a 'maleta' instead of a 'bolsa' episode was funny! made my early morning. heeee... it can only happen to funny English people. ok so it happens to me too... aaaarrrggghhh... heeeee...

tricky little Kya wants her ears pierced... hmmm... we had talked about that and had decided that she would be getting them done when she turned 11yrs. she's been asking her mother but i know Kya she doesn't like pain... how is she going to deal w/ the earpiercing gun... aaahhh... chris doesn't remember the talk we had awhile ago over that... she tends to forget alot...

so yesterday night i come home from chris's at 2 am and turn on the tv to the national geographic channel and started to watch "fat plague:" could obesity be a virus?
well, doctors have found that Ad-36 virus (adenovirus 36) that is found in animals (which started w/ chickens, Bombay 1980s), has been found in humans. a study has shown that 30% of obese people may have the antibodies, compare to 10% of normal weight people. everyone that contracts this virus gains grossly amounts of weight.

Sunday afternoon, got ready and headed to my b-day party that was being held at chris's... the kids were there... i was a bit upset as i thought we had talked and said that there would not be children and only girls night! but it didn't turned out to be... as my understanding was not right. then found out that steph's husband was coming and i even got more upset... i had told b-g that he was not allowed... then realized that i had forgotten the camera at home. asked b-g to go and please get it. when he finally came. Kit-ty had come, a Peruvian girl w/ her 1yr old. chris had invited her. the kids were roudy and i had a huge headache. i didn't want to go as i was some what depressed. steph handed me 2 ultra tylenol, which was a total mistake! i felt so sick and wierd for the rest of the night! Jeneta & her 4yr old name tyrik came. then Melisa w/ her boyfriend Steve 'Jean-Marie' came. all hell broke loose... and steph ended up leaving w/ her kids... the drama... crap... so it was handled and all settled and the night went on pretty smoothly... talking about all sorts of things... about motherhood, race, cultrue, AIDS, crime, etc...

yesterday was a disturbing day for me, more like i felt distrubed! i woke to miss Kya waking up (8 am) her mother and she got a 25 min. (i got explain to it later that she was pouting and giving her mom problems) time out... i decided to call steph, lives in the same building... her kids are a bit roudy but they're sweet...

Kya and me went to have breakfast and stupid me just brought coffee for me... how selfish was that... though she didn't tell me she wanted any, how was i to guess that... so, her husband was there... he's a nice guy but he was not happy as i had interupted their morning thing... hey, but first the kids were already up and at their door... so how could they do the moochie-coochy thing... he stayed in the bd-room pouting for like 1 hr 1/2 . we all ate breakfast...muffins...

i was feeling somewhat not all there in my head... chris came 2hrs to ask for help w/ her taxes... i was not all there so decided to go down to chris's but steph was like why... bla bla... i just had to be alone... got onto the net and went to see my site & read my comments: justagirl had left a message that she had surf from Tony. he had put my site on his blog (this is the 2nd time, how thoughtful a nobody like me, heee)... i went to check it & i felt sorta happy... and then tears just started to roll down my cheeks... i felt special because a total stranger put my stupid site on his blog. i get so fuckin' sentimental over everything around my b-day. why is that? a total stranger... someone who knows my freaken teen idol-crush!!! yes, i had freaken wall to wall pics of Wil Wheaton... what yes, i had a freaken huge crush, i thought he was such a cutie! & Kirk Cameron... what was wrong with me, you say, i was a teen in the late 80s, that's why... heee... brings fond memories... i am not ashamed of that at all, we all have our little dark and geeky secrets... i should find the only picture taken of my room when i had it plaster w/ posters of them both... heee... well, there were also 10 others on my: Bon Jovi, Corey H & F, Partick Swayze, etc... that brought a smile to my face... when i saw the pics of Wil & Tony, i was like he knows him... wow!! i go back to my teen-hood years! thanks to Tony, i've seen Moxie, his wife is a beauty! they have similar ways of writing, no wonder they make a make a great couple... heee... saw the pics of their wedding awhile ago, so romantic. it makes me cry... gosh, stop that! what is wrong w/ me... all is lost in my freaken sobs! i try but so hard! break need to go & let it out... coming back...

so, im back, i think am i part of the math? im so depressed... i feel happy reading other peoples beautiful lives... yesterday i was low and my spirits lifted when i saw justagirl's comment... then once at her site i lost my train of thought of depression... she made me forget about me... she reminds me of my dearest friend Carolyn (now in a coma since summer of '99) who had so much spunk, attitude and love for everyone she met! her energy was great for a woman w/ a deadly desease sickle cell anemia. when i saw justagirl, she reminded me of her so much... such happy thoughts of my beautiful friend! please wake up!

so, as i read and wrote... chris came down, i told her that i had mix feelings on the b-day party... she at this point of time cannot afford the party... so, i decided to give her $$ for it... i don't mind the fact that she is letting me have it at her place & cooking all the food... i don't mind paying for the food... it made her feel bad because she doesn't want to feel like a charity-case... i just don't want her to get into debt because of me. plus, Kya and she needed it more... so, it was settle i gave her $$$ and it all turned out ok... still, things were not truly right inside of me... i ignored it, and watched the chinese series 'twin of brothers' i got at china town (rented 15 episode of 40)...



heee... the afternoon flew by and i had decided to stay at steph's, as chris had been invited for diner, but her daughter was really getting upset that i prefer to leave for them to handle their child... i didnt want to bother them... i came home watched the rest of the movies... slept at 5am.

book, hmm... thought of getting it. i will call it in this week on the 1-877-#).

bloopy - a cute asian, i think? heee.. i have already my asian baby but i can still look, right *wink! makes me happy! getting back to the '...freshfeeling.com' he was nice enough to give me very specific information on what comes w/ a MAC (x)... stuff i didn't have no idea... i am very happy... went to visit and its a great site... so many yummy links (which i clicked on!)... i even send the loony toon to a friend & posted the link to HARTZvictim site for a OCM.

bloopy reminds me of my best friend 'mondo.' i find him so interesting... plus, the yummy links i have seen of just his past post make me laugh, think and feel sad... Thank you bloopy for the information, it is greatly appreciate it!

OCM - is my first blog friend! he and i share b-day March 14 & fishy sign!!! hope he enjoys his birthday... we pisceans are so sentimental, dreamers and big hearted! my friends are giving me a party today & tomorrow on D-day, i am having chris & Kya at my place for pot roast diner! my first pot roast meal!! i am so excited... heee... i already marinated... will start cooking it in the early afternoon... it's beautiful... pictures to come... heee...

crap! need to go and take a shower... do my hair... i cannot wait for the meal chris made OX tail (my chinese horoscope, heee)... the cake is made by a friend-to be (she has her own restaurant went to pastry school w/ chris) for sure...

r&b - rap mood: freak-a-leek, can u do the work, drop it like it's hot, my boo!! i may be depressed but music makes me feel so much better... thank god for music!!!